they left us!!

ONLY JOKING...we told them to go,me and bro alone for the night waswhat happened on saturday.
firt off maand pa were invited to go to a party like thrre hrs away, they were reluctant for obvious reasons,go so far for a bbq then come back hmm bit much dnt you think,bt then they thought eh no we want to see our friends and its jst driving lets make an effort, then they decide to make a weekend of it and so they booked themselves into a hotel,after consultant us thoroughly cz the bro gets panicky on his own,hes got me whats there to worry bout lol!!in the ned though they went and had a lovely time and even did some sight seeing the nxt day.and of course i cooked fajitas for them when they got home.aww im sweet right,allthough it was only the bro that ate it cz they were pigged out frm there day of sightseeing and gorgeing on loacal produce hmmm!!was o.k though throughout the night it gt picked on lol!!
bro cooked some burgers up 2 this weekend,smelt the house out nice one mate try using the fan MATE.
IM CURRENTLY WATCHING GLAMOURS BES DRESSED ON THE NEWLY NAMES FIVER,IT AINT BAD BT I FEEL A BIT SAD FOR WATCHING IT AND HOOSING TO DO SO.HMM NOOOO ITS COOL MAN!!
watched the movie ' in her shoes,seen it before and loike it this time too.
oooh this post was quick,get me am i improving on nt novel writing all the time.

few things again ..

lets fill in cyber space on my exciting life.so been to asda i was quicker than mum this time so thats a shocker lol!!she was trying on clothes though and this is something mother needs farrrr too much time for lol!!she bought some lovely clothes though, it somehow gets to me when she finds the cash to buy all these clothes when it is for her bt avoids liking what i want so as to nt pay for things,and yes im too old nw to ask for thing like that,bt even when i was young,hhmmmm should i shut up and get ovr my selfsihs spoiltness hmmm yes bt tough shit its true!!i alos bough 'miami vice' film for jst three quid man so that was great,i did like that when i went to see it at the cinema,though i have to say i dint enjoy the fact my friend who i went to see it with was trying to pull all through the film, i love my friend bt she is obsessed with boys which worries me sometimes to be honest,and all the way through the film she tried for the attention of these twats who would clearly nt treat her right,why the twats why go for the twats luv.

i did buy some great pjs though and are going in the airing cupboard nw soaking up some linen smells mmmm!!hehe werod bt nobody can tell me they dnt love the linen cupboard smell,i got some knickers too wahoo!!

watched the apprentice and would like to say its great stuff,bt also would like to say why do they carry those cases round with them into the end meeting when they clearly bought mre stuff than that so yes its a great affect and all that bt hmmm they should be made to slog the other six suitcases they have too,way bettr viewing, i suppose being fired and lookjing like a constipated twat carrying all there luggage to the taxi would jst be too much.fair enough.

watched brothers and sisters,kitty is pregnant,awwwwwwwwwwwww love it even though yes she is jst a character.stupid brother having affair,other one is o.k right nw bt i fear somehting big is coming,other sister has had her children taken aqnd is acting so greatly as usual,mum is contining with her allways weirdness lol she has her issues bless her,other brother is on pills again,other sister is fitting in nicely bt will there be something big on the storyline horizon i wonder.uncle clearly gay.

wathced holby loved it,mre affairs,and good storylines lol.
watched casualty,loves it mre affairs here too,one of which was a good twist,she is going out with the fitty though she isnt going out with him cz she knows it wrong,yet she likes him,aaaargh bt herhusbandis having anaffairandisabitofatwatat time,bt he is jstsleepingrou nd whilst his wifeey feels gulty with the kids.poor dude!!
soaps great.space bar isnt working nw shit!!
mrelater got to work on this space bar

nt sure yet...

new series of peep shw.sometimes icnt helpbt laugh.there soin time with the humour and also so weird and almst annoying with it that i makes me laugh,bt do i like it.we will see!!

haha..

