our car..our wonderful car!!

its finaly ovr our wonderful car has finally given up,laid down and told it nvr wants to move again.

we got out fiesta our little white rusty fiesta from my gran,yrs ago for cheap as chips,jst like our good old sofas actually lol,and its been doing us simple justices evr since,we love it it loves us,we've had memories in it with gran and then to us,its a car that been around the lands a bit,its been borrowed befre it came ot us by our other family members and its trudged all up the mountains,hrs by hrs with too many people and luggage in the back somtimes too lol.
and evry yr for a few yrs nw we have been worried for its safety,will it keep going,every time we send it for it mot the mecahnic has a laugh bout it and says they all prepar for it when it comes in,it tough bt we laugh back when our little baby passes every time,each time maybe with a few mre things that need doing to it to keep it ship and shap bt no its all cool and she laughs back at them too,her and herrusty eyeslids.
then its has gotten worse,everyone in our village nw knows when we are coming coz we sound like a dam tractor lol.seriously it sounds so bad so so bad and loud and unreal as a car lol.its got such promise though as it goes like a trupour and keep us comfy and safe.

and then today it came back from its mot with a tear in its eyes as it said its final 'sorry folks cnt do it nommore i want to sleep nw'and the garage man said he said a prayer for it and that he actually kinda sad too.and we all our,this car holds mre than jst rust,its hold memories and it holds my gran there too, and we are all sad.its also the car me and my ssiter drive so we are totally bummed, i took my lst journey down to the shop with her tonight and im sure the others will do so too.i know all this ovr a car,bt if u had her you would understand,bt she also a dangerous beast nw and all the things the mechanic came up with as to whats wrong with her,oops i think we were kidding ourselves for soem time nw,cz she is seriously seriously dangerous.

so goodbye fiesta.and goodluck with all the other fiesta and bmw's and prches up there in little car heaven go shw em what ur made of.oh and let us know hw we're going to get a new car for cheap as chips please.thanks...

sister got a big interview lalalala!!

nw my sister is in her lst yr of uni and is having all this stress with exams and what the hell to do with her future really.and she has as i've sed before i think had a interview which she gt so close to getting,and nw she has got to face another one,she is again in the final round.and i had issues with writing bout it coz of my suspisioucness of jinkness and things like that that might float round our planet and cause devistation if we mention good tihngs wihtout touching wood or such things lol.bt i thought i can talk but it and be in antisipation with it its nt like im saying she has got it or anything.and so to nxt week in the interview...today her and mum went to town and she got all these great clothes,from primark too,nw cheaper clothes sometimes dnt fit right or or you know cheaper looking,bt you know these ones she has arent and primark seems to be in a league of there own because cheap doesnt mean crap int there case,it simply means be cautiosu bt hell cn you find a bargian!!so shes ready with her suit and pants,we debated on waht colour shirt,she tried the black it looked ok bt needed an extra jewelry kick that she didnt have,so she went with the white,then she has her evening wear which is a floaty green top with a mid belt and some brown trouser and delicate shoes,this loooks lovely and she will wear it for the eving meal thye have there,because for the interview she gets to be posh and stay in a hotel for a night or maybe its two and be wined and dine,bt of course interviewed too,so good luck to my sister.oh she bought a suitcase too lol!!

to france she goes

karon off losse women really is leaving for a life in paris,i didnt want to beleive it bt she has quit her shw and i searched for the RUMOUR ISNT TRUE ARTCILES bt there are non she is moving.i do wish she will come back every week to record the shw though,she is my favourite, they all have a go at her though and i realised the other day i think it is simply coz us women cannot accept this lady is clearly happy with what she has,she all outgoing doesnt care kind of women,eats drinks and does what she wants,sometime si feel she is very slap yo in the face with some comments,bt if she doesnt agree she says it so my reaction back is the same as hers jst the oppisite side so we all do it.she great thought,funny,dry and sarcy women and sassy to boot.love it.dnt leave karon!!ooh i know i'll email in hehe,you know jst to add to the sad ness that is meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

good on her.

leona lewis is the first women to get a number one in america for 20yrs.good on her,she won our x-factor and is clearly dam talented and has a strong voice in her, and i do love her songs actually whihc i nvr wanted to do lol cz usually i feel the pop idol shws miss out on some great talent and mre bring in people to bring in show watchers.bt no she was clearly a winner lst yr.
and im in no way sainyg this made it happen bt it must have helped to have a popular guy in america like simon cowall as her manger and he mst be swimming in his own pool of ego!!

it was great..

desperate housewives got straight back to its comfrtably quippy action and i loved it..
borthers and sisters tomorrow people cnt u all jst feel the need to say yippee,though i notuce the one in the night is coming to the end of the series so i sit here with slight fear of what it will be replaced with.

i am sad to say though i have missed a fair few improtnat to me prgrams this week,with either my current cold thing i have,or jst out of sheer stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid me-ness.
like a few great britsh menue.i know shocker!!and the apprentice which wasnt a priority bt mre of a ooh bit interest in that one,and one i am kicking myself bout,no kicking myslef again and again ovr is trial and retirbution on thursday.i fear it was the lst one,or if it wasnt it ceritnaly was the second part,and it isnt showe don itv catch-up so im f**cked at this point.

my book is great.really funy dnt want it to go nw,im hooked loli want to carry on living there lives with them lol.she has now found out she is the same person she used to be insdie and is clearly unhappy with life,her friends or a few of them came back to her when they realsed things were nt the same and shew was nt the bitch that was before the accident bt the same out going one,until the board meeting when she had to fire them all,which she nevr infact new bout cz she lst the memorys so didnt remebr the big meeting thy had bout it happenign with the bosses.she has also met her lover right nw as he said she had a plan to save her part of the company bt couldnt think why she didnt use it until he thought shit she has no memory from back then.so its all go,oh she is beginnig to maybe see why she didnt like her husband so much,a particualr gfunny moment when she arrive home and he was naked with jst foam ovr he manly bits,she licked a bit and then pretended to have a flashback of the past HAHAHA to get out of it.bless it great!!
around the world in 80 days is the weekedn movie which to be honest is a bit pooey for me cz its nt my kinda thing.hmm what shall iwatch instead!!

interesting..

i was reading readers digest whihcmum always gets,and you can call me said all u like i love the capter called laughs or soemthing its really quite gigly stuff.and there was a bit of weird questions answered.and one was why do we got dry throats when we are nervous,and it explained that its our bodies going into fight or flght moad when our body is in need,so when were nrvous we are obviously scared or in danger of soething,so our bodys go to using all its resources for the important stuff,like blood vessels expand to get blod to our organs to breath or get away and our eyes dilate and our throat is one coz it dries as we dnt need to digest anything at that mment,and our digestive systme isnt needed to get away or preserve ourself so it shuts down like many other things this is also why(this bit is the really cool part i though)we get butterflies in our stomach,it is the feeling of it shutting down and nt working cz we dnt need it for durvival at that point of escape or occurant danger we get when were nervous say of going on stage or bigger things you no maybe escaping from a beast or soemthing!!

sheee's back...

my sister is back from uni,we thought she was home for the weekend so imagine our glee when she came with fifty bags of luggage lol.(i swear my ssite rhas the mst clothes i have evr seen,she a poor student lol bt somehow manages to wear somehting new every time i see her,she is a master of bargain hunting and deal finding though)(the next sale is her agenda for herfirst day back today lol)and so she was ome for a few weeks,for her easter break and we are all very happy lol.
she got a bitter dissapointment when she had to go out and asusmed she would be welcomed to have some of theparty food bt mum siad they didnt have enough,only for her to come back later in the nigt to find lots left-ovr,bt she rummaged and found some scraps of cookies and bread lol,poor babe.bt she is back bring her end of yr paper too,the big one the disatation of her life in these lst yrs of unis work,everything voila in this wedge of complicated words lol.i know hw relieved she is at having it dne,poor girl has been somewhat stressed with it all to be honest working herlsef literally into the ground.and im so glad she done im praying with all my heart it goes o.k.and looking at this work, man its like its in french i dnt understand a word,all this biolgy stuff on afids and dna and words i nvr new exsisted,nw im nt the cleverest thing in the box bt none of us here at our ouse could make sense ot it lol!!good on her!!
welcome back sis i've missed you!!

and today she can help herself to left-ovrs.including the puds which turned out to be,choc cheescakes,blueberry cheescake(one that always bring smemories of my gran and granpa cz it was the pudding they always bragn when they came for lunch,ooh choking feeling in throat,miss you gran)a orange cheescake and a lemon mirangue pie chunk.oooh get them,also a fair few bits and bobs like crips and stuff too.

