so i didnt go..

to my cousins babies christening,i am sad that i didnt get to go bt things happen and things did,so i stayed at home with the bro which in the end turned out kinda nice cz we spent mre time together than we have done in a lng time.we sat and watched a bit a tv and chatted and quipped with eachother which wehavet done in a while and i actually felt good bout us for a little while so it was great,i tried to cook for the boy yes on part i simply was feeling like my cooking fingers we scraping at my thraot needing to be used,bt also cz the day before he had gotten away with having jst pizza(again)and the boy needed some good grub inside him lol.bt in the end his cheffing feeling bubbled to the surfaced and he cooked for himself and boy did he cook,in the end i chucked it bt i should have saved it for the parents to try thinking back on it,cz from the smell,lordy it was a wonderful thing,i really alsmt hate to admit it bt i think he has got some real talent in there,i dnt no hw easy other would find it(actually i have seen some truly awful cooks)bt he had theses salmon fillets(mum had placed nicely in the fridge for him)and some taglietelle and so he wipped up some parley butter and metled it down,pan fried his salmon(perfectly)which he doesnt ever do and its a hard thing to get jst right i think,it was great though jst cooked enough,then he jst did some carrots and cabbage and cooked his pasta then put it all on a plate,itssounds so simple bt it looked(of course he used his ponsy chef rings)and smelt divine.
at one point i thought we were going to come into trouble cz he was downstairs and i suddenly remebered i let him stay to watch his program bt he hadnt come up,so i went down and thankfully(hes awful to wake when hes fallen to sleep)he was jst awake so i got him upstairs jst in time lol)
bt mum,dad and gran went off to the countrside for the chirstening and they had a great time.they took lots of lovely pictures and the bab looked beaituful,her older sister who i bonded with from when she was jst a wrinkle and then went on to seemre of her thn this little one,i even went to stay with my couins and looked after her lots and she remebers me and asked where i was.shes very special to me and i bonded with her so much,and everyone used to say hw good i was with her and gave her to me when she cried and i settled her nicely,and so im so sad my visits to her have dwindled to nothing,yes they live so many hrs away its hard,bt i am jst sad this is hw it is really,i so depserately wanted to be in her life.bt lets see hw things go,then there is there cousin who in the piccies looked adorabel,she is so elflike and hceeky,they were worreid when she was little that she wasnt growing bt both her parents are smallish and she is didy bt nt in a bad way i would say,she nevrr crawled before she walke dthough so nw she falls lots and cz she nevr learnt to put her hands out like when hte crawls she simply falls on her face,which sounds almost giggle some bt nt when you see her bleeding nose.and all my souinds looked fab and it looked like a real nice day for them,and when i asked hw mym mum and her cake went she repleied with a beaming smile so that is fab.
oh bt before they went of course my mum had her present of the aston martin ride round the tracks,she loved it and raved bout it,mking us wathc her on the in car camera(hw many times can one women say shit lol)and then i watched her on dad footage on my camera tongiht,and hw he missed the mian bit when she zoomed into the fst part(fool).
i watched graham norton this weekend for the first time in his new series,and once again like so many other prgrams i am left wondering why it has taken me so long to tune in,he was on with mini drive who i am nw a fan of both as a person and singer(will be asking for her album me thinks)she is pregnant beaming and very beautfiul,and also a funny funny gal and seems jst gneuin and nicely pleasant so it was good to see her on it,graham of course is hilarious and this week he also had jimmy carr who i love soooo sooo much(did i happen to mention i m going to see him hehe)and he was also great,such fab humourous timing such amazing wit i love him,he also seem to have a little vunerable feelings to him though which makeshim all the more lovely and funny.it was good.and eh after that i watched heroes too which i think i could get into i jst have to pursivere with it,ill keep at it lol!!
i cried today when sally finally left homeand away,with the conert and the family mebers coming back to say goodbye,it was great,i think mre people should have come back though like eveeyone from the pst twetnty yrs she has been there lol.great though,it amazing she has been in it since she was a bab and nw she has gone,she mst feel weird too lol.
loving eastenders right nw,with the ronnie and roxy story,gawsh i have seen bits in mags bout what is going to happen and im jiggling for it man.bt jack who slep with roxy,bad man,bt i love him hes so gorgeous, iloved him in the bill and i do in this too,he cnt leave ever,and u no when u think eh they arent bad(in ur day dreams)there a big softee really,aaaaahhh he is he is!!he was on paul o grady today and he a ded jolly smiley almst giddy man,with a big smile and he a veggie,fisherman,he swore on it though which he yelled apoligoizies for lol,bt he lovely ooooh get me a cuddle inthose musly arms,yum yum.
watched great british menu of course(let the side down wheni had to save it on to comp today instead of watching it cz i was busy)bt its one of my favoutie chefs this week who actually lives and is the head chef at a place near my auntiy and cousins that were seen this weekend.he was great though and i hpe when i get to the end of this week he has won,of course im a week behind on iplayer so i could go and find out bt i mst resist.the other guy though is this man who is a biggg believeron health foods,he has health issues and his mum died so i see where he is coming from bt,mm no i almst dnt lol.he cooks these little thing sith petals and seeds,and to me if ur gonna go out for a meal u dnt want all this,i mean looking at it i think yes i bet it taste amazing,all thses things that he put togehr i fab,bt i dnt no,if ur going out for a meal u want to indudgle,ur paying all this for a posh place dnt u jst want to let go and go all out.and whislt my fave cehffy was cooking all his bootyful stuff on the other side of the kitchen he was sticking his nosey up nd stuff,bt to be honest he wasnt even doin anyhting unhealhty,yes he wasnt holding back bt it was jst good honest food,thise other man is jst so far the ohter way is all.bt we will see im siting with baited breath though.
i looked on the web at my cheffies site and he is also looking for a sous chef and lots of other people to work with him,hehe i could go do this and stay with my cousins whilst im learning eh?!!(hush people we can all daydream)
its been really hot here too,though the wind came in today and we actually gt a chill tongith so does this mean its bout to break,come on uk give us another go.
the bro contineue to try get his paddling pool going(background:lst yr he nevr took it down and tindies it away,so it got that green stuff and it went a bit horrid)so when it wouldnt fill we finally dfound out that is has whole in from all its negelct,hmf silly twit,that grans present too,that she was so excited bout giving him,hmm im slightly miffed at him,he nvr tidies things or does thing when hes told.bt he gets away with it,eh i started this pst being nice to im so ms =t countact it somwhere to mkae us mre like bro and sis right.and alos dad said to me yesterday he nt allowed to wathc tv until he reads,bt guess what i see nxt minute,yes he watching tv and hasnt read(there having trouble with him cz he doesnt read at all,me and sis oved reading and as u may hav read here i do nw,and he doesn read and its so bad.he will really need it)
brother and sisters was a great epidosde once again,was there evr any doubt?er NO.this week justines drug thing ame out and they all gather round him in the lounge,and the arugemtna dn heart wrecnhing shit that came bout was awful and i was all funny and aaaarish inside,it was so amazingly done it was great,then they staed with him through his withdrawels so he dint have to go in to rehab and he got through it,and the gay uncle came out to his sis,and kitty stuggled with wanting a babe and mr fit fiance dsnt bt cnt tell her,oh my itss gooood.
also saw a slip for the new new desperate houswives and its looked so good.