..loose womens karol interviewed russle brand and it was very flirty and saucry indeed.bt funny all the same lol,dnt know on his new movie i think by the reviews it should be good though!!and hes a laught too.

oh oh oh...

cnt think of title so used the same as before..
sis has gone back to uni,i have to say im missing her alreayd,as i've mentioned in the pst there jst a nice feeling when she hear,a togetherness to the family unit i suppose.bt she has gone to pass all her exams,go sis!!i did get to see the bf who i havent seen since chrismtas cz his is based in london so that was nice.
jst heard the news the wesley snipes has been jailed for three yrs good gawsh,wo.hmm will hea be the one celb who serves his time i wonder.

i made mac and cheese and everyone delved in even the fussy bro liked it and actually had a higer note to his voice when he saw what i had done,mum drvoe sis back to uni so she was very loving towards me coming hom late to see it st on the table.dad got to gotp pub in between taking me to get ingredient(nt before maing for me to be quick)and then he came home to eat.and brother got to go out and play and come in to that.so they were al thanking me lots.nw my mac and cheese is what we have had as mac and cheese in our fam for,mm forever actually bt i have nevr heard it being done by anyone else.my mum has always done it this way,and it placing salmon fillets in the bottom before putting the mac and cheese([asta woth homemade cheese sauce)on top and thensprinkles with cheese and bakes.i dnt know hw weird people would find this(cough cough cough cough cough cough dnt deny the lip smakcing please as you havent tried it,its loved by all)bt its hw we have always done it so there we go!!my dad has horseradish with too,that man either has to have that or chillies to burn his mouth off.we have got ovr the should we be offned he cnt jst have our tast in the food,cz he jst a weird to be honest.and they have leftover too cz i made it in the biigest dish we had so they can have it for lunch.

my godmother and auntie from the farm came to us at midnight lst night and is asleep in hans room.(look hw we replaced her lol)no they are staying jst for the night as they are going on to there hols,it wa meant to be there daughters hols bt she has becmome ill with something on her lung(im telling myself it isnt a lump of that kind)so theyhave taken it for them lol!!and so are popping in for the night and then shooting off this morning.it was lovly to see themthough i had a head ahcne and was asleepso went off to bed.they brough us a piece of pork as requested from my mum from there farm shop which of course came from ther epigs,and for a thankyou for letting them stay they brough some beef and sausages too,and of course for my dad some organ,i tuned away before i could hear what type of organ it was bt he nw happy lol.and ive frozen antoher bit of meat for them to take on with themcz it my uncles birthday so they will have it then.aww.they have to remembr it though lol.i left them a note so they should see it!!

big beef dinner was cooked lst night so all was happy and sweet smelling in the house.its so good when oyu go out to get the rest of the stuff for tea and you put the meat in then walk back through the door and ar emet with the smell of a raost,there is nothing like it lol.

oops i watched the bill,ooops i said i wouldnt get into it,actually i nvr said it bt i though i wouldnt bt i was only slightly watching it lol!!
and joey is wqute amusing right nw.and also escap to the country was it worht it with the wate twoer i started watching it looks like it was worth i though the man is cealry crazu and needed to think mre before spending me thinks,i nvr actually watched the end to find out hw it all went lol,silly me.
i have been missing grey anomtoy for er,sorry no cmpettion,i do tell myself oh watch er on the repeat bt i cnt i jst have to watch it as soon as its on lol.
the golden compass is out on dvd soon bt i cnt get into watching it,which i am confused bout cz i was so excited before it came out.
james bond,indiana jones and anglinas new ones are some i am looking out for on cineam screens.

brother has hair cut today which he always is so particlaur bout and i remeinded him before he went out,and then he forgot and missed it.silly boy,and he also is being bit of a pain with doing his paper round and mum is bailing him out somewaht,he acutally said to dad today oh dad dn have a go i was going to domy paoers bt wasout, you dumb ass hw can you get away with that,you were out cz you were plying with friends nt deleivering blood you ninny!!mum left them for him to sort yesterday bt i wreckin if he doesnt finshe them she will get him out of it again,hmm!!

she went to our bigger co-op in the nx village and was very pleased when she got lots mre for her money,she brought those rocky bars plain he and thecamrel ones the bring back memory from childhood,i think my sis was a firm beleiver of them being made by saint lol!!its weird hw these things we associate with things from childhood and the memorys and smiles they bring with them,its nice though thatthere are thing like that in our lives which do bring good things back to our mindotherwsie where the hell would we be.

the other day i saw a girl that left in the sceniors to live with ehr dad,it was weird she has and hasnt changed at all,i dnt know wehtehr she saw me bt she nevr recognized me if she did,we were close friends like she was in my closest friends group of girls,hw weird im wishing it was isimly that she dint see me or that it was for a good reason to me that she dint recognize me lol.