the nuns the vicars..the slightly mre sluty nuns...eek

so lst night was the big night.the sister act/father ted night...
mum has been looking forward to this night for a long time nw.and it came.you could tell she was stressed out by it all bt its what she thrives off like all mothers i think lol,like i wonder waht mum would do if she didnt have the cleaning to do,whether she would feel un-needed or whether she would miss being able to make the house look wonderful or mum everyone around or even venting because noone would help lol. but tongiht was her night.
there is a point in the day when the rest of us on these occassions back off slightly and shy away until little people mre soldier like people ready to help,it is a role we need to have if we wish to sruvvive the night and or survive wihtout mother having a meltdown.it is a position i am afraid to say my dad and this time brother have issues with,my dad coz he jst has to be right and wnt back down at being a stubbron ass,and this time the brother oh yes the one i call the teenage hermoine in a body the irritating talking back grumpy shit at times brother was on form and was winding her up,everyone new he was doing it on purpose,goading her jst enough to make a impression until she actually walked out the room telling me and dad to sort him cz she cdnt deal with him tongiht,i think he genuinly doesnt think he is doing it bt knows he is,whuch doesnt make sesne i know bt...
i also know i complain bout him so much, bt this stage in his yrs that he is going through does effect others,those that have had borthers go through the teenage yrs will know it too, and im jst glad i say it on here and nt to him lol!!to be honest though we all agreee in our house that sisters teenage yrs wre bettr lol. girl are clever and have ways of doing things winding people up.sister shouted with dad did things against whatever he said bt that was it she wa a rogue,she went out mre kind of thing,and would smother us and want to cuddle and jump on us all the time,and play mussic at the am's and things like that. it was mre her problem was with school and she was launched into sceniors into a new class with new friends a bad group as we all call them,nt bad as in a gang gang,bt as in the ones who were smart clever ones and nused it to totally bullshit the other and the teachers,so it was there she had the issue which she cam eout of to be friends enough to go out to clubs with the teachers later in the school yrs!!brother is rude,shouts,say nasty things,swears and brings this really quite scary nastiness to himself sometimes soo..its different.me i dnt know what iwas like i was ill with a harsh illness and was in hosptial lots so needed mre taking care of and had a few excuses shall we say to be a little moany lol,im sure i was a bitch though too!!
bt so it was smoothly does it apart from those odd moments,i helped mum in the morning prepare a few things,decorated some mugs to give as przes for the little games they had to go.like pin the wart on mrs doyle. i wrote 'drink feck arse' whihc is one sof the vicars main qoates on one mug and go on go on go on on another.then i had a trip to the shop to get a few lst bits and bobs for mum.dad went to the tip to get rid of all the crap mum had accumilated from the big clean she had,this always happens wehn we have guests she literally cleans ever nook and cranny its aamzing,and of course on his way back he stopped at starbucks for a cinamon bun and a coffee lol.he cannot resist and IS actaully addictedly in love with the place...the man has a starbucks cards for peeps sake!!and then i had a headache so i went to bed and woke later at 5pm.i felt bit guilty coz mum had made the stew,the pie bases and the pastry and dumplings ready to go on,she had also decroated too...bt she said it was cool and i actually beleive her.so then i took ovr and did the soda bread..oohohohohoh jst thtough yes one to knock off the list of to cook' things,soda bread is another bread i wanted to try,and i did it,its got to be the simplest things evr no yeast or rising time jst mix and cook and serve,they liked it too so great stuff!!
and then got the dumplings on the stew and in it went,then the pastry on the pie and in it the oven it too went,and then to hellping mum set the table and jst rally round doing little jobs forher.she gave me a big hug and said she couldnt have done it all if i hadnt have come and help her,it made me feel rather lovely cz it felt mean nt jst that obvious need to thank someone that helps if you see what i mean.
and then when all the guest arrived joining mum were three girls in nun outfits and a man in his proiper vicar outfits that he had borrowed lol.and then came one husband who dressed up with skirt,cardigan and wig n all as mrs doyle the tea lady.and they all brought snacks and stuff and i took them and laid them in bowl and baskets and then put the pudding on plates and trays and stuff too.
and then came the lst guest the one with the nun outfit from anne summers,everyone was gobsmakcjed the men felt a tad uncomfortable because this was a lady with a v-neck top that covered jst the nipples and yues they had there wives there bt there men and there a breasts on shw hw do they look away or feel good bout knowing there a breastage on shw and they are men lol!!hmm tricky, was hilarious though.
and then it was time to dish up.beers and beverages were sipped,pies,cabage and stews were delved into and it was all enjoyed.
unfortunetly my head ahce had only got worse so i went back to bed and got a few hrs sleep and woke to laughter and a mixtureof sober/drunk giggle.i came down to mess everywhere,which i cleaned and got anohter hug and thankyou lol.made cups of tea to help the drivers get home,and listend to there chitter lol.
al in all i know mum loved the night,she always feel they should be doing mre like when they jst sit and chat should she be entertaining and will they be bored,gawsh the insecure women in our family lol.bt i think she enjoyed it and everyone got really involved,and if she loves it then great we loves it too.
so in the am's they all went to bed and i stayed down and cleared away all the washed dishes and to turn the dhiwasher off when it had done....the end lol.

its sad bt..

i love looking on property websites,searching the rich houses,for the lovely country cottages,to the flats in londn and to all the ones in our village which i can nw sneak a look into lol!!
and nw one of my favoutie sites has places in france,italy and spain lol,oooh hw good some of my fave places to look at,and then theres the list of what ur looking for lol,and going to fracne in the south(yes straight to the expensive bit)and to the mst prcied property first anf there slapping you in the face is the 70 million place on the coast.my gawsh is thise even a possible numbr to pay for a ahouse.gawsh gaswh gawsh gawsh!!nice to look at though.

everyone has dinner parties.

here on t.v there on the blogs all these people with get-togethers going off and dinner parties,am i that lonely that i cnt join in lol.boo hoo,why i say this i dnt know cz infact on friday we are having a st atricks day(yes late bt we no what they say bout the late than nvr line)where we are having the food the clothes and music and stuff....bt other ones like gourmet stuff with buffets and amuse bouche and pretty meals.ohhh i want to be a hostesss lol!!sometimes someimtes i want to amuse bouche,and make brillaint disshed for people to indulge in.some day...

i've found one..

AN ULCER..I HATE THEM,THERE ARE A FEW THINGS I CNT STAND..EAR-ACHE AND ULCERS AND MOUTH ISSUES ARE TWO OF THEM,AND I HAVE ONE RIGHT UNDER MY TEETH ON MY CHEEK SO EVERY TIME I MOVE IT RUBS ON THAT SHARP TOOTH AND HUUUUUUUUUUURTS OUCH.*RUNS TO CUPBAROD,KNOCKS EVERYTHING OUT NT CARING AND GABS BONJELA,NEW MINT FLAVLOUR PSH IT WILL DO AND SQEEZES HALF THE BOTTLE ON TO THE CULPERATE.*AND WHY IS IT WHEN U FIND ONE ANOTHER SRPUTS SOMEWHERE ELSE,I THINK IT MIGHT ACTUALLY BE A CATCHING THING MAYBE THEY ARE INFECTIOUS BT WHY NT SPREAD TO OTHERS INSTEAD OF SPREADING TO DIFFERENT PARTS OF MY MOUTH.hmm i understand this sounds a tad dirty as to spread to others it would have to be through mouth no,oooh unless it went through glass to glass.oooh must lick a glass of someone else pass this shit thing on...do i get weirder by the day..i think SO!!

new inventin from the sibling!!

brother couldnt decide on what to have for tea,he was going for warmed up shephard pie from yesterday then mum wanted it,so he tried his hand at caramalising carrots and left them sprawled across the counter staining it as he didnt fo them right,and then he went for a new one.he looked from fridge to all the cupboards first going for pasta with salm on we had left ovr in the fridge to then asking me what to do,so i shredded the lst of the roast chicken we had in the fridge and told hom to try it with toms and celery as a sald type thing,he smiled ssaing it was one of his favourite i did for him,then he said 'oh no i chucked the tomatos coz they were wrotten'and so i suggested tinned,he went for it then cunt find any sosi suggested puree and he finally arrived at this with a smile and had a simple chicken with tom puree and chicken ,and enjoyed it too!!thankgoodness a hungry teenage boyu is jst no good!!eek.

the list goes on..

the scrap of paper i write my to do coking list is nt shrinking bt being added to all the time.eek.i am nw going to put it in my new pad, which iam excited bout owning,i know hw silly bt psh with that, i love notebooks,seeing all the colours and patterns and stuff,and picking out some gorgeous colours ones with the write lines and stuff like that lol.

im a sucker for colours like in hardware stores with all the paints,seeing them match seeing hw they loook on walls,seeing the scrolls of wallpaper especially the ones in at the moment that have wonderul flowers like laura ashley type thing,and brightly coloured sofas and furnsihings,gawsh i looove it,and then things like art stores with the papers and craft stuff and envelopes and art materials i looove it all,and its the same with my new pad,it was afte my mum came home with one and she went and got me one too a bit different bt nt to different to nt be as fab,its pink(one pojnt chekced)and it has binders already in in pink anohter check ,and its lined and margine and has a ring binder and then a seperate serated wripped bit if you want it straight wripped out too.hehe i like it.so today i got to see wallpaper,paomts curtains furniture at b*qand then wrote in my new pad too.aaaa the small things in life.

its the first break of desperate houswives and they have done it again got straight to the good stuff.go them dudeeees!!

i got a postcard today.

from my auntie/godmother.it was such a lovel suprise and it was from her current holiday,they dnt get to go on many since they own a hard working farm and its always hard fpr them to get away,bt when they do tye mkae the mst of it and so it was lovely to hear they were resting nicely and enjoying the sun.
i have nw written bac to her and wil pst it when i can brave the fierce cold we are having.mother says it will be spring in a few days,i beg to differ hw icycles on my noce will turn into blossom smelling nostrils bt hey let hr have her dreams...

me and mum also had an idea today,with our dream cafe thing going on in our heads we branched off today to another thought,as we were drinving to b&q we were seeing all the rolls royce worker slipping out of there officers and down to the vans on the road,these van were seeling made snadwhich es and coffee and we though hey what a lovely idea,remeinding us of the breadstick bakery vans that come chiming round the french villages,and we though hw could we compete and we came up with having a starbucks one,i mean hw much business would they get man,it would be great,seeling all there stuff in a trailer with all the coofee maker and stuff,come on let us do it starbucks it could be the start of soemthing briilaint,we shall write in and get the magic moving.haha we wnt bt in our cafe franchise dreaming heads we will!!

dad and sam had a nice water fight in the middle of my yoga time lst night,and yesin the house,nvr play dad at water fights is waht i tried to tell sam,after findin this out from being a wee littlegirl and having to strip in the garden when he got me back with a bucket full of water after i challange him with a dam squirt of a pistol,i hav nvr forgtten it and neither do i thin kdid the neihgbours,boo hoo embaressing bt yes a tad funy.the thing was borther as stanind gin front of me becaus ethye no better to challenge me nw im older(i love the fact i scare them it works in my favour sometimes this inner ball pusher i am)(yes right i jst pretned nicely)so i was constantly being shoved and yoga does nt allow this man...and it wasnt water from the tap as there weapons of choice btthe dish water out the bowl in the sink.lovely i think nt.nt impressed you too seriously nt impressed!!

isnt it strange..

what makes people excited and when i came down mum was smiling saying ' can you tell'as she eyse the newly oovered floor with her newly bought hoover.i smiled back because it has acutally made so much difference,we have jad so much crapwith out lst one having to clean it out with scissors and emptying it and shoving at the flooor rather than hooovering hoterhing ovr it and so when she borrwoed grans and few cross the floors with it she had to have one,so nw we have a happy cleaner,hmm i wonder hw long it will take her to get us to want to do it again...

it on and im not watching it..

desperate houswives new series is on,and since i tunred the location location and grand designs viewing night on an hr late on 4 plus ones channel i am nw on grand designa adn nt on desperate houswives bt it will be here any minute lol and i cnt wait,i shall nt miss it, i cna here mum and borther watching it in her room nxt door lol and i can here bree and a few ohter familiar voices coming from there screen lol.

