goodbye our friend..

so today was finally the day we officially had to say godbye to our beleoved passed down through the genration car. our little white frd fiesta failed its mot a few weeks back,it was a miracle it had got through so many yrs of them to be honest and we all new it was coming,bt it was always going to be a vry sad moment and it was,it truly was.
we took it to the scrap,we though of selling it bt clearly we werent going to get much for it and if we sold it any old hw we new it is the right car for those buggers who will take ur car jst to go out and burn it.
at one point my sister wanted to be dragged in it for her wedding(it has been her first car and her sturdy steed since she pst her test soo you know each to there own lol)aand we even though of putting it in the garden and putting plants in it lol,you see the love for this car!!
bt then it was decide it mst go so we sent it for a holiday with lots of other cars.i hpe it know hw good its been to us!!
i did want the nu,ber plate or some seat fabric to be wripped off bt i have a feeling that didnt happen.poo.

this and that....

nw i ought heat magazine today,i buy it quite often,and it usually comes with a long winded debate between me and my dad,on hw much trash they have in them and hw as much as i moan bout what they say and effect others with some mean stuff in there that in the end i am fueling it in all i do.bullshit father is usually hw the debate ends,i am fully aware that what they print is totally wrong sometimes and i cnt imagine hw they make the 'stars' feels sometimes.bt i also know that if i didnt buy them for one they dnt rely on my odd purchase lol and two they would easily find some other way to get to people.
today thought got me particualy angry on one point,it is all bout the stars and hw skinny they have gotten and why.nw firslty i'd like to mention why they hell some of these stars have nt been admitted to hosptial,cz i know of people who have been forced by dragging into ambulances at weights like theres then force fed through a tube,nw we all can say bt we dnt think its clevr and dnt like it bt somewhere along the line we are treating them differently and with mre power than others simply cz of the fact they are nt being sectioned right nw.and no matter what they say they have issues with food,u cnt look that thin and nt have some issues,i do disagree completely with the fact the mags jump on them with eating disorder labels as thy really need to research on what this deadly disease is and it a metnal illness and jst cz these girls are thin dsnt mean they have an ed cz lots of girls suffering out there are nt actually emaciated,bt there is disorded eating and they must have it and have some kind of ed jst nt anorexia or bulimia which there always labled with,cz they are blatanltly weak they mst be walking round feeling shit to be honest and to be this thin i cntimagine what there eating intake is like.
bt today in the mag i came across a pic of miscah barton,nw they have slated this poor babe for yrs nw with eating disorder rumours and hw awful and skinny she looks,and i think she has been at points rather ill looking bt you can also see hw gangly her fram is too and she very long limbed ,bt i do thin kshe got carried on the too thin carriage in la for some time,bt today she was slated for her size on the other end,nw she was un some unflattering legings and to be honest i dnt know whether they have photo shopped it for there story bt they said hw big her legs were,i tinhk it was clearly an awful pic and i cnt see hw they can say she needs to put on before and nw expect the girl to feel secrue if she evr read through what there putting nw,nt that the mags make people starve all the time im nt blaming them bt can you imagine if that was u in there that they printed this bout tody,no matter hw secrue u feel,women are insecure bout there bods at times and noone wants ot be told what they said and so i know it would bubble n there somewhre,its very unfair and they need to get what there tryin to say to people in perspective.cz they moan and slate eitehr way,who is beautiful to them i do nt know.

one mre telly thing!!

vanity lair finshed.good guy won,amusing faces as others didnt,saw what they'd look like in future with lives they live nw.arguemtns ovr eveing dresses,vain and selfish me thinks.nt an experminet i dnt think jst a good spin on the title to get viewers.it was a hooking program though.

theres gotta be some t.v mentions too eh?!!

and mags and books,been cathing up with my food mags,love it!!
books good i do get a sudden panic though as im reading as i dnt know whether i am clever enoughto understand it and enjoy it to its potential,bt then i think this and read on and find im loving it so im nt quite sure as yet.im sure i love it bt do i deserve to read a bok im nt gettingm properly i dnt know.

im really like the daily cooks program thats one,i watched today and phil vickory was on,he has to be one of my favourite tv chefs and i think it has ome to do wit the fact i love his wife fern too,so he gotta be cool lol.anthia tunrer was the guest today and i always thought she was quite snotty bt she was really nice and a laugh too.

home and away and the story of hw sally is going to leave is coming to shw nw.boo hoooooo!!the new guy in it though i think i have mentioend is in the headland drama and also i realised that sally twin is also in it.they've gone up in the world.


ooh ooh ooh the heroes adverts are here.GET f*cking IN THERE MAN!!it means its coming and i cnt wait.and also its weird cz graham norton comes nxt wek too and these were at the same time the lst season,why they go together i dnt know maybe its simply jst hw the timetable has come bout.

ready steady cook is being loved too right nw.