aaaa aaa my nxt door neighbour makes me smile,very lovely couple,so cute,so in love,going to be wed,go to do all kinds of super things to there home.and so lovely i have mentioend them before,and he and he sing and pay there piono and guitar and you can ehar them through my walls,its so cute,so bringing to the face smiles moments,love it,if i can hear them though waht can they hear in our house,we are kbown to let out feeling with shireks you know lol!!

oh oh oh..

getting into middle of the night kevin hill,and i getting hooked i think so.shit.
style her famous has been known to be watched too.shit.
simple life somteims too!!shit.
swtiched i cnt do bt is sometimes left on whether theres noting else if only for company!!shit.
my name is early lst night,nt so shitworthy!!
big bang theory i hav lst some viewing with bt no i think its all very funny there is jst other stuff on,sorry.very funny though.
keep missing paul o grady.
must check out of i can catch up on shipwrecked..yes i watch it..no im nt ashamed!!
lose women always gone be wrocking my tv boat,loving them all on that shw.

not impressed..

... with the snooker taking ovr.o.k there are snooker people out there,bt no people people people it jst isnt good,one its boring to me,dnt get it and aaa dnt want to, and for aonther things mm its taken ovr a fair few of my yummy programs,ready stready cook for one.im nw afraid to see hw long this tornament will be on for as i dnt watn to anger myself with the fact i will have to suffer it for that long lol!!

also nt impressed that i thought i may have severed a limb(o.k finger)the other day.what happened is probably my own fault(o.k yes it was my own fault)bt it was scary all the same expecially since i was in the house by myself so it ws made mre scary cz wat if it was a limb...
it all started when the family invited me to the new place they wanted to try which was 'wok mania'i turned it down to be with my duvet,im afriad it jst dint appeal(so why was i offended they asked me sisters bf instead bf i dnt no my paronoia that they all hate me perhaps and all along wanted me to say no so he could go with them hmm...!!)in the end they thought it was o.k bit weird bt nice enough...backto the evered limb(o.k finger sotry)i was blending some soup at the time and a bit of veg got stuck so me being me i stuck my finger in to get it out,and of course gripping the mixer to get it out i cough cough gripped the on buttom and blended my finger,yes you going quezzy yet i am jst thinking bout the whole thing again lol.my first thought was shock i think,no pain jst the sudden going ovr what had jst happend in my head and then the paralizing sound of the blade chunking on my finger andrealizing there was no way my finger would still be attatched properly,i looked then and it was like it wo here comes the blood,here certianly comes the blood,so i shoved it in my mouth and sucked till i had no feeling left in my finger,took it out and it went on bleeding so i stood there gigling as if id bin inhaling too much helium for far too long,i think i was in shock at this time too,then i phoned the parents and they were in the middle of there food so i nvr told them what happenened cz i new they would come home right then,so i continued to stand there,i tell you i kept hearing the chunking of the blade hitting my finger,and it tunrs uot the thing was quite a cut bt i think i was saved cz the blade hit the top of my finger,if it had swished acorss the bottom bit and that bit had bin trapped against the blade i think it would have been very bad,bt now i have a cut nail(yes it went through my poor little nail)and some two gashes,which are sore bt healing thankfully.it took when they were nealry home for the pain to kick in and then i wept a wee bit,then they all looked after me and my sister thanked her stomach for sending her out for a meal cz she cnt stand blood or anythinglike that so would have fallen to the floor at sight of what happened.

i was cheered up when my sis and her bf played a joke on my bro who had jst seen the dr who episode with the squid like creatures with the light bulb thingy in front of them,and had been scared since,they came and snook out to the pc printing something off and we were all veyr confued as they then snook into the lounge with stickkers and string and other things,then appearing in the garden in the dark were the squid like creatures off dr who,it was classic they had printed them off them interentet to make life size mask and stung them rounf the head,complete with candles as the light bulb things,we all luaghed lots,and my finger hurt as my laugh made the pulse throb in my finger,ouch. i am nw jst suffering with realising hw much you actually use that finger for almsot everyhitng in your day.my brother by the way was revivsing for a test(this boy meant to be doing his gcses)this was late at night when he should be in bed.
my sis was nvr a swot she went through bad patch bt my brother take the biscuit on lst minute revising at the moment,i tell you brother going through the change nt good lol!!
and as it happens sis is studying all the time for her uni stuff,considering this is her lst yr i think she should be proud she really is working like a trooper,let it be o.k.