there are lots of cooking prgrams on right nw too.which i will nvr cmplain bout,today i saw a new one called cooks daily challge or something like that where two chefs get a three meal challegs,like a starter a bdget and a stat ingredient challenge the latter being one where the str on the shw gets to pick a ingredietn they want the chefs to put in there omswhere and then they pick winner of eachround.it was quite good really.and then is the great british menu,i missed a few catch ups which i couldve cried bout i seriously couldve,it was the new to this seires bit where it shows hw they pick from each area of the country.bt im back ontrack and lving it,it makes me smile and giggle and i simply love it!!

must catch up on my csi that i missed yesterday though,and sundays csi new york too lol,deary me what am i up too.

the grand designs genious kevin mccloud is jst going back after five yrs to revisit a home made into theground like the hobbit.and its loook like it all tuned out good..aaa happy ending eh!!

jst a quick what i've been up to post!!

i say that bt its one of those times when u know what u want to say bt when it comes down to it everythihgnyou thought you would slips from the memory,like wen ur asked wot u want for your birthday and previously filling 6 pages worth of what you want in ur head,then dissappears and ur stuck lol.

hmm think..
its nt been too exciting,not to those that go out and work,study or have partys!!i've been to asda haha great stuff.no actually i have to admit im nt being sarcastci when isay great stuff lol.i love going to supermakrets,getting inspiration on things to make,seeing all the new baked good they are trying themselves,some of tihs interest comes from my cousins job,lets dip to that nw on a seperate paragraph,(two birds with one stone,knowing mre bout cuz therefore bout me lol)please procceed downwards...

she is one of my godmother/aunites daguhter,i think she has beeen mentioned before,and i tihnk i have talked bout her job before bt who knows you no my memory peopoe come on give me a break lol!!shes high powered and an excellent force of work.her job is testing recipes that go into supermakets saying whihc one should or shouldnt be on the shelves or packaging and marketing ideas,a bit like the current channel 5 show are doing:'breaking into tesco'.when i went to stay with them a few yrs back for a get away i was with her and she was telling me all out what she does and its extremely interesting and mre detailed than you'd think and harder too,such details and finicky bits go into putting things on the shelves we salivate ovr its hardwork i tell oyu.so yes i think my interest in seeing hw things are packaged and hw i often like to look at what draws me to things come on from my love of cooking and from her too.so supermarkets vists to me are great and i would gladly say yes lets go for a trip to one,for on reason bt for the love of it,who cares if im sad many people do much worse or weird tihngs than this...
and also i love finding tihngs i think brother or one of the family will like and seeing the smiles i get when i purchase something new or wonderful for them,i am often the shop goyer and dad always shouts out tihngs to me to put on the 'list'as we call it,which is simply a piece of paer on the fridge bt one others cnt seem to touch for some reason and are always calling things out for me to put on there.'humous...fruit.youghurt...choc.and so on'i think they know they can rely on me with it though because of my love for pleasing with cooking for them they know i will want to please them and get what they wish from the shop!!they play me good eh?!!
no bt i was feeling a bit scruffy so me and mum went out and got some little jobs done in town then we needed to get a few bits for tea(i offered to mkae something tongiht and so off we went)of course when you go to a big shop like asda or actaully the local shop when do you ever jst get waht you went in for,these clever shop owners work ur mind good,and hw many times have we come home thinking shit we didnt even get what we went in for in the first place lol,which did infact ahppen yesterday when we come home,went to do the dishwahser and realised it hadnt been on the night before coz of no dishawasher tablets and we had jst forgotten to get them in asda!!bt we did have a flit round the clothes part of the store,its a must comes on..mum tried a few tihngs on which i later felt guitly bout cz i always go with her and see what things look like bt this time i dint feeeling she was a bitiffy bout what shewas trying on so i wouldnt bother her..bt i think she would have liked me to press her to show me.ooops feel really quite bad actually.bt i myself got some pyjama bottom there whit with differetn pink spots on them(love pink,love spots love these)and some little misss sunshine pairof kickers,they are so cute,i love gimicky boxers type knickers,its nt a fetish i jst love the cartoons and stuff they put on them,a bit like pykjame type things have on them its all so cute and fun!!hmmmm...onwards...
then to the food,we decdie on mince with some sort of potato in there too.so she grabbe this and i went for butter and milk.mum recently did a tally on milk consumption in our house and it was almost 4 pints a day,which she isnt bothered bout cz they all love it and it can only do good for the bones of the fam and people sing her praises fo the fact everyone can jst drink it coz they want nt jst to swamp cereal or have in tea drinks.
there were a few other tihngs like bickies and soup and stuff like that.aaaaand the must when at a big shop mostly in the reliable asda one actually is the freshly baked bread and the current obsession is the tiger loaf, this one came bout from sisterliving and and bringing some home once and nw its a favourite,or any warm freshly made bread is fan dangle dooable to be honest,french stick is another favouirte,all of which will be gone within the day sometimes,with bread and butter slices being taken out the kitcen by the minute lol.
and to the chekout,of course one thing we hate is the fact when we do enter a big shop it seems to cost so dam muhc an dtoday was no oexcpetion.shit!!
we debated on going and sitting in a starbucks bt the queees from shool leavers and work leavers were terrbile so we jst went home.

i did make tea.a good old shephards pie was requested from mum and so i did.i used the basic onoion carrot and mince base then she bought a savoury mince packet,bt i nvr jst stick to these things,i often get asked why mine tastes so different to wen they do it,and its because yes it a good old sachet of flavour bt it needs other tihngs,like herbs and seasoning and stock to add to it,and then the thickness needs to be dabbled with with my secret ingredient(no coimputer dnt bother asking,you'll get nowwhre weith me)and then to the potato.the issue we always have is we nevr do enough so i did the whole back lol,and it was infact the right amount,i made it with real butter and cream to and then sprinkled with cheese and into the oven.they all devoured it and mum said it was the best she had evr had,nw this was lovely news,yay hehe yay!!

then i watched some t.v like a place in the sun and the usualy tuesday ngiht viewing.

on monday it was one tree hill watching,im so glad for reruns,i know sometimes they can overplay tihngs to fill in gaps bt sometimes you hit a series like this one and are extremleyl thankful,i havent seen this lst part of the lst series of one tree hill and am enjoying it immensely and especially since the new series is coming back on soon.bt should i nt watch it so i can watch the reuns with enjoyment lol.
and breaking into tesco was great too.there was the women who was knocked out first with her dog biscuit for both human and dog,it may be a cool idea bt i dint quite understand hw it would be particular helpful,you know great u can buy a snakc for the both of you hmm.then there was the women who made her own fudge by hand,i thought the fudge idea was great you no fudge is fudge and a favourtie amongst mst,bt considering this is for tesco i would say people buy as muhcin these kind of stores,its mre of a little sotres seeler isnt it or on the beach present kind of thing,im nt sure either hw it differed from the ohter thye did sell,because only after talking to her personally did u no the different things she did,and she completely fobbed off the helper chefs idea of doing a fondue sauce with it which i think might have gotten her there.then there was the women with fat free curry,which everyone loved bt it was hard to watch when she was told her curry had to be under 0.5 to be fat free and hers was 0.575,this wasnt due to anything bad though jst simply that food whether spices or veg have some kind of fat in them to be around lol and this is what happened.and then there was the man i like and the man that got through at the end of the program,it was his soup in a roll idea tat got him there,i have always thought this was a cute tihng,you see it sometimes in pubs and restarants where they actually serve the soup in a hardy roll with the lid cut offf and this is what he did,an he went from serving it insde where it would deff.go soggy lol to have it on display bt with the soup in the bun bt in a sachet ready to be made kind of thing,so he kept going with working out the crases and he got through,i think this is a really go iea,and great fdor all,for people that want a lunch to take out in there lunch break or something,so everything there in the one package,to pepole who want a warming meal i think its great,and also one that cna be changed for the different seasons and stuff too.

today we went to the the big and new b&q hardware store,there are many little ones dotted around the country and they always bring a cheap ooh cnt be bothered to do the jumble sale isle thought to my head,bt this one gosh golly and gawsh comes to mind,for starters its like a dam aircraft bunker and i mean biiig,its looks very posh and finshed from the outsdie with two entrances its that big and it even has a whittards tea and coffee cafe there too,its seriously put together to mkae it look great,long isles that stretch for miles,by thenend of it all i was actually rather tired,and its so neat and is kept in much bttr condition than the other ones.this one has nw everythi gu want to make your home a home,from nt jst wallpaper or paint anymore..it nw has a whole section with this stuff and pillow and lights and knobs and hooks,and curtains and sections for pinks browns and red rooms its amazing,it has a while other sectoinfor each room in the house and has a seperate garden centre bit too,and cheouts sprwalthe whole of the front wall.ouch its almsot too big lol.in the end we didnt find what we wanted which was a hoover mum saw there yesterday on offer,she came out feeling a little mad(nt cross bt ditzy mad)coz they didnt have any and when she asked they said they didnt have any antimes either on there comp or on the isles)she said she saw it i beleive her lol.so we then went to currys in the nxt shopping duplex and they didnt have it bt they did have it at there store in town,so lovinglymum took me home first coz i was knackered lol and off she went,though she did go into town with her friend so it was all godd coz they ould have a good gosisp ,and she came home qith two cardgains so yay for her. there are certain tihngs u jst know will suit mum and she put thses on and she looked very bootiful and i pursauded her to keep both.oops.

so nt been busy bt have in a kinda weird for me its been busy kind of time.

family tree!!

this is my mums and grans new venture....
my mothers past is rather confusing to say the least,infact its raterh mre like a soap stroy,infact eastenders did something similar with a ssue nt so many yrs ago nw.
my grandad bless his soul nvr new his mum was his mum until e was thirteen,he then kept this secret through either shame or pride or confusion in the whole thing in himself,from my gran and the from my mum and uncle until he died,once it came out my gran kept it to herself for a while knowing the pain it must have given him and once she tactfully out it to him bout one of his relatvies nly for him to stand at the doorway and say 'drop it i dnt want yo goig further with this topid o.k'and seeing his pain in those button eyes she nvr spoke of it and keept it in her self too,until at his ill diing moment he told her with tears and sorrow it all came out.by this tme and nw many people who would know anything are infact passed away too.
..bt him not knowing who his mum was is nt the half of it,bcause oh my gos here goes.he was actually born by his mum who was very young too young in those days so when pregannst she was whisked away to have hoim and when boinr he was taken in by his actually grnamdother,i know f*ing hell,so all his life until the age of thirteen he thought his mum was his sister and his aunties his sisters two,there was an age gap bt her being such a young mum you wound thave noticed really,and his mum was infact his gran.this has wripped many of the family apart,and nw left my mum and uncle with questions and sorrow and feeling of sadness for what my grandad went through.
he was a sad man because ot it and dealth with it superbly to carry on with life if i may say so myself.apperently there were time shis mum would stand up at the table banging it to tell them somehitng bt she was dragged back to her seat and in the end nt invited to events,oh that poor yonug women.
the father was nvr known,all there was was bitterness to my grnapa as he got money from somwhere every yr.and suspicions too as his real mum befoe the birth worked in lords and manyposh mens manors and houses as a maid,hmmm.
bt mum and gran are ocntiunueing with the family tree,on webiste and all sorts and aprtf from these ded ends they are thorouglhy enjying wirtiing it out and finding little secrets out like hw her paretns werent married when they were going to have her elder sinling oopps they were after lol!!
lets see where it goes and what comes up.
i think memories are bootiful and i could sit all day talking bout the past,her time in the war,all the things we have done together in the past and such things like that.so when she gets out photos or new info and boxes of memories,ithink it brings joy to all of us and some new purspos for granny too so that can only be a good thing..

