Friday, 4 April 2008

im in thinking mood and it hurts..

and its come bout with the story of the man who used to be a women and is nw pregnant because he kept his women organs of being able to produce children in is womb going,(you like my scientific explanationthere)i am hurtingin my head cz im nt sure hwithink of it,im usually so in with this kindof debate,why its a debaetepuzzles me too cz it shouldnt be it should be there lives we should nt argue with it,bt it is.
im puzzled and confusded firstlyas i said because i always know which side im on or my views,fromthe very start of seein an issuei know own thoughts of the matter and will argue to boot!!and so with this im in hurtie heady mode lol!!
i coimpletey know that he is a man,people are saying he has his womb hes always a women,bt no he has wantedto change ex and has become the man i think we should accept this one because that who he wants to be nw!!
the one issue is should he have a child,i dnt puzzle myself on the should they have a baby i think yes they should why nt,a mum and a dad why shouldnt they,bt i have the niggle the awful niggle of a judger in my head...t i think its mre cz im scared for them now making it public and therefore the childs safety, i am scared of other niggling judgers and then the mre harsh niggling judgers and what they will do.
and i think my niggles come spurely from something so unkown and a change like this happening,jst something so new to our world is happening i think it wil take time to sink in...im jst tellingmyself that for nw until my niggle iron themselves out to come to the surface so i know what im actually thinking on the topic,i might come back to this later lol!!
bt i am in no way on the hunt on these people,they are human with needs and wants and a love for eachtoher and a family so be it and good for them!!

Thursday, 3 April 2008

bits and bobs..

our local shops have gt loads of new stock and ideas in for meals,i dnt know wether it is compete to the cough cough biggwr branded(you all know whcih one) sho[p across the road or jst coz its coming to a new season bt they are really pushing the boat out,with new designs and new dhses from meatballs,cuts of meat,read prepared meals like fish pies,and there own brand ready meals expanded to mre gourmet things and then theres the pastas, i mean its endless what you can do to pasta in terms of stuffing it saucing and and the shop seems to be try it all,there getting new ice creams,cakes(taking on mre gourmet types like GU and stuff)its getting the summer ice lollies in though mayeb there regretting it nw lol,new cereals and biscuit(put ur hands up if you loove the little minie jammie dodger bags that are nw around,there so cute!!

after easter they didnt seem to have many eggs left at our local though, i wondere whether people rushed in to nab them befroe i went that day or wehtehr they soimply took them off the shelves soon as the day fnsihed,the only things i saw was the left-ovr cucakes and the mini eggs,its a pitty couldve got some cheap as chips stuff eh.
i think having the two shops opposite eachother will always keep them going on getting new things in though so we will always be in high spirits when it comes to choice,though you can go into the big markets in the nxt village and seomtimes wander why they dnt sell certian things in there smaller partners.
dnt you hate it thought when u do what i did yesterday and wander round thinking oh ill come back and get that in a min,or see if you still need that when you have done the ohter shopping and then you get home and u cnt find the dam proudct in ur bags and u know you didnt go back,and whetehr its coz u actually wanted it that bad or ur jst pisse doff with ur stupidness it all of a sudden makes u feel so sad,its does me anyhow lol,i feel all fustrated as if this thing will suddenly be shoved off the shelves and nevr seen again lol!!i think it mst be mre of the fustrated at hw silly i am for nt going back ot get it and being carried away with looking at the rest of the shops offering and wondering which baking i will do nxt.

apperently...