great britsh menu is good and its welsh catchup week for me this time on iplayer,with hte angela chef who i really like,im nt sure hw she will be against the stephen guy,i know he is very simply and home cooked food almst so i think the only downfall on his part will be the judges are looking for good food which his clearly is bt that maybe they do want something a tad posher.bt angelas food looks great and i dint realise all her family wokred in food to with all these restaurants in wales,gawsh i dnt know she even came from wales lol.i watcehd the starter course today and i have to ay i like her bettr.bt we'll see it can all change.

we watched the find me a nancy program lst night.i know who i like and i think the judge love her too,there are a few i think really have the nancy edge,cz she needs to be quite edgy with some despare in her i think and also the motherly kind hearted approach too to look after the kiddies like oliver.and also the kiddies that have been picked for oliver character i know which one i like of those so here to crossed fingers lol.there is one nancy lady who i cnt get to grips with shes such a caboray women and isnt right for the rle in my eyes,and im in no way saing i no crap all of what is needed for the character bt for me she doesnt fit it.the one in the green gets my vote all the way.
we also watched some of jamie at home bless him he still fnatastic lol.
and some of the tiger program,which i regret missing mst of bt i saw the lst one where they have all grown up and all live together or nxt to eacohter which apperently is quite odd for tigers to do so hw nice is that,seeing these creatures though its amazing there so large,so powerful and yet so gracious with it there jst amazing and i cnt believe we hurt them and kill the off,its jst nt fair they deserve to be gracing us with there presence,they so do!!cz i save the tigers every day dnt i...!!
watched waht i think was the lst in the series of one tree hill,haley has her bootiful baby,yay,so does karen,mr scott gives himself up and is hated,he goes to hang himself bt cnt,they have a party,the girls do a dam brilliant dance to a spice grils song,there all so gorgesou,and they all talk and stuff bout where there going and what to do with the lives after graduation,so this mst be leading to the new series that is coming to our e4 soon eh!!?

home and away a sad story is coming up which should be good too.so yay ot that,nt yay to sad bt it looks good.

the baftas are on this weekedn too.i dnt always tune in like i say i will be i think i will catch bits and bobs of it.

caught up on my casualty which was dudee,loving this one always,lots of stuff happening,strange things i dnt quite understand yet bt it might iron out as the stroy unfolds.like does a doc have a realitonshoip with the yonger guy or is he in love with hte girl,very confused right nw.and the gril that tired to end her life who was first in coro lol is back and struggling to cope with nt being able to take on her doctor place,bt she cool so i hpe she gets there and dsnt leave or seomthing.

then theres sundays showing of holby loving this too,i actually watched and episode of mile igh bout the air hoestesses with sex included lol and the ocd suffering smart shy and slightly depressed doc in holby is a dude with a six pack and a lover in mile high lol.hw odd it was to see this buff macho head.cute though,always new it!!
britian got talen it keep seeing on catch up and catch bits of it.
the that prgram with the keith lennon guy is it?i dnt find the prgram funny at all bt he and that voice of his crack me up lol!!dnt you hate that.
watched a bit of lily allens good snaps from her prgram which i hav to say werent all bad.shes very probing though and i cringed sometimes thinking she couldve really got someone in trouble at times if they didnt think before they spoke which wouldnt be there fualt.
brother and ssister was f*cking fantadtic as always and i noticed my dad actually stopped working to watch,when i asked him if he like it he grunted,stubborn git he wnt admit liking something i love.the sotry in this prgram jst gets bettr all the time,aaah i wnt expalin waht happened it needs to be watched to be known properly,calista marriage coming up with the gorgeosu presdient hopeful,the lovely justin with his hurt and injuries both pysicall and mentally and finally taking his meds though fearing being hooked again and his mum who made him take them is nw seeing the effects and hw he could wuite easiyl become the addict he was nt so long ago.the sister struggling wit hdivroce,the brother and his gay realtionships.the other brothe rwho mum and dad has taken him and his new born girl away o there home,and who is clealry going to have an affair with his new offcie worker,hw do they do this in prgrams as soon as tow character meet you jst no if they will have an affair in the future and these two had something,dam it dnt do it man jst dnt,it wil hurt me too lol,dnt these people no hw into there prgram i am in a saaad way!!oh i do know hw addicted i am ad yes it is or may be the saddes thing in the planet bt who cares im nt hurting noone with the saddness so let me be!!and then there the step daughter who nice and i jst cross my fingers she is nice cz theres somehting or there was,bt who wouldnt have issues finifn out all she di bout her real dad and fam in first series.there the uncle who i htink is actually maybe gay or bi too!!the mum trying hard with everything,and the swet way they come togerh in some way at the end of each ep like lst night with choc and ice cream fondue round kitchen table,love it keep it coming!!