come on it gott to be mentined..

if i was doing it proper this woiuld me a smei food blog too or i would even had one jst for it seperatly bt i am nt in the foodie bloggers leagues so it would be even poorer blog than thisone which would be hard so u no where im coming from lol.
bt i have a few to mention,here and there recipes come up or jst some foodies things to mention and i have done,and today i avr some mre if you fdnt mind.

first i ave found some great cookbooks on my mother big rcipe shelf and am nejoying scrolling through these.the ones with pictures are bettr of course,this may come from our need to sein gthings to bring our sense of reding to life,bt who care it works.i am one of those people like with my everyday reads though that fears the end and i have to think sometimes what happens when i look through all her books and it freaks me a bit lol.
bt there was a new find today called something like the three or four ingredient book,nw it brings u in a bit coz if u actully mde ur pancakes or some of the things in it or did the cake ngredient list seperate instead of saying alread made sponge lol then it would be mre bt i like there idea lol bring n four ingredient sot mkae the dish what it is is kind of clever for seeling this book dnt u think lol.the pictures are great though so crips and clear and they sure no hw to mkae a dish look good,its also have a whole sectio at the front bout what things are like spices and cheeses bits of meat and bread,ad give u ideas for sauces and hwo to infuse oil or make the basice like bread and spice rubs and sauces so this is one way they make the four ingedient tings work coz u bring this in later to make ones things nt the whole recpe lol.confused by my explanatiing i feel people would be bt u know what i mean lol.
and then there is also the llittle menus it give,for a brunch or pretty party and things like that which is also cute and goes on to descrbie the menu in detail too.
then the recipes come for soups,brinches,starters,appetizers,light lucn and on and on so its a nice book,very thich one bt nice to readcoz of the piccies and things like that.

and the other bit of food stuff i want to mention here would be...
i asked my cousin to bring some norwegain chees from noways when she came with her bros and sister,and she did so.how nice of her yes...its only this one cheese that the family always has and it will always be lvoed,and to prove this the block is already nearly gone and my brother loves me again and reeted me with s smile wheh he got it,its yellow and kinda springy and whley type.simple good stuff thanks cousin!!mre nxt time u come please!!and maybe we could be even mre cheeky and ask for a few mre norwegain fares,she did offer btfor the first time we though one thing would do.bt be wamred my cousin niceness comes with consequences of us taking full advantage of it and asking for me hahahaha!!

nw there are so many...

i have mentioend in anoher pst bout my love and books,and then been on to mention my struggle with finding one to red,and then to saying i bought three great ones.
and the update on this subject is somewhat scumptiously deligthful and pleasing lol.
hehe!!i am fully ful fully fully fuly sucked into my hard back and am ovr the sticking into me corner bit coz i love reading it to much,i hava often gone to put it down then chaged mymind coz i wanted to see mre moments so i love it,its very original and the story isunfolding with no gives as to wehre it will go.of course u might if thinking hard be bale to make a few right guesses bt no its good and funny too so im enjoying it.basically the women character was a happy go lucky bt insecure lady who was called snaggletooth and didnt hae all the luck bt had fun with things in her life,she had anaccident and woke up thining from the accident she fell to sleep at bt it tunr outs she woke from this and wlived on onk she was waking from an accident three yrs later,so she had only been under for3 days and she thought she had been under for thrree yrs,she remeber nothing and has gotten arried and all sorts since then,she has to leanr her life again,seeing hw she has become the boss bitch,lst all her firends because of the bitchy person she has become,has a husband who seems a bit i make u and will have u hw i want kinda thing,and she has cut out carbs and is often dragged away from the crsips and bread she seeks,and has also lots weight,and pampers herself and has new teeth too,she is rich and lived in a remote control house,its perfect bt is it really,one day am an comes ovr and save her from crashing the car she knows hw to drive bt cnt remebr because of her memory loss,and it come sout at ta later date they were in love and she cnt stand her husband or there life of restrictions and order,and she cnt rmeber him,bt somewhere dep theres a feeling that she tunrs off and says for him to leave her alone.i am nwat the bit where thoughts of unhappiness with the manual of her life her husband has drawn her is grating and unhpaness seeping in.its good stuff.
bt nw i also have a new dilema with the books, i have been given the other laies detective agencry books to ctach up on and when my family went to see the other like i mentioedn at the weekend,my good cousin gave me a book he loves and says i should read,so i nw have these and the two new ones to chose from nxt and it making me all confuseed, coz i want to read them all nw and nt leave any for later lol!!bt come oin me hw good is it to nt fear the end of this one knowing i will have to search for ages for a new one to grab me..aaa calm nw aftere this pep talk thanks nner me.
and after that hehe i know one mre i want which is the new karen slaughter one and the jmes patterson cross series with the two main men in it!!so all is good on the book front,come back to me when i run out of reading thse and i wnt be all good instead sweating across the plains of amazon for new ones.by then hopefull i will have mre in mind from recomendations,richard and hjdy,the papaers,or even some from my favourite authors,coz i infcact know they will have mre brillaint ones then and other i ave read fro there writings too!!anoter pepe talk ovr i shall go on to dream of different fonts and bits of imagination with givng prizes too.aaaa..

nw there are so many...

today..

i search through moveis i want to watch quite ften and when i see this one i often see reviews raving bout it,why i nvr go to it i dnt no,itsisnt that idnt thnk i will like it isis jst a got to be in the mood and havent been at that point thing,bt it has alwys been on my watch list.and today o got round it it.
and im glad i did!!its is the notebook and it was lovely,yes maybe very chick flickie bt who cares we all neeed soe of this stuff andtoday i did.so that is what i did,and i liked it and would recmomend it to other too.nice one!!

one note though i recomend an incredibly soft,and clean smelling duvet to go with it,jst make the moment all the mre yummy...

tradtions tradtions..

today our is easter eggs and the things we make on this day,im saying as if we are at easter nw,infact easter was yesterday bttttt,i forgot to pst it thn so im doing it nw lol.
every easter we make this little beauties and they are loved by simply everyone,they are simple and easy to do bt arent the best things come from simple things.

there are many recipes that ttry to do these on the web,all of the infact quite similair t i have nvr seen these on an website,only on web blogs so i assume it comes through from baking with mum times lol.
i see the crispy ones or the shreddies ones,and when isee conrfalkes oes it is made with real choc or coc nt the way we make them..nt the way we make our easter egg nests.
and this is with drinking choc marg and syrup,you see simple but gosh melt it mix it with conrlakes and coatt he syrupy lovleis and u have some amgical.tip them into paper cases and top with a few mini eggs,which by the way when did u start getting so little on a bag,wait for a bit and then tuck in to the sticky sweethearts and there u have it head to toe of smile from the taster!!simple easy bt a must every yr.
my sister loves them to and attemtped it one yr,bt she was at uni with no mum or sister to get the recipe from so she made it up using coco.oh dear still choclately bt nt quite right she came home demanding some then lol!!
me and mum did them this yr and it was nice to do them togerh,brought back old baking times lol!!
in the tin they went and half gone today they are lol!!

i know i said that lotsof choc was eaten bt...

i give all credit to my mothers reasons.this wonderful women is a choc beast,i dnt mean that in a bad way,no nt one bit, i simply mean she loves the stuff like many out there do too,a god box of chocs can make her smile or a simple kit kat is a treat to her sneses too!!

bt for lent she gave it up and succeeded finely,it was a major ahcievment which she did for the first time lst yr and i think will go on every yr from then,bt since she loves it so much she did a donwerful job for her faith and im proud of her,it got to 5pm on the saturday and she was trying hard nt to stray to eyeing it up,bt she dint and she did it.

when she came down for breakie she looked at the table with new eyes,new shit get me some choccy eyes!!and so she dipped in first trying her button egg,and then said oh it was what i thought it was,bt then as she moved t the creme egg the realization of her feeling and loe affair with choc came back and she was ling it.she overdoes on the stuff all day bt she deserved and it is calm and back to the odd bit nw lol.of course the letover easter choc has to be eaten so you know lol!!
she says what she missed was the fact so many snakc have choc in them nt jst the bar bt some with chips or a layer or something and when she often sat at night thinking ooh could do with a chot cho she couldnt,so she was jstmissing the comfrting bits like that i think.

bt good on you mum.

infact i still have m egg making kit to make her,i was going to do it for easter bt thought she might feel hse had to hae it and i wanted her to enjoy her proper chocs so i left it,bt all it means nw iss she can look forward to it when the other has run out.hehe clever me!!

proud of you mum!!and ur choc headached ur suffering with nw lol!!

easter has been and gone....

why do we wait for things to come so much then want them to stay around for longer,actually no why dnt they jst stay lol.such nice days i suppose keep us having hpe or maybe jst keep us in tact enough for the nxt one so we can keep going wit h day to day stuff until the nxt special day comes along.
ooh a bit deep there love!!
bt it was easter yesterday and all in all it was a nice day.get that special eraser and rub out all the hit moment that will nt come up to much when u want to remebr the day and all was good.