ITS MEANT TO BE GETTING HOTTER..nw we had a few days of the sunny stuff bt its so cold we have to have the heating on all afternoon and evening,this isnt good and we arent pleased,especially since the clocks have changed so we are expecting light suny wamrth,it has been chaing i think you can tell the differecne in the air and wamrth abt nw they are sayting its snow this weeek ..eh what up with that!!and so back to the drawing board and the scarfs and hats!!
er was back lst night..jst thought i wold put that in,i love that program,poor abby with her drinking.oh i love it though and dnt want it to end its sooo good sooo goood,and should go on forever. so funny,quirky and so dramarish too!! yes its a word a new one maybe bt a word.

neighbours and home and away are in there element i think right nw and have really come into there own.some good story lines,of course i think we hve been there all before with the stalker type bad guy in home and away bt nt really coz there a different twist to it.KEEP YOUR HAND OF SALLY FLETCHER MATE.i actually shed a few tears i thiknk when i found out sallywas leaving her character behind,having been in the shw since she ws a bab,before i was born its so sad,and its coming to the sotry soonish i htink.and then theres is neighbours with the affairs and falling building bt it involves all new people so come on theres the change in plot people.and i wreckon mr paul who lost his memory and came back with a good one is getting back into his manipulativve ways soon,u can jst see some of his old clever sneaky ways coming in i think.hmm one to watch!!and there ringo with his eating disroder which i thikn with the death of his friend in this building sotry i thnk he may jst have arelaps.

and im cathing upwith all the hollyoaks gossip,and im loving it,on the jkae stuff wo!!
its strange coro and emmerdale seems to have slipped behind the eastenders and even hollyoaks is cathing up on the mst watch and lved stuff.
and i to my own fault looked at spoilers for them all on the web and im so excited,slighty sad i gave in and looked bt there so good i dnt care and will be getting excited anyway lol.

i missed grays anatomy bt i am hoping it will be repeated for me somewhere out there.gawsh i do hawp soooo.

ok i've nt been brave..

and made something off my to do list bt i have conquered an already conqeured quest with antoher one of the same lol!!confused haha so am i reading this actually.no wht i mean to say is i havent tried a new baking challenge bt what i did do was jst do some good old cooking yesterday which in my eyes is jst as fab sometimes.and lst night i was in the mood for brownies.around the blogasphere i see people fearing these little goodies.why i jst dnt know, i think it is mre because there are serious differences in everyones preferecnce on what the perfect brownie is,some like it swuidgy some tough and cripsy and you no rhe rest lol!!bt i found a great recipe nt long ago in a brilliant book we were bouht when we were young,it isnt forkiddies bt neither is a a delia or mary berry looking book,its filled with lots of basics like cookies and soup and cakes and stuff to get you started,it is where i first spied our carbanhara recpie and so i thanks it because it gave me the lead for my own. the first recipe was the pasta ribbons with a simple tuna and tomato and bean mix and then a dressing of mayonniasse,so simple yet so tasty,this was what my brotehr made for his first try out the book,each of us kids got one try each,my poor mum was shocked when we wanted to try mre after that!!so he did this dish and after fifty a weeek of the thing it eventually got putaway cz our family couldnt eat anymore mayonnaisse lol!!i did the carbonhara and it hasnt got frowned upon yet so that is good jst a little and ften of this recipe htough to make sure it doesnt go the same way as the bortehr recipe.of course the choc cake was tried out of it and it was loved too deff loved lol,it isnt the usual same ounce bt the eggs mix its got proper choc in it and is mre like a devils foodcakeor a really rich decadent one so that was loved to,a few others like the flapjakc and simple salads were tried,bt writing this post i think i will actually go back to it,read through ad see what esle we can do cz its a good book that because of that one recipe of brothers i think was pushed onto the shelf somehwhere,bt the one rcipe that will nvr be able to be sick of,whether it is acutally possible to be fed up of a brownie recipe i do nt know,bt it is the brownie recipe and its loved loved loved and it is the greatest recipe evr and everyone that tries it is immediatly lingering round the tin fr the rest of the day lol!!the good tihng bout this one is that the way it cooks everyone gets there favourite brownie.nw the recipe as been adapted in one simple chage,and thats the time it take to cook,i 2/3rded the recipes lol,then hlaved it and am nw at jst under half of the cooking time it says.this is a shock i know hw cn this make a brownie even cook you ask,it does!!firslty ouroven alwys does this quicker bt what it gives you is this.starting from the edge a cooked crsipy brownie then as u go in it gets squidgier and less cooked until in the iddle u have a battery deff half cooked one,bt also this is great coz its nt raw bt it gives all the wanters of a different kind of borwnie there preference so its looove loove loooved,what it does mean though is you get inpaitnet people wimpering by you until u get to cutting it and then get too there love in the middle of the cake lol.