and shipwrecked is back,and i am liking it.yes you can all say no i wnt get into it,that stupid talk i leanr every time cz i always do.
they are all yonug and gorgeosu which seems to happen mre in nowadays prgramming of this type,bt there were twist and turn and such harsh ones to be honest,they all arrived one left after one day,few bitching,theh at the first beach party,firs thtyeh ad to split and pick which teams they would be which thye eventaully decided would be the ones they arrive do the island with,then they had to decide on two to leave,one off each team.they all weped of course nad some i think because they simply wanted people to almsot say look hw upset she is lets nt make her go,in the end though they picked straws and stones and two left.the two lovely ones at that,farmer girl and gentlman james,they didnt infact leave and went to a sep island to live with a survivor trained man,who did pigs and crabs lol!!and i wreckon mre will join them maybe voted off eachc week from the oter island im nt quite sure,or will they jst come here,its apparently rough island to live on and they do actually realise that allthough thye dnt have junk food or soem luxeries on toher islands on this third one they dnt have ought and have to survive with htings like sand for soap!!
there were three programs to start it all off though,the on where they go to all the peoples houses and meet them in the homes.then hte comeing to the island,then a seperate one for the newly seperate islanders.
there are a few fitties in there,and arrogant'yes meeting ladies will be hot'shits too who also happen to be fitties!!ther jst insecure u can see the good in them..yes you cn!!

the usual here and theres of a girl like me..

yesterday was sunday and i helped mum with a sunday roast.its strange isnt it hw when the sister is home from uni mum is all up to making bettr meals for her,we all know the sis is very particular,nt fussy,jst loves good and proper food,so wheras when its jst the bro and them eating good meals can sometimes be gone to take outs and quicker tihngs,which i think is soeasy to do for her coz the bro does nt protest bt praises this lol.i hve to admit it does get to me a bit,jst like he flowers she always comes home to in her room,mum alwaus makes a special effort for her which you would expect totally,bt it does get annoying somteims,i think you'dhav to witness some of the things to nt call me a total selfish bitch bout this.
mum was in the cooking mood i think,we had to get two smaller chicken this time though which to be honest in our family isnt a problem and in the edn today the left-ovrs were made into chicken in white sauce which i mentioned before,so the sis was happy coz this happens to be a fav of hers.i did the veg and stired here and there and layed the table whilst mum did the major cooking bits.i did however make the crumble,gt the blackberries out the freezer the night before and noticed we had no apples,this shocked me somewhat i have to admit cz my granpa used to freeze bout fifty bags and give them away to us and our cousins every time he saw us lol,so too nt have any was weird.bt mum bought some fresh today so all was o.k.we do do the crumbles in a rather large pot,a rectangle one so often need lots of topping bt i infact needed a 14-16oz mix,we do have a family that are particlauly fond of the thick topping though almost to the point of having it the same sometimes mre lol to the fruit below so that it has the crispy top yet the under layer of the crumble mi goes slightly soggy and then there yet another under bit that infuses the red fruity bit,you see why the topping needs to be the thickness it is lol!!
i did have to nip out to hte shop though as there was no ice cream and this ia against the crumble eating law to be honest!!

the presenter guy that was found ded the other day i av jst skimmed upon a sotry that he hanged himself or something,then the sotry went so i mst find out mre on that,hw sad,hw truly sad for him,that brill artist with the biggest smile on kids tv lol.

when the fam came home the other day they needed something quick and easy for tea,after many doughtnuts nt to mention mcdonals they werent all that hungry anyway.so mum got a few packets of the nachos packs you can get,we also buy there fajita packets too,bt the first time mum and the brther got them the shock on mums face as she opened it up ready and hungry and out fell the crisp was hilarious,this packets of crsips that could have been the same as one of your dortio packets said served 2 main meal and 4 as a snack,nw in the end with the mince she bought and cooked and mixed in ye sit was ok,bt if you simply served them with the refried beans and salsa hmmm.GET REAL!!she learnt her lesson though and bought mre this times lol.

i've been drawing mre lately and im enkjoying getting into it so much.and today i did something i havent done before,i usally draw people or cartoons or such things and nvr go to scenary or anything bt today i did and i drew this pic of new york sky scraper,bt on one rough was this green grassed roofed cottage which didnt fit in the other building bt it worked,and then i made sun beams shine on this pretty little cottage,it was fun and im glad i braved it and did it,i did some people manga types too though of course!!

loooking..

FOR A RECIPE TO USE THE MASCARPONE IN OUR FRIDGE,WE CNT GET IT LOCALLY SO HAVE TO GO OUT OUR WAY TO GET IT AND NWWEHAVE SOMEIN OUR FRIDGE WHICH I REALY DNT WANT TO JST CHUCK OUT BLESS IT!!HMM I WANT TO MAKE SOMETHING FANTABULOUS WITH IT!!

jst to say..

i am looking at all the chefs sites and there restauratntsand loving it,am looking atthe judge off great british menus places right nw and im lovin it, i nvr new all these people did all this its great to find out mre bout them.