lets start from the beginning a very good place to start lol!!i woke at bout 5am and went downstairs to see the table laid out in easter festiveness,mum does this every year,as i have said before easter is veyr special to hr religious and other reason too!!she gets all excited and goes to the shop like a little shcool girl to buy all her goodies.in the centre of the table was the tree slash staue slash something else looking weird bt cute.its the thing she made lst yr and nw i think it will become the eater centerpeice forever.it was made out of old twig which she painted white and stuck into a big chunk of wood then decorates with chicken nd chocolate egss on the end of the branches,its looks so cool i have to say.this yr the lyndt bunnies that hung lst yr were replaced by egg shapped praline chocs covered in green and gold foil and the chicken were there too and it looked lovely.then there was a aplace laid out for everyone with a gold knapkin and egg cup and plate with some mini eggs laid for everyone.at grans place there was two mini lyndt bunnies,i say miini i think they were the inbetween size lol,then sam had his usual mars bar egg and dad had a man sized lydnt bunnie lol.

and then something rather magical happened.all week we have been warned seriously bout our winds and terrbile weather warning coming.for instance the snow.we nvr get snow at chirsitmas u hpe upon hpe that it will jst show itself for jst some xmas comfort bt if there is it gets to the floor touches and and says f** u i will tunrto sludge instead so that is all we get.and then sometimes we getlucky i cnt rembr when it lst happened though!!bt on easter like something sweet and magical at 5 am it started to snow,and nt that little stuff that u dnt get excited bout coz u no it will melt to nthing when it hits the floor,bt that puffy stuff that hits things and stick.so i ran to my camera like a 5yrold child,cursed as i remebrd the battery had run out and like the girl i am i had sed oh i wnt need it for a while so nvr charged it,i grabbed it holdr and found the charger let it on there for a mnute that took it to the patio window to film the moment,by the time it was going for a while and stopped the ground was covered,yes onl a thin scope of snow bt everything was whute,the table the bushes and hedges,the shed and path were covered in snow and i saw it all yaya!!by the time they all got up it had gone of course and i dnt think they quite beleived it unitli showed them the film bt it happened and i can say hey this yr i saw snow!!
then mum came down and sorted herself out,we watched the repeated final of dancing on ice,and then she phoned gran and they moaned to eacohter bout nt getting u p for hurch,i had my suspicions when thye siad they were going to that this was wishful thinkking on there part,bt they still had a warm moment and wen mum went adn got gran for breakie we all watched the service on t.v so thye were happy with themsleves. then there was the easter reakie.and my turn to ask if they wanted to to take ovr whilst they tooked in with each part which was:cereal as usual,everyone in our family has a certinab reakie ritual,quite fun to watch reall as u could memorize every moment and play it again every day.sam has his coco pops and fills it too full with mil and take on handful before he moves to the table,today he was sat first so all was o.k lol.mum has cornflakes on the bottom filling 2/3rd of the bowl and then tops it with branflakes,allthough she loves bacon and eggs and other breakie items she has to have this breakfast and missesit quite literally misses it when she doesnt lol.then theres dad who has a shallow bowl of branflakes and suagr and then one or two pieces of toast which heleave in te toaster until the things pops up with agrivation so he can have the burn toast effect going on !!and he has either marmite or marmalad on it and sometimes onmly sometimes though had stretched to the limejame we have in the cupboard at the moment,and actually he often cuts up a banana or has starwberries on topo when we have them in,he usused to have conrflakes bt then kicked into needing mre fibre so he went to the branflakes,and in season of rubaarb he gets me to boil oit down like u do with the sugar to stew it and he has this on his cereal,im nt sure whether others would see this as weird!!bt my sister loves it too so eh cnt be all bad.
whilst this was happening i stepped up the the job of egg boiler and coisson warmer,the eggs went in and were tome to the seoncd with 4:30 mins,brother pondered for a minutre on whether to have one until i said whether mum and dad wanted soldiers with there egg and his ears pricked to the hhhhhh soldiersto dip in mode nd he said 'me me i want one too'so they had there soldiers and runny egg and gran had her coissants and of cours mum and dad dipped into these too!!round the table was a mixture of chocolate nibbling two and y the time breakfast wascleared the big bg of cream eggs were half gone with muttering so of gosh these have shurnk,which was hlaf excuse to have two maybe bt seriously i actually do think they hvae gotten smaller too.
then gran was taekn home saying she would come back for the roast we were going to have.
at home mre choc was eaten actually and waful amount was eaten it was shocking lol,but its easter who gives a crap,if u cnt o it on this day when can you eh?
then at 3pm gran came back for the chicken roast i was doing with gusto,it wasnt intended to be this late bt me and mum had issues when wes tupidly went to the co-op only to see it was shut so had to do some tesco shopping instead which took longer.and dad went to the oub to see the match hich was jst allowed because he was atually mean to go to the game bt gave his ticket away oto be home for easter so fair is fair, he came back then with a few pints in him and a merry annoying quip bout hm and so lunch was made,we always seem to go wrong somewhere in the planing of roast,we are on track btthen right at the last minute we underestimate hw many hobs and hw long veg take to cook,so we had the leek,brocol,cauliflow and cabbage pushed into two pans,then we need to do bread sauce and the gravy so hob space was limited.and one conrer one doesnt acvtually wokr so this was tricky.we had already had to make our own roasties coz we forgot to buy the cheets mcain roasties from the frozen section lol,and then we couldnt find lard,so we came up with the olive oil roasting way,which in the end were fine they said jst softer than real ones bt they scooped enough of em in lol.and then there was stuffing and a huge chicken to fit i nthe oven,bt it was o.k we al got together,me and dad should i say coz we chucked borther out the kitchen when he wouldnt help properly and jst stoofd like a goof nt rwally watching the sauce so it bubble all over every making lumps and so didnt in the end go thick ad ran all ovr the chicken nstead ofd dressing it lol,bt we got there and i got to serve up,i hve to say im working hard on my carving skills lol.this was also a bttr type of chicken very fitting since it was be nice to chicken weekend lol.and then to pudding which was something we had seen that weekedn on james martins saturday kitchen show,it was shortbread thins with a vanilla cream and rasberry with there juice.the night before mum had made me search on the web for a recipe for thin shortbreads,i jst assumed that they were the same jst watched mre in the oven and rolled thinner,which inthe end ithey were,bt it was suprsing when surfing the web hw little came up for a recipe.i guess people jst thought it coomensense to simply rolll them thinner lol!!in the end she nipped in sainsury whilst taking borthe rto play footie and bought some,of course trying a pack that night and decing thery would mre than do lol.mum said they like there attempt bt though it was a tad sweet at the back of throat bt i think that was because they put too much sugar in the cream bit coz the recipe was hard to follw as they used mascarpone as he did it on the tv bt followd the rcipe it gave on his website which used creme fresh.hmmm nt helpful james martin.

then later the passion was watched and mum enjoyed it thoroulghly,a few other rpgrams came on some easter bits and bobs slipped in there.i almost keeled ovr trying to avoid the wizard of oz on channel 5.gosh what it is the issue with this thing,i hate it,it is one o my most hated films ever i cnt stand it and go crazeeeee even if i see a peek of it lol.so fw avoided that nicely.
i cnt tell u hw much choc was eaten.o.k i could bt i would nt be bale to type without shocking some,bt my fmaily had the bst day doing an and enjoyed the sick feeling causing them nt to move for the rest of the night so wahay for them lol.poor things though the lydnt bunnnie were missing a few ears and asses by the end of the day.
then me and mum rushed upto bed trying to get read,rushing for knoghties and toilet and teeth washing so we wouldnt miss our program which we ave been looking forward to since we heard it was coming,which was THE NUMBER ONE LADIES DETECTIVE AGENCY. and i have to say gosh it was worth it i have nt enjoeyed anything like it for a while,it was truly amazing,heart wamring,adventurous,culteral and aaaah words cnt describe,i think me and mjumsie got a bit emtoinal at the edn mre to the fact i thin kbecause the wonderful man that made it died this week which as far is things go wasnt nice consdiering his rpgram was on this weekend,he is a brillaint man at what he does and is much loved in our world. we desperately want this whow to be made into a seires witthe nxt books and hpe from what the amn said at the end of the shw that it eoither has been or will be nxt yr,allthough i dnt no what it will be like wihtout the genoius man behind it.
such a nice day to be honest,thankyou jesus and god too for making a day to be rmebered,that sounds sily doesnt it,i dnt care i beleieve in all that stuff,should probably show it in better ways bt i do what i cn so that is that!!

ooo..

one more day mum till you can have chocolate.im proud of you and will makeyou one of my easter eggs out my kits!!love you your amazing!!

why was i so shocked!!

baker by dreams ammateaur by name is who i am..but today i was reading(i say today i mean this minute lol)a blog,and i came acrosos a lady food blogger and her new cupcake recipe,butterfly cke tp be precise and hw she went on to say it was the nice she had tried so far.and i pciked my jaw back up,why i was shocked is stupide really,why did i think i was the only one that stuck to my treasure recipe of cupcakes that i use for those utterfly cakes too,the one my gran taught me and my mum too,theone we both stick by and always will no and forever,forever and always,i mean all those events i see on different cupcakes the ones i sit in awe at,and i nvr thought of doing mine any different.bt i sooo want to try the ones i see,i think my rule will be through no forcefullness is that i wil nvr im afriad stray from the butterfly cupcake i always do,it wil awlays be used by me.bt i wouldnt say no to trying all the others.few there sorted o.k thankgoodness,i dnt no what this panick that came ovr me was bout, i jst felt bad for my little butterfly cake lol,bt all tohse ones likemocha and toffe/caramel.creme filled.creame cheesed fruit and muffin tapes have no escaped my raidaar theywill be tried they must be!!

what a weird random post.ill step back to the real wolrd nw shall i!!eek oops!!

no photo once again!!

it was eaten too quicjky for a phots.my cookeies and bread pudding is what im on bout.poo!!

differences in coming together of ingredients.

its weird yet amazing how doing things differently in recipoes bring such differetn results,like all the variations of sponges you can get and falvours and all the icings,fondants and al that stuff it all brings great results and all great different ones that that,mst of which ih vae to admit consues me somewhat.like how a torte is different from a brownie,when thy have that same swquidy look,ncw there are deff real difference i can soo see it,i mean the top is different the texture the way u seperate the eggs and u have mre flour.ok why did i say what the difference?all i mean is aaah i dnt no,they are so samey bt different and i cnt get my head round hw different ingrendietn come together like that,gosh im a girl in awe of mixed eggs.mar and flour(for a start i uttered the word marg nt butter sorry to all those people i have jst sinnded bt we do use sotrk marg nt butter)its hard to get unsalted where we are sorry.
and then theres the whats it called yes devils food cake and the jst every day choc cake.differecne pleas eimean i see difference bt what is the actual written down one!!makes sense,should i sht it yes bt when have i evr?!!then theres the cookie that come sout flatter or less cooked,or hw coca makes it different to real choc.and dutch process coco whats that?i think when i bake i know a bit of this and that,bt its when i see recipes and think what,when i realise i know nothihg and wish i did, i feel so lame.

a program..