with the weather being good i even gt our step ladder and went and sat on the roof(oooh you take me as a brave person that went up to the roof and sat with the birds and chimney)oh no you gt me wrong,NO our flat extension roof outsdie my window lol.i sat reading jamie oliver(good book he very cute and funny,good recipes to of course lol)and sat on our swingy seat,aaa nice.

joan of arcada is on every night as the new seires and it really good,its on right nw and im loving it lol.

the bro mentioed he was going to town this weekdna di said oooh can i maybe come if i decide to,and he went and loked at bus times!!and aksed where i want to get it from!!i was stunned hw was the hapeening my brother was ok with me coming to town with him,then i said bt i might nt and if im coming ill be there to wlak out door bt dnt wait if im nt,and he went all quite so i though oh o.k nothing of it is was him jst waching tv,and i then later though eh hw can i do this to him,cramp his style and go on the bus with his mates,this jst wasnt on,so i dint go.then later i hear him say to me as i tunr to him with shck,'its wird going to town on ur own'i was in pain i nevr new he was going on his iown,this is why he wanted me to come,and i thinking i wa doing the rihgt thing made my little bro go on his own.wen i think bout it i am getitng the shaky ive let my bro down feeling in my heart thing again.ouch!!he is o.k with it i think,he new what happened wen i explained so i think were o.k and we had a good wekend togehter anyways!!