i also made spaghetti bolognase for my brother,mum and dad went out for a meal/retirement do and so he was in need of some grub, this meal is his favourite,when he was little he nvrfinsihed his meals,he had huge snacks then jst picked at his tea,bt this one he always had,and always has done since then,and boy does he love it,its always a huge plate of the stuff and then coming back to the pan later in the night to pick and pick lol.
i make it the simple way which some would say is cheating bt i dnt,its with the help of a dolmio sauce,which yes is some sort of cheat in some peoples eyes bt its nt like i jst add this to mince and thats it,everything is done properly with the carrots and onions and herbs and other stuff put in,so if i jst put in the sauce it would taste wrong so therefore it isnt cheating is it. no!!

Tuesday, 1 April 2008

i was asked...

if i was assigned to a blogroll or part of a group on this cyber world of blogs. i laughed and laughed,so much so there was a bit of spittle.i expclaimed 'why you fool,would i put myself through the embaressment of putting this shit thing out there into the world,it would be torture for those who would have to come across it and for me to imagine peoples faces when they do...no dear no i simply keep this thing as a way for me to track things,to try and be creative(i have always wanted to be a writer who sits down at ther elaptop looking out ovr the lake out there shutter cottage windows and write a book or something spectacular for someone like lectures or bits of modern genious)so knowing i wnt be able to do this i sit here in my cosy bed and type in front of read steady cook instead pretending i am the writer and the creative geneous i so wish to be lol.' i couldnt beleive it,i think this person must no of somehting i have done against them and wants to get back at me and laugh in my face for if they were a friend they would nevr say such a thing to consider eh?
so after much talk of back and forth things like 'bt there are all sorts of random ones out ther elet me read yours' and them being spittle and laughed upon again as i celary tell them no they will nvr see this blog,we end up with looking through some and i comprimise on saying i will try and join in(shes trying to get me out there i the world see!!)THOUGH MAKING ME GO ON THE CMP MRE ISNT EXACTLY OUT THERE..BT EVERY LITTLE HELPS SHE SAYS!! so she picks out a few questions on blogs we have seen in 'memes' and stuff and i say i will answer them so here we go...
what were you doing ten yrs ago..?
i was probably jst settling into my new school,we had moved when i was young so it wasnt so awful bt at the time it was one of the mst awful times of my life.,all my friends and our little house and community were gone and life would nvr be the same.looking back i am soooo gladour parents took us out of that village to hear,as we have our issues here yes bt i wreckon looking at that place nw we would have had an awful lot mre having stayed there.

what were you cooking 10 yrs ago...?
i was still at the stage where i had to be with gran to be truly confident in the kitchen,so we made gran and grandaughter stuff like cakes and cookies and things like that.or of course if she let us scope into scones and stuff then that too.with mum in our house it would still be the stiring the sauce or whatever was in the pan.i would say my interest in food was there then bt i was still unsure and wasnt at all confident at this time so mum kept going,also she had a realise and a love from cooking back then which she foesnt have so much nw and see it mre of a task so has her days when she loves it and then when she wants others to put there hands up and have a go!!

where do you want to be doing in 10yrs time?
anywhere where im content there are so many places i would like to be so the journey to there might change it to make any of them happpen on my list, from a french cottage nearish the sea.to the loire,to a country cottage in england either somerset near my relatives on there farm,to dorset,if im earning lots and lots maybe somewhere like surrey even or kent places like that that are somwhat expensive bt lovely places too.driving round with a happy job, whether it being a nurse or that cafe/deli/restaurant with mum or someone else.with people who love me.