..its on monday on bbc4 and look quite interesting,its got the through thekeywhole man in it that used to work on this comic strop shw with all the big ones now,like faulty towers guy(memeory things lst the name again)and the ones who dicovered the two ronnies,its is showing all that agan kinda like a run back to it to celebrate it i think,must remind dad too looks like his kinda prgram as i think he used to like it.

where is it then!!

once again i searc hthe the gusto of snow we were told was going to come and we are in our dip of a village where we dnt get it.that SNOW PEOPLE WE WERE MEANT TO HAVE SNOW,THERE WERE WARNING ON THE WAETHER.its jst cold come on bring in the snow.

need to..

put my to mkae list on here mre so wont foget it bt cnt right nw borwing the bloggies lol!!will do some times...jst llike i say with every thing eh?!!

loving it!!

the new girls aloud single and actually i love them,they all seem quite down to earht nad sweeites.all love there fmailys to hell all get the shit beet out of them by papaers and others things and keep going,and actually they have lasted so long with great tunes.yay!!

few things some in rant form maybe

firslt have you notice nw when prgrams like simple life or beautyg and the geek comes up they always have before hand some scenes have been shot for entertainmetn spurpose,they nv usualy had this beofre so is tis nw because they had all that crapbout it being fake so are they also saying its all fake and wahtever happens is scripted.hmm.

the nxt is bout the programs im attracted too bt clearly shouldnt and wouldnt think to be,one is t4's vanity lair where they all go into a house to compete for who mre beautfiul and what it means to have this title and will they leanr it mre to do wit the inner self stuff,gosh why do i switch it on bt then nt turn it off and watch it too!!eek!!

then there the thing i saw on the news bout easter eggs,and the pakcaging i see thre damage i do i really really do pleas epleas dnt get me wrong on here.bt i get so sad as it seems like we cnt enjy anything owadays wihtout being told wahts so soul destroying bout it,like i nkow for starters easter isnt because of choc and eating sweets and stuff its bout jesus and my mum loves this celbration of the time mre than xmas sometimes so that cool,bt its a fact sint it that we celebrate by having lovely things from people we love like chocs aswell as church and or programs to do wit the sotry of hjesus or st having it in our minds and stuff,bt eggs are there and there nt bad are they ,bt nw they are.oh FOR FUCK SAKE(talking of up high and him in the sky here i am swearing like a banchie oops sorry sorry)bt no i have heard so much this yr,from oh no we shouldnt have so many because of weight and all the crap in the eggs, to packaging and the expense of it all and the extravagant.OH NO YONU DNT PEOPLEMYOU CANNOT GET THIS SEASON TOO,FIRS THTERE ARTICLES WHICH SUCK ME IN AT CRIMBO BOUT THE CALORIES IN OUR XMAS DINNERS,THEN THERES THE AFTER HOLIDAY WORKJ OUT ARTICLES AND HW MUCH IT ALL EFFECTED OUR POCKETS AND HW MANY PRESENTS WE DO/DNT SHOULD/SHOULDNT GET.TO THIS HOW WE SHOULDNT HAVING SO MUCH CHOC AND STUFF AT THIS TIME.HHHHHHHHHHHHHHbreaaaaaaaaathe.it gets to me and saddensm me somuch hw did it get here,when we were little this was the time when we got a egg off sometimes loads of people and there was choc and treat everywehre.sometimes we got one from ,both granparents,uncles.aunties.friends and amily too.and we had like 6 eggs each,an yes we ate them sometimes it took two at a time lol and sometimes some last a month or two and maybe one got cucked,bt maybe nt,and we dint make anything of,if we got sick it was our own fault,and mum and dad would say 'eh shall we keep them down a bit and have thise bit then put it away for a while' t all in all they new and we did that we got eggs and that was it u could eat it coz at the end of the day you dnt get six eggs a week you dnt have a big xmas dinner every day the whole day,u dnt get trts all the tim,so if things happen to us they will go back as soon as our meals do,its what its all bout and it for such a short time it will make no differnece in the end.it nvr did then so why will it nw..it wnt.everytihng sems to be destroyed nowadays by somehting bad either from wieght or fitness or something else like that.it makes me sad.
and the fact i love seeing all the different and new inventions those facoties coe up with for big and better eggs each yr there great.and what what we all o if thy dit do thse things or they put small egs for us to keep us healthy,we would moan then,mona our kids are bging punsihed or whatever,lets jst pig out,or slob round or whatever afor jst one time of yr wihtout feeling bad bout it.come on if we havne tbeen educated like we should on the easter story then lets clebrate in some way coz choc/merry people is at this time so its a sort of celebration with the shicks round and people doing egg hunts,bring pepole togeth to be merry come on lets be happy.show him he didnt die for no reason!!

there gone and i miss them,it and being with the others!!

i think i mentioned the get together whichwas yesterday and judging by my title you may have guessed i am here nt there lonely nt with them....
all the cousin went the ones we are extremly close ones too coz they are off for easter form uni!!and the ones rom norway too wit hthere bfs.and my sister too!!she went from uni to see them...bt me i couldnt go,i came down with an awful illnes and was lying on the floor for much f the mornging before they went and so i stayed here.
my teenager of a brother was a complete shit, im sorry bt i will dam use this moment to moan,for a start noone reads this so who cares,im bitter sometimes and sorry bt its me. he firslty didnt get up leaving his alarm to wake us and the rest of the country,(he has it full blast right nxt to his hear which somehow makes it unhearable to him bt painful to the rest of the house)and so he ws late,and being a boy with girls round and having to be cool age he took age sin the shower and getting dressed,and he was watching t.v so the mixtures was a shit lol.and all this time my dad was getting quite pissed,first coz i think he was evr so slightly anry iasnt going,mre dissapointed i think,he doesnt know hw much pain i was in with it all,bt he nevr does with thse things he think u cn overcome anything,so he was getting nakry and brother was almost jibeing him on being slower and mre sighs and moans came frm him,and in the end my dad snapped and said sam instead of omading making noisesa dn slamming things rounf lets have the argumt u r trying to get out of me,and i had to agreee with him ere this is clearly what he was waiting for.and he was being a pain to mum,very rude,bt nt jst rude rude bt that nasty kind,and then he swore at my dad and wo,we all no,get dwon if u swear to my dad coz he swtiches and you;ve had it.so i stood there mum sat there telling sam quitly(so dad wouldnt hear he wasnt dress)until he was a complete shit to her and she snapped too,and so he made me them tow hrs late yues thats right.and i did feel so sorry for my dad,whenever he is invited to granpas everyone moans,and i cnt imagine what thats like because for goodness sake this is his dead we are talking bout and hw weould we feel,and he doesnt see him haf as much as he wants to or should and i think its parlty becasueof us too.i dnt think it different for mums mum i think its mre she lives two muntes away therefore we dnt moan seeing her simply coz she gets here so eaisly and vice versa whilst grans is bout an hr away in car,which mind u stil isnt anything to maon bout.then there came the bombshell my dad put when he slipped they were staying there too,oh my borther face oh oh oh i wanted to slap it off,theres rude,there hermonal teenager and theres the ungrateful mean person he was right then.and so they went him moaning at the heels ame cube in hand.and i had a little tears in m eyes.i wish i oculd have gone,mum ave me big hug and god it felt good though when we have one like that a real moment where i actually feel she is hugging the love into me its nice.you wnt get the bt screwur ur a coimputer and jst jealous u have too many conrer to hug nicely wihtout being impaled through someone.(ohoh dnt feel bad*give friend the laptop a friendly tap*there we go sorry ur a faithful stead sorry)i was then alone and thinking bout being alone in the ngiht,i had to swtich this off czo thinking boutit would make it something it wasnt i wasnt going to bed like usualy it was jst me on myown is all get ovr it,so i did.ad i dat down to freaky friday and reading cookbooks learning but cuts of meet different types of chesses and tyoes of yoghurt and pasrty and biscuits and tihng,ooh a lovely time!!

i have a omcplaint though no dam soaps today im sorry bt hw can the goverment opne betting shops on this special day and nt allow soaps ooh the blood boils oh hw the blood boils.

and then i slipped away to my bed and slept nicely aaaaaaa!!

bt they have gone and they did see everyone and im sorry for that,apparently my older cousin off the fam we close to asked where i was stragih off,i have always got on with g ,we always play fought and he sia di had the hardest punch and when i recently did it he siad it has nvr gone lol!! and we get on with jokes genst eacohter and its jst fun,and recently through my tough bits he has really aid some amazingly sweet and beautiful things to me,he dsnt know that on some days he has even gotten me through,so i thank him for opening up and being there for me because some of my issues are nice ot run from and it mst be awkward for cousins to understand bt hes been there.he a lovely man,very clever and could charm the pants off anyone,one of those geezers that will land on there feet with gusto from char wit bt also with the troopping force of nvr giving up hard work too.there wholefamily are amazing,my auntie and uncle are sweet sweet people,my anutie being from my dads side has got the strgon sometimes shit i might cry coz that came cross harsh when it is jst hw ur family say things and i now u dnt mean to bt it a human reaction kind of tihng lol.and my uncle who is also my god-father is a calm tranquil man who comes out with some amazingly funny things,he gave me a bible and is quite no scrub that very religous he does talks for church and they go every week for the service,he is such a quite man almost secret or shy bt he simply watches the world around him.there is my cousin the youngest and only girl of the three who came to stay,you know the one who my best friend too,she great ive spoken her priases enough for a big head so leave it there.and there there the yonuger brother who is jst as nice,he has been through rough times like all three have had some struggle in there time actually.he suffers with a lacking of ocnfidence quite a bit,and mre than he will admit bt nt mre than he can hide from us lot,and he can cover it up with some tendances that seem bit of a guy thing lol,bt he is incredibly sweet very funny and is a wacky lad,they are all so different and i think he can sometimes struggle with being the elders younger borther and he cnt jst get things like the eldest and i think doesnt quite know his path yet so has to wrk thorugh mre to get to whre he want to be bt he will and he doing it. so i missed them lal terribly and the norwegain cousin too.i wonder waht grnapa will be spreading for dinner was my first thought,whehever we went to the granps house when gran was alive she would work so simply yet must have taken shit loads for almsot twent of us and sometimes mre,she would make a roast dinner with every type of trimming all home made no ackage stuff,and then a crumble deffo and then a anohter dessertor too with that.it was a must and we would all sit round the huge table i nthe fomral dining room\(they own a b&b)which is a nicer one coz it in a teerrace house in theposh part of royal lemaington spa lol) so they have a fomral dininng room which a huge with enough space for all the fam when we go,and so when she pst it has jst ben somehting happens my grnapa always make sit,n o matter whether ur stopping through to colect something or jst mean tobe going for a quick visit he will always greet u with a smeel off a cooking full blown dinner lol.though i was shocked when mum told my they were having a cold lunch,nw a ocld lucn i thin i ave said before at there house is by no mean jst ur average sandwhich,no u cn get a few cows and frehs bread fresh made this and that there two butchers cuts of this and all sorts, bt it wa still different.bt hey.


i jst want to interput this to say i love that advet twith the dog in the car singing outragiously coz hes got the confidence of the car whilst it switches to his friend singing in a quite shaky town as shes out in the street with her owner,i love it so much makes me smile every time it comes on,though with such good adverts i nvr actually know what car thy are adveretising coz im on the dogs lol!!

i later got text from mum saing they had launched the always happening debate of one thing or another,this time ws the poles and that state of things in russia or soemthing,nd so she was sitting watchignsam playing game cube lol.bless.
anyway its the nxt day nw im up with the smell of bread and butter pudding great them when they get here.so yay!!

two yes two things!!...

