there gone and i miss them,it and being with the others!!

i think i mentioned the get together whichwas yesterday and judging by my title you may have guessed i am here nt there lonely nt with them....
all the cousin went the ones we are extremly close ones too coz they are off for easter form uni!!and the ones rom norway too wit hthere bfs.and my sister too!!she went from uni to see them...bt me i couldnt go,i came down with an awful illnes and was lying on the floor for much f the mornging before they went and so i stayed here.
my teenager of a brother was a complete shit, im sorry bt i will dam use this moment to moan,for a start noone reads this so who cares,im bitter sometimes and sorry bt its me. he firslty didnt get up leaving his alarm to wake us and the rest of the country,(he has it full blast right nxt to his hear which somehow makes it unhearable to him bt painful to the rest of the house)and so he ws late,and being a boy with girls round and having to be cool age he took age sin the shower and getting dressed,and he was watching t.v so the mixtures was a shit lol.and all this time my dad was getting quite pissed,first coz i think he was evr so slightly anry iasnt going,mre dissapointed i think,he doesnt know hw much pain i was in with it all,bt he nevr does with thse things he think u cn overcome anything,so he was getting nakry and brother was almost jibeing him on being slower and mre sighs and moans came frm him,and in the end my dad snapped and said sam instead of omading making noisesa dn slamming things rounf lets have the argumt u r trying to get out of me,and i had to agreee with him ere this is clearly what he was waiting for.and he was being a pain to mum,very rude,bt nt jst rude rude bt that nasty kind,and then he swore at my dad and wo,we all no,get dwon if u swear to my dad coz he swtiches and you;ve had it.so i stood there mum sat there telling sam quitly(so dad wouldnt hear he wasnt dress)until he was a complete shit to her and she snapped too,and so he made me them tow hrs late yues thats right.and i did feel so sorry for my dad,whenever he is invited to granpas everyone moans,and i cnt imagine what thats like because for goodness sake this is his dead we are talking bout and hw weould we feel,and he doesnt see him haf as much as he wants to or should and i think its parlty becasueof us too.i dnt think it different for mums mum i think its mre she lives two muntes away therefore we dnt moan seeing her simply coz she gets here so eaisly and vice versa whilst grans is bout an hr away in car,which mind u stil isnt anything to maon bout.then there came the bombshell my dad put when he slipped they were staying there too,oh my borther face oh oh oh i wanted to slap it off,theres rude,there hermonal teenager and theres the ungrateful mean person he was right then.and so they went him moaning at the heels ame cube in hand.and i had a little tears in m eyes.i wish i oculd have gone,mum ave me big hug and god it felt good though when we have one like that a real moment where i actually feel she is hugging the love into me its nice.you wnt get the bt screwur ur a coimputer and jst jealous u have too many conrer to hug nicely wihtout being impaled through someone.(ohoh dnt feel bad*give friend the laptop a friendly tap*there we go sorry ur a faithful stead sorry)i was then alone and thinking bout being alone in the ngiht,i had to swtich this off czo thinking boutit would make it something it wasnt i wasnt going to bed like usualy it was jst me on myown is all get ovr it,so i did.ad i dat down to freaky friday and reading cookbooks learning but cuts of meet different types of chesses and tyoes of yoghurt and pasrty and biscuits and tihng,ooh a lovely time!!

i have a omcplaint though no dam soaps today im sorry bt hw can the goverment opne betting shops on this special day and nt allow soaps ooh the blood boils oh hw the blood boils.

and then i slipped away to my bed and slept nicely aaaaaaa!!

bt they have gone and they did see everyone and im sorry for that,apparently my older cousin off the fam we close to asked where i was stragih off,i have always got on with g ,we always play fought and he sia di had the hardest punch and when i recently did it he siad it has nvr gone lol!! and we get on with jokes genst eacohter and its jst fun,and recently through my tough bits he has really aid some amazingly sweet and beautiful things to me,he dsnt know that on some days he has even gotten me through,so i thank him for opening up and being there for me because some of my issues are nice ot run from and it mst be awkward for cousins to understand bt hes been there.he a lovely man,very clever and could charm the pants off anyone,one of those geezers that will land on there feet with gusto from char wit bt also with the troopping force of nvr giving up hard work too.there wholefamily are amazing,my auntie and uncle are sweet sweet people,my anutie being from my dads side has got the strgon sometimes shit i might cry coz that came cross harsh when it is jst hw ur family say things and i now u dnt mean to bt it a human reaction kind of tihng lol.and my uncle who is also my god-father is a calm tranquil man who comes out with some amazingly funny things,he gave me a bible and is quite no scrub that very religous he does talks for church and they go every week for the service,he is such a quite man almost secret or shy bt he simply watches the world around him.there is my cousin the youngest and only girl of the three who came to stay,you know the one who my best friend too,she great ive spoken her priases enough for a big head so leave it there.and there there the yonuger brother who is jst as nice,he has been through rough times like all three have had some struggle in there time actually.he suffers with a lacking of ocnfidence quite a bit,and mre than he will admit bt nt mre than he can hide from us lot,and he can cover it up with some tendances that seem bit of a guy thing lol,bt he is incredibly sweet very funny and is a wacky lad,they are all so different and i think he can sometimes struggle with being the elders younger borther and he cnt jst get things like the eldest and i think doesnt quite know his path yet so has to wrk thorugh mre to get to whre he want to be bt he will and he doing it. so i missed them lal terribly and the norwegain cousin too.i wonder waht grnapa will be spreading for dinner was my first thought,whehever we went to the granps house when gran was alive she would work so simply yet must have taken shit loads for almsot twent of us and sometimes mre,she would make a roast dinner with every type of trimming all home made no ackage stuff,and then a crumble deffo and then a anohter dessertor too with that.it was a must and we would all sit round the huge table i nthe fomral dining room\(they own a b&b)which is a nicer one coz it in a teerrace house in theposh part of royal lemaington spa lol) so they have a fomral dininng room which a huge with enough space for all the fam when we go,and so when she pst it has jst ben somehting happens my grnapa always make sit,n o matter whether ur stopping through to colect something or jst mean tobe going for a quick visit he will always greet u with a smeel off a cooking full blown dinner lol.though i was shocked when mum told my they were having a cold lunch,nw a ocld lucn i thin i ave said before at there house is by no mean jst ur average sandwhich,no u cn get a few cows and frehs bread fresh made this and that there two butchers cuts of this and all sorts, bt it wa still different.bt hey.


i jst want to interput this to say i love that advet twith the dog in the car singing outragiously coz hes got the confidence of the car whilst it switches to his friend singing in a quite shaky town as shes out in the street with her owner,i love it so much makes me smile every time it comes on,though with such good adverts i nvr actually know what car thy are adveretising coz im on the dogs lol!!

i later got text from mum saing they had launched the always happening debate of one thing or another,this time ws the poles and that state of things in russia or soemthing,nd so she was sitting watchignsam playing game cube lol.bless.
anyway its the nxt day nw im up with the smell of bread and butter pudding great them when they get here.so yay!!