being a child..

i was recently watching t.v(oh surpsingin i know)and there was a program bout hw things have changed since the olden days.nw there seem to be many of these around at the moment.i think people really do wish that thing we were back then sometimes, whenever back then was to them anyhoo. our wordl is so crazy nw, things have gone to place noone evr wanted them to and our futures dnt look all too pleasing either. the war has tunred things into siht in certina places,whether we agree it should have happened or why it did or wehere it went once it started ,its happening and is escaluting all ovr the wolrd,its seems like once one source is found,saved or talked but anohter place in the wolrd is getting angered or bombed too.i dnt pretend i no anything bout the war or the politics that go into it, iprobably should because it upsets me enough, im also fully aware of how i feel and hw i want the wolrd to be a pretty little picutre i know it cnt be.where everyone lives togterh in peace,sharing loving and helping those that need it, where it doesnt fucking matter what god we support waht time we prey,not mattering what clothes we wear for our faith or who we see as the leader,jst as long as we can share our own views own them on our own nt force others to see them or use them to hurt ohters because we belivev ours ave ownerships on others. how we're nt selfish or use our countires powers to hurt others.hw people dnt care whether they think being homesexual is wrong,so what if they do if they think it say it in the bible or some other source then o.k let it be that person choice the choice they fully have the right to own,why hould we hurt them because we dnt beeoive it is right,it is there choice there life, there like us thye walk round.love live and laugh like us. and a world jst banned of dam racism, i cnt stand it i have so many argument with people bout it, i jst dnt get it i cnt even get my head round it, hw can be a different coloured skin, or whaqtever make them different, i have different coloured hair to my mum surely thats the same, we all still have friends,wathc eastenders,laugh at friends and drink starbucks coffee,we all still want some o th ame thing..a family, a life with meainign, jobs,friends and jst a general niceness.
i cnt understand it, my hw things have changed.

its strang e because even since the wolrd war 2 which was horrific as hell people seem ot be in a different place. my gran talks bout those days in the bunkers being scared to death,bt hw they were all there for eacohtoer,how they rallied round and helped whoever they oculd,it scares me that at what point or who would we tunr away in there times of need. i am also fully aware if have the mst negative view on the planet my glass is always emtpy nvr mind 1/2 lol!!and i no that there are still some amazing people out there some fabulous people doing great things,bt there are also nw lots mre scary ones too.

i was also wathinc ga program bout what age people wanted to be if they could go back,or perhaps even forward!! and it was interesting to see lots of people answers, a major amount of them nevr wqnted to be a teenager again,it seems that even the jock out there hated high-school and everything bout it, there were some funny ones like,one minute old!!or a very old age!!the major answer that came out though was to be a youngling,and it ranged through this time,from 6 until like 12,and the other interesting thing was that mre of the elderly people wanted to be towards the age of twleve as a yonugster age,i think this is because nw children are seeing and having to go thorugh mre adult and hurtful issues at a much oynuger age.my sister and i was playing with barbies at age 12 wheras nwadays you say tat to a12 yr oldround here you would get that,'oh no man, so uncool' look lol!!
the yonug age seem to be a good pick though for all,its a time with tea-partys,gigles,friends,ating what you want without feeling shit aftwerwards,smudging mud in ur hair and nt caring,screaming blue murder and being able to get away with it,going on day trips and camping and stuff with the family,actually seeing the family and going for big get together with the whole extended family.being stupid with brothrs and sisters,mbeing cuddled all the time, jst little things and not usually having a car in the wolrd.
dnt get me wrong i know there are pople in high-school contented with things, jst as much as there are people that had a shit childhood, i dnt know it seems different somehow and i get scared and worreid for things to come.

like my mum always tells me bout her childhood,and even things like her clothes,like her red pinifores and bowl hair cut, with the red shiny shoes, things were so cute and simply wheras nw some kids refuse to wear things that arent 'cool'.people all seemed to do anything for eactoher to,lneind gread and milk often, the phrase'can i have some sugar' form the neighbour was actually real lol!! then there is when she used to run to the shops on her own to get milk and orange juice,wheras nw u would be worried to see a kid that age on there own.
i dnt know things often seem lots worse when it raining dnt they lol(actually nt raining co that makes a nice sound on our roof, mre like these gale and grey shitty clouds make things seem mre gray lol!!)
time for family seemed mre prominantly too, we all used to eat round the table and together which i think alos can explain the reason for the current issue with kids weight(ooh dnt get me started) because when we made time we seems toeat bettr together nt jst nipping up quik less nutrtiotious foods.

i love rambling bout thing dnt i lol!!
i think times can also be good and i know people who are perfectly happy go lucky so all is good there!!
things jst seem different nowadays, maybe the whole point people wnat to be that yonug age is simply because they could ingore the shit that was going on all around us like today lol..because we werent clevr enough to no what the hell was going on!!