what do you want to be cooking in 10yrs time?
love to have my chefing crodentials maybe even a michilin lol,having been to patiserie courses and got diplomas or degrees in it,or if i go to anohter carea like nursing or something then i would like to still have learn hw to cook properly with some proper teaching from the proffessionals.may be have my own restaurant/deli/cafe. or work in one.who knows maybe even cooking up some books to go with it lol.i want to be someone people ask to cook dinners for or request things from me like treats and birthday cakes and event cakes,things like that.

what would you do if you came in with milliions of pounds?
oooh so hard.
charitys....parents...siblings....saving...house....car.....secure my future....and anyone who says they could resist a big shopping trip or holiday is lying cz it doesnt mean ur horrid it means ur human and have come into mre money than u could have evr imagine lol!!

what would be ur lst ever meal?
dnt even go there its impossible.from crunchy fresh salads,tocurrys, to homecooked cosy wanders,to mums favourite cakes.theres millions so i would invite everyone round and itstead of one dish i would lay out one table lol with every meal evr for everyone.

3 things noone knows bout you?
cant do that man...!!and noones knows ought on here lol...
worked at the rspca,
split my head open when i was little and had to have it glued...
i used to be scared of the plants that were in the jurassic park films thinking whever i saw them a raptor would come out of them....

there all i can uster to do my hands hurt i've been typing for so long nw i need to read some blogs instead lol!!

its mre t.v bttt

i havent finsihed o.k....
this weekend i succomed again to that t4 classic of vanity lair,i did get sucked in yes i did and im proiud to say i dnt care...what i do care bout is that it totally dsnt work for what they aretrying to say it does in the experiment sense of things...ots meant to shw bout beauty and whether it comes from within or from looks or wahtever,nw im nt saying i think any of them are particualy fab looking bt in our world of where looks are gre=aded they would all come under bootiful people,bt they have been there from the start they have always been this type of people so they i dnt understand hw with mre bootiful people coming in they are evr meant to judge from bootiy or innner booty.maybe its because they want them to judge whether even the bootiful cn be hated coz they are shit people and they cnt bring in less bootiful people or whatever cz this would mean they would have to go out searching for these people lol and this may cause mre trouble than good saying 'come on our shw as an ugly git will ya so we can see if ur liked mre than this model we picked'its coming to end end soon though,there are a few i think or cute,bt some who are called amazingly good looking on there i dnt agree with bt maybe it is because there arguibly sane personality comes through to make me dislike them.

i've got back into ready steady cook nw again wwhen im around,its got back into the spring of things too i thikn..it had a moment i think when it first came back with its new series bt i like it nw.and the guest bringing in the mixed bag is such a good idea!!

theres not much time..

actually i lie bout that a tad,coz i do have time to write this,bt my head is screaming to catch up on he blogs i have nt been on in too long and so i am betraying my own(like theres so many readers to care bout this)to read them and devour upon the loveliness they behold.

bt i mst say a few things,for starters i got my good food magazine installment through the post which brings two exciting thoughts to mind.1. being yayza im going to get to read it soon(and infact have already read through some of it nt being tough enough in my head to nt read it and savour every moment.and then the 2nd excitemtn iiiis that this means that this months issue of olive magazine will be out very soon too!!oh my gosh you all see where im coming from eh?