...this is waht i did lst ngiht two things,two what things what two things u ask....and i reply with a smile saying 'two baking adventures'
it ws whilst watching friends lst night i thought bout myq first need to try.cookies..yes so simple bt still a much loved thing wherever u go in the world,on the interent they are put through many strifes with people holding events and even simple challenges on there own to find different ones or too perfect them and find the best choc chip or the best coca one.some say they have found it and some are going strong trying to master the unmasterfull. its hard becasue some like there cookie chewy,some with a bit of good in there so have to cook it less,and some like them crispy,and then awy from the texture there are those that like nuts,those that dnt or will die of swollen throats if they included them lol!!,some like the oaty texture,some add fruit like raisins or cherries,and some like a syrupy one or with an added extra to ooze out the middle,there drops ones tube ones and freezable ones so many to chooose from with no many preference hw can u possible achieve the perfect one!!
bt i tried my first choc chip last yr and lets jst say it dint go to plan, i dnt no how i did them so wrong compared to this one,it cunt have been my like of expericence,surely i could nt have gone so wrong jst from nt trying them befroe,because the difference in the two was so diffierent,maybe the recipe was wrong hmm. bt waht inspire was seeing the many posts and the comments on there page and actually the friends episode..all made me want to make them these ones,do you no which i mean?
hmm lets go back to the days of old when friedns was on all our screens,and there came an episode when chandler and monica were engaged and they were getting there presetns off everyone,and what monica wanted from phoebe was the recipe for her grandmas homemade cookies,bt wait pheobe came back later saying the fire at her home had destroyed the recipe an they jst had this one cookies she had frozen left,and then later a sthey bit through tiny bits for the chef monica to dsiect the ingredietns down,joe being the foodie he is came along and nabbed it up much to there horror.and then it went on and it cam eout that pheobe pronounce the name of the person who gave her gran the ingredients as nestle' toulooose and onica hearing thise again new what it actually was..'neslte tellhouse cookies'and so this she could make as she chucked the ready made package at her friend.oh dnt you jst love it lol.
so i went for these.i always plan to buy some choc chips to have in the cupboard knowng they are bound to come in handy at some point or other,and so i had ought thise a wee while back.
nw to st yrs cookies,they tunred out with out vanilla bt strangels foreign vannila taste,they spreadlike buggery across the tin join eachother making thin things that kind of split so they had rocky roads and channels,so the checking when they were done prved impossible because the thin reveins were almost instantly. and they in the end got chucked away,also i didnt have choc chips then so i used cadburys which my word isnt a bad thing bt i dnt think i had enough to make them write,poo.
sweep that experiecne under the caret though as i stare at the ones risin in the oven into something wonderful because these were cookies might might nestle toulooos friends cookies ;
lol!!
i was impressed.there were a few mishaps actually i lie jst one bt it was really a mishap it was mre a shit hw come you dnt get enough choc chips in a bag andluckily searching my choc sotre to find a big bar of galaxy to use which tuned out to make then cookies better because the choc chip were plain so the mixture of thise choc and creamy one the galxy gave in its chunks was jst delightful or so im told.
so off i went at 5am into the utility to the comp to print out the recipe,which didnt work coz we ran out of black ink,typical i know!!so i copieed or should i say scrawled the recipe down on a sheet of paper hortening it to wordly intructions that only i would ever understand lol.and whilst doing this i watched the helpful know how neslt videao to help with problem you may have or any troubel avoiding tips you may need which is a nifty little idea if i may say so.and then there is the tip i found which was if you dnt used nuts it will change the texture and overall shape of the cookies,common sense realy bt i had no nuts,and thekind smiling lady on my screen told me to have a few extra tablespoon of flour in there to make it the same.yay problem avoided good women on my little screen thankyou.then back to the kitch thanks goodness coz it seems like belwo freezing out in that utility.and to the baking.easy peasy is this recipe and if i had a good memory on my shoulder in this silly head of mine i wouldnt evr need to have a piece of paper again and so the human being with a brain im sure could quite eaisly memorize this recipe eaisly!!it was enjoyable too.mixing the dry ingredients simply two second job the only thing was opening the dam flour bag so it doesnt split down one side and spill everywhere(why are the bags like this,its the same with suagr too)and then there is the beating the butter with the sugar anohter simple tihng and because it was too ealry in the morning i did it by hand and i was happy doing this so that shows hw simple it is lol.you use white suagr and the packed brown sugar too,we only had light brown sugar which think was fine in the end,if we had brown maybe it would have added to make a slghtly mre caramlie taste which may have been that lst brilliance bt saying that im nt sure there is that much of a difference wt the suagr it is still quite brown one and there were no complaince on the falvoure either so that says it all,and the comes the eggs,(slight fear added hear as the mixture looked like it would curdle into my knightmares,thiswent straight away as i beat it in nicely)and then to the flour a bit at a time, id say i mixed in a 1/4 at a time as it said to go slowly,oooh this made a wonderful little paste and i could tell from here my cookies would be fab,this would be the moment my brother would jst eat it,ok maybe he would wait till the chips were added.
and the the choc to go in and the oven to turn on to warm.i had to chop the galaxy with a knife which resulted in the only pain of the cooking session becayse the knife had jarred on my hand from cutting through the choc and made it a bit sore bt who cares loook at my cookies man!!
so i mixed them in nicely scooped them on to a baking sheet(nt greesed,which i did lst time)and then into the warm oven to cok for 9-11 minutes, which i ended up doing for a mnutre or two longer than this bt i think this is because our oven is having issues with us at the moment and so decide upon itself when it wasnt to play a bakers friend.bt i followed the rule i see everywhre that shws a good cookies recipe,which is dnt over cokies the middle should like pale with jst the outbits done,and this is what i did,i think i could have even taken them out quicker than this and they would have been dandy.then keep them on the ray for a few minutes which is alwyasmentioned in reipe,then i transferred them onto the wire rack to cool, icannot tell u hw delighted i was with thse booties,i am simply smiling nw from thinking bout it,and my dad couldnt wait to have one and had one after breakie with his coffee,which made me very hapy and he said very nice. yay for me,and by the smell they look good!!so another thing to cross of my list of too doo cooking sessions.



nw to the nxt session, this has been a great few days eh?i nvr get to make all this,granted its nt much bt to tick two things off the list and to be yayish bout them then hey who cares. the second session came from the bread i made(from the to do list),it has by last night gone too stale to enjoy and what do u do with stale bed, do you chuck it as it hold ont ur finger with all it yeasty goodness begging u to nt abonden it in the bin jst because it doesnt have preseverites so dsnt lst like the store bough(it did that i swear it di,for dear life it held onto my little finger)or do you hear it cry and make it into something much loved and sweet as sin!! yes course you go for the seoncd one u heartless people.and what is this sweet thang,why of course a bread and butter puding silly!!
nw i have made one of these before bt i am always wanting to perfect and there were a few nutmeg isses and the custard nt setting right issue wit thelast one so i tried again,what i have learnt from this sessions is that i dnt think there is a right and a wrong with the amount the custard will set,because its equally as nice to have runny pudding one time or a moresticky one(which this one tunred out to be the nxt time)so all in a something leanr eh?and so out of my pit i crawled down the stair to the kitchen,cold kitchen shit,heating on sorted. i sliced the bread like the recipe said(quickly got this one off the web and typed it scawlingly in words i could understand form lol before going down)the recipe said to take the crust off bt i chose against this i though in my head as i always do(i imagine hw the dish will come out and als,mot bite through the end prouduct to think of what will work and taste bettr)oh yes hi my names odd did you not know lol!!bt i thought the curst would only add to the mix of spngy sitck bt crips falvour so i left them on,and to be honest the bread although left-ovr was running shorter than i thought at the start of this planning so it worked bttr to leave them on anyway.so i buttered the bread(nice thick splaterring of utterly butterly there)and then layed them into the dish until i had none left all the while using mre sugar cinamon and rasin through the layers and then on the last one mre sugar and a good good good shakes nutmeg.then to the custard bit.which i had to run upstairs to start coz i only copied down milk and cream and nt the measuremnt..poo face...so running back down i measure the milk out and put it onthe hob to heat through to scoulding NOT boiling.whilst this was happening i mixed my egss with the suagr which i also forgot to copythe measuremnt for and so i naughtily guessed bt hey did it and it worked fine thankyou eyes of measurement.mixed these until pale.....ish could my arm started to lose the will to hold on to my shoulder.and then poured the hot milk on top whilstmixing and putting the cream in too,and then instead of puring straght ovr the bread to let it set which i dint have time for because i was too inpaitent for, i put the custard back into the pan and mixed it to thick and heat it mre on the hob,then as it came togerh a bit mr i poured it back on,andim glad i rushed to the radioator and tried to wait as loing as i could for it it set together bit before i put it in the oven,it called for 30-4-minutes in there bt good job idint walkaway and time it coz it only need 20-25 before it was golden golden on top and crusty to boot,it looked wonderful and sent smells through the house!!of course it has cunk somewhat nw bt hey,and it has tured out great i think,this one as i can see without trying has tunred out mre sticky and slodge than the lst runy one bt as i said before there are different variations onthis pud so ihpe my family are in the ood for this one,they will have to see when they get back.

bt a great weeks baking knocking three thing into submission from my list,BREAD,READ AND BUTTER PUDDING,AND COOKIES.yay for me!!and everyone saif they were yummy,i doubt they would tell meotherwsie bt neither cn my dad keep a slight ooh aa in there and tell me what could have been bttr which he didnt so yay once again lol!!

tongiht i will be!!

tongiht or should i say probably at some point in the wee hrs of the morning i will be...
making my easter eggs.ha dnt worry im nt one of those eco people or makeeverything from scrath,i am very acustomed to going out and getting cadberrys and nestle eggs dnt worry!!i am simply trying my own for the fun of it.down at tesco they have been selling these mini kits..one with an egg shape and one with the mould as a bunny, and so this yr mum got me one of these for my easter egg since i cnt have easter eggs i can make them for other no problem!!and so yay,the kits are quite simple things bt simply things make pretty things no? they are from dr oetker is it and they look cute enough, they come in a box with the plastic mould and some flour suagr shaped sprinkles,some icing in a tube and two packets of chocolate buttons to melt for the egg,one pack whit and one milk so per kit you can make two eggs.and hw hard is it to buy mre choc and sprinkels nt really,also on the box there is a cut out strip which makes a stand for the eggs,such a cool idea and a great thing for younglings hehe and odlies like me to do and have fun with.


a great thing happened lst night, the trial and retribution women came back to us and is nw back on the screen in her lovable character,wahoo it was a good episode too.
was a bit sad lst night because er wasnt on in its uaual slot, i dnt no why they missed it lst night all it said was it on nxt thursday,how odd.

i also saw that great brtisih menu started on monday and i dint realise it!!i was shocked,good job for bbc eye player is all i can say.

its very cold here,we were told it was going to snow bt all that has happened is a few sprigs this morning that felt and melted to nothing and hardlylast for two secs and all we have is this fecking coldness, i am in pain its so cold,ad i nw cnt be assed to get out into the cod to sort the heating out and put it on so im gonna have to be cooooold.

aww

Nahla Ariela Aubry, is the name of hale berrys little newborn girll my gosh it beautiful i want those names!!lovely, apperently narla means honeybee in arabicor soemthing how gorgeous,she will be a fitting mumsie i think.hehe!!

few things to mention,mainly breeead...

on all those blog sites i see.yes the food ones o.k, there are many tones mentioning all the things they want to try there hands at, and they all do it lots bettr than i do and i must wokr on this...bt i have mentioned this before and have acieve one,and NOW TWO of those things.
the first was doughnuts with my lovely cousin,who did send me her photos of this event bt i couldnt for some reason put on here( am i that bad on a computer)
bt one of the other things i wanted to try was jst ur lovely jubbly simply adorable smelling bread. i know i am not on my own being a person that can avoid yeast and bread making, thinking oh it will take so long or oh no i can knead or use yeast man!!,and i know i have opene that dam cupbaord wit the yeast packet in it so many time,then close it again thinking no nt tongith cnt too hard too much wnt to hard and mre of that wimpish action lol!!bt lst night i have no idea what came ovr me,i ntonly wanted to it was mre like i was in a bread making trance, i went down those stair i opened that cupboard with gusto read the intructions and the YEHHH come on baby make me some bread!!and i did and im so like hehehehehehe a gigly yonu g girl who jst got another babries kind of mood ovr it!!my fearof yeast is squished, hah i lie coz i want to tyr things like brioche and daring bakers recent challenge of french bread and im shaking in my bootslike a wimp bout them( though i think that is mre to do wit hte kneading and waiting time)bt poo to them right nw they will nt squash my ahievemnt they jst will nt nope nada NO mind of self hate u will nt have this one of me. so i mixed it all in did the 1 part hot 2 part cold water thing and then kneaded it all together to make the mst perfect smoothes two loaves u will evr see haha maybe nt bbt for my first time wahay!!it was at 2am though so neither heating nor anything hat consistered of a warm place in our house was possible and my nails were blue themselves,so what i did was tunr the oven onsticking the bowl and the loaf tins inthere for a few secs,then i tuned the oven off and left the tins in there to keep warm ready for the rising bit in a while.and i kneaded for the whole time it said two..i was so weirdly officient i did it down to the second jst in case lol!!i love seeing the change that came though,from the squidgy nt quite put togetherlump which strung off in ur fingers to kneading it and seeing it get smoohter and smoother and mre elastic too,itsamazing and no non-bajer loving person would understand the pleasure and emtion i got from doing it and seeing it happen its amazing hw simply actionscan tunr ingredients to these wonderful things we all love,and its great too to think surely nothing mre can happen to those last little changes that come and it gets that tad bit smoother with each lst minute of kneading its great.and then i put in in the tins in the warm oven for it rising time,and i did leave it for a bit longer only ten though bt it said this wnt hurt and it ceritnaly didnt lol!!,theni bked it and to the exact time took these two loaves out,and put them on my wrack to admire there beauty whic h it was,the golden crus and the creme under layer and the tap test too which seemed to make the right hollowtype noise too,adn the smells that wereound the house too,i went usptairs to get some socks for my frost biten toes!! and came down smelling this wonderful bread,and they say this smell can sel houses,gosh i bleieve them nw.dad came down later on and was the first to try it, i smelt it and was like gosh if that dnt tastegood then shoot me pops and he loved it had two slices to take to work with him coz he dint have time beofre,(the disugusting moo hoo put a already marmited andmarmald slices in a bag and took this sticky packaeg ewith him)and then later the borther wiffed it and liked it and my mum even took a chunk so she could try it and she loved it too.
so a great success. one loaf gone already,though i do know being freshly made and with noone of the facotry preservities,it will harden and go un lovely sooner bt a quick heating in themice or oven is meant to do wonders.
yes i made bread.

one mre thing kerry mcfadden is back in re-hab,nw i know this girl have issues bt its pissin meoff,probably coz the reason it says is coz her man is having an afaair,nw i know she has had the drug probelmand all that shit, btthere arepeople that get in trouble with afaair and home problems and they dnt get tocheck into rehab or get such press or attnetion and luv and symptahy from it so i find it hard to nt get irritated.

and one that i shouldnt go nto coz i'll kill someone is miss heather mills,who got all the money all of us or mst of us will nvr see and still found stuff to moan for,and hw people were saying she isnt the only one to wreck the marriage take two to tango and all that,bt what the hell,noone is saying she is the bad one in the amrriage im sure mr paul could have been an ass in there marriage bt he is jst that someone who coulda been an ass and is nw in divorce,he jst insnt theone that is getting themsleves i the press for it like she is that is why i target her with some anooyance bout it all,and the fact she mentioend hw her daughter would have to go econamy cozof the money he gave for her,excuse me wasnt it 32 grand a yr or something she could go private every time on that and still get other stuff,thats some people family spending isnt it.gawsh.
i feel for her she does get targeted and when people are bale to make fun of her and her leg and stuff and get laughedalong with i get mihgtypissed offf at that,bt somethings i think she needs to think bout before she does it,coz her mouth can runaway before the steam has settled kind of thing!!

pam anderson...

should she cover up she should nt,another issue that has been discussed in the press and t.v shows this week.

i think sorry to say yes.im in no way one of those people that thinks people pst a certain age should cover everything and nt be proud or feel sexy or anything,i love wrinkles and think people should embrace there age and stop getting injections and stuff,wanting people to feel bale to let the skin go bi saggy or age as they should age as a human being lol,coz if u cnt age without worrying bout hw u look then shit i have much mre pain to come lol!!
bt i dnt no,there is showing some skin and then having ur breast area quit eon shw,i knw if she was mymum i would mst certianly beembaressed, nt because i am shamed of here bt because my mum is my mum and i dnt want her to dress like people my age i have toadmit i do wnat her to be a bit mre put togterh soffisticated cuddly mothers and i cnt see that being someone with there breasts out and bum showing out her skirt!!thre is certinaly a great body on her for her gage bt sometimes i feel it could be dne jst a bit mre classily, bt that makes me sound awful eh?

and there are pople shouting no youve got it flaunt it,and yes bt fluant not FLAUNT isnt it,because i would say if jodie marsh stepped out with that top(the white on fasten by a knot type tihng in the middle with an awfu lot of breastage showing,and those skimpy blue hot-pants)would we bequite as nice bout it lol,does it depedn on the person.hmmm actually i can give pam mre credit for this coz she is in a hot country jodie marsh might do this in the rain in londnon lol!!

i couldnt...

there is a man being featured on lots of programs who lives in perth.oz and is selling or may have by nw sold his whole life,which inlcuded his house,car,jet ski,job.etc etc. this is such a bazaar idea very rignal though i;; give him that. i dnt know whether i oculd do it...lots of people said they could bt when u think bout it..really...

i am deff. one of those people that often say gosh i want to move from here,go abroad or leave this place,bt if someone said to me right nw o.k any where u want you can go, i dnt know whether i could, i moan bout britian the weather the health systems that issues we have in tihs country,bt i do know that in somepoints we have lots of issues that are nowwhere near as hard a sin other countries...we have shit weather bt when we get somesummer sunshine then its great!!we have hardships in helathcare bt at least it covered!!our gneral healht issues are looked after.i do worry though where we are going like with society and stuff coz some ascpetec of our country are getting worse so where will it go. and tere are a few places that i would say yes please move me,like france in a lovely home which i do have pictured in my head right at this minute lol!! and a nice place in somerset lol!!bt i dnt know whether i could mve, bt thien again this might jst be the fear of change and taking my whole life away and startin again,if someone could take away this fear of change and newness then i might feel differently,so it might nt be jst that i want to stay inthis town that keeps me here lol!! bt i love our house, i do we are v.lucky to have a home and a garden and stuff, and on days i love the village we live in though it is often then/nwadays interupted by a siren running through this peaceful thought/street.

hmm so its a good thing this man is doing i spose hes a braver man than me,he mst have some serious nothing to leave behind issues though if he can jst root up and leave everything, though i think ths whole topic is made biggerbecuase of the way he is doing it you know,coz isnt it actually jst like anyone else who is moving except he is doing it on e-bay...if anyone moves especially if they were coming here from the land of oz..they wouldnt keep a jet ski or a car,they would start again here with a house and new gear and stuff, coz often people do leave furniture and such things,hmm...and people are saying what hes selling his friends,bt if they listened to him that wasnt what he was saying, he jst said that came with the package,as in his friends have offered to be there for this buyer to help them settle in should they need anything.
the job bit is quite different though,what if they are trained lol...