a few t.v things to mention of course since we are persauded to wrtie on her bout our loves in life it would be bettr if i didnt write bout tv coz it would mean i am nt as sad as i seem,bt it would also be a lie and that is something that is frowned upon mre than being sad no?
lst night was a good noight of tele watching i do love monday t.v later is great!!firstly there was breaking into tesco which is nw all done and will be going into the final nxt week.and lst ngiht three contestants were.a lady with her bring out whehever and bake cheescake from her good old yourkshire recipe...she went on for mst of the shw wanting to rpouduce it in a can,the poor luv clearly ddid no research so it took some battering to get it into her head that it would nt be possible to mkae this cheescake in a can.in the end she went to the freezing process which was all goood coz in the end she won. the man that got kicked out straight away was the guy with the traditional family recipe of curry puffs,he went straight away when noone on the street wanted to uy his stuff. then there was the nxt out of the running the girl that started with a big chunk of gooey brownie.nw i loved her idea of the bf ovr need a brownie dessert idea,and then she went into the tesco taster women and they said her brownie was too calorific,i have mentioned on this blog before bout this BT FOR FUCK SAKE SOME THING LIKE BROWNIES ARE TREATS.YOU HERE THAT TREATS,THE LITTLE THINGS IN LIFE THAT THERE ARE ALREADY TOO FEW OF WHICH ARE MEANT TO BE HALF OUR CALORIE RECOMENDED INTAKE FOR THE DAY SO SHUV OFF AND LET THEM EAT IT,BEING PROUD OF THE CALORIES THEY ARE CONSUMING INSTEAD OF FROWING IN THE GUILT OF IT ALL....so she went away and made them less calorific,and the idea i did like was putting them into hearts cz i thought this would also make people want to buy these little cuties whenthey saw them on the shelves,bt she went which was sad,and she was so young too.. then there was the lady who i have toadmit i nvr like her recipe from the word go,it was for amarrow chutney.yes it might all be very nice bt firstly have you seen the chutney isles in the shops there are so many nw i think you could chooose a new type and falvour for every day of your life,and i dint think it had it all.she lasted until the lst stage though bt the cheescake got the place in the end so will go onto the final.

and ione tree hill.it was great.lucas is going mad though which is hard to see on someone soooo hotoooottttototot!!bt dans secret should come out soon,i do fear the series may be coming to an end soon whichwould fit coz the new one is coming back ill still be too sad,especially since this is another favourite of my tele watching.

sunday night i made a roast dinnner of pork,another one all by myself,when i hear bout people nt being bale to make roast or all the articles on hw to mkae them easier i do find myself thining but why?tey arent that hard,once you get on top of the basics and the bring it all together at the edn you shouodnt have any problems.i think people are so scared of cooking such a big bit of meat though,bt the time on the packet should bring that to an almost right taste.i even did real roasties by myself,yes they liked them and yes they had issues(my family i mean)we new the problem though,it was i did them a bit too small and did tenderise them quite enough so the edges didnt graps the fact they should be roast and cripsy nt smooth which ended up giving it an almost olive oiled roasted type look.nxt time though there always the nxt one.,and this time unlike before it all came together on time and was on the table in lovey symmetry which every compont.

i listened to part of chris moyles podcast lst night,he is wquite harsh i find bt when he nt being so harsh hes fecking hilarious,and i think he can be kind too maybe,i try to beleive under the scares me cz he so sarcy man that he a big softy.and the team they have one his prgoram jst works so great and thye wouldnt be able to be the same funny and entertaining shw without each of them there i dnt think.i mst listen to the lst bit later i think.

there was a t.v shw on bout tigers lst night follwoing tiger subs as they become adults and i think,im thinking with crossed fingers that im o.k as it will be on iplayer.so all will be o.k.

wathced step mom lst night too.i have seen this movie far too many times which makes it all the mre specail because there isnt many movies out there that i cn endure mre than once nevr mind hw many times i have watched this..i think it had part to do with i was drawing whilst watching.its the first time i have got to draw in a while so i am happy bout it.in the end i settle with the cahracters from the new film with the elephant and the little creature things,horvil hears a who is it?i was drawn to it nt particulaly cz i like the movie bt because i like elephans and his little creature friend the clung to his trunk was so cute and so appealed to my pencil holding hand.

anohter goodie thing n t.v was jamie at home.its jst a lovely program to settle on the couch too, makes u feel all warm and comfy apart from when my jealousy of his bootiful garden seeps in and of course the little shed or should i say seperate cottage he cooks in his garden is fab,cute and i NEED IT!!