i am watching lost whihcis being showed in the middle of the night on a saturday and i am sure i missed half the stuff that is being showed,bt then im sure i sat like a zomby when they were on our screens so nt quite sure there,maybe the firs ttime i was too ingrossed with jack and soyuer on the beach hehe!!

also hollyoaks in the city,nt sure on whether i can get into liking it yet.

desperate houswives i want to see it again and again,and hw does eva manage to look amazing even when dressed up as a boy,that little bitch of beauty lol.its classic though they jst seem to get bettr all the time.

right to the big thing in tv world,heroes started lst night and yes i misssed it bt this time i did it on purpose,almost missed it by accident though,bt i suddnely rememedm bt cz i was was watching channel for plus on channle it was time for come dine with me so i thought,come on heroes is always repeated again and if nt i always have good old iplayer so all isgood.the run up has been great though as the characters have been appearing on shws like loose women and this morning,so its all bin good,very fit people me thinks,oh and i think they could do this cz they were here anyway for the bafta and promoting there shws so us english grabbed them at good time eh?!!and the hiro guy who everyone loves the mst i think was in the weekend paper suppliment thing and i found out some interesting stuff,like his mum was a very brave lady when she went against all she new and divroced her husband and brough hero man to us and there he became a child genious(very cute on the front of a mag when he was a wee boy)and then he went on to be a big genious doing all sorts of work for very improtan people and helping out with filmsand comps,and graphics and stuff then to be braver and trying the acting to get into the thick of it,and coming into small shows where only he got the japenses this or chinese this and then landing his scrubs and then jst as he was going to give it up cz it wasnt he they wanted bt almsot the japenese extra type character and then he landed heroes.he seems like a sweety onthe show and out and the character join enough for you to love both!!and he is so down to earth too,nt up his own assness at all,he loves his fam and what he does and it clealry hasnt gone to his head aprt from to shw him hard work pays and he a lady ctacher lol,oh and geeks are cool!!

i started james patterson and have contineued to love his work and am gripped from word one once again.yay!!womens murder club is another get you into the characters and worry for them type thing,one of the members mother is nw indanger so it all on the edge of the seat stuff from the opening bits.yay!!

come dine in me is veyr weird,so no change there then.this time someone was sick from the food lol,and it showed it all in all it builders bum and seriously sicking up everything glory!!
i would love to be on this shw i think its fab.this time the women who is meant to be the delia of tongiths shw was the one who came third and happend to be the one to make the person sick lol.

of course er was on,what can i say this shw will always have rave reviews from me and i will nvr say a bad word apart from why arent they mkaing mre so i can watch it forever lol.i love pratt(whihc is shouldnt say cz when i say things like this they go and leave on me)bt he bin in the shw for so long he almost like a family member and continues to be great.ms who started in bend it like beckham is having a tough time of it all and noone new it was her birthdsy it was very sad.mr fit is getting together with the one who played the swot in scooby doo movie who is soo gorgeous she has such pretty feature bout her.then there the yonug virgin who is jst cute,then the sergion who i wreckon i always gona love neela bt wnt allow it and who is getting it off with new women anyway,then there red haired guy(name gone sorry)who is always hilarious and is aruging in this one with the receptionist who is too funny and like a bear too.and pratts women is nt calling him back and it tunrs out its cz she is trying to let him 'offf the hook'cz she has this thing that is passed in her genes where she will get cancer and have to have abag and all this kind of stuff,so it hard for the poor couple, i wonder whether it will make him relaise hw much he cares and will he fight for her,i want him to have some love man,and there abby who is ovr seas with luka,they bettr stay together man i would be devastated lol.

there was also a prgram on lst nigt bout our 'rich list'and i wonder hw many of them gave there money for charity.i often wonde rthough whethe rhtey give it cz they have so much and they think its right or cz what would happen to them if they refused,and yes there giving it all the same bt is it only cz they could lose it anywya or risk losing mre coming in if they shwed themselves being asses resuing to give some they already have!!

nst week is the show bout maddy mckan,i dnt know what i think of this rpgram,can it help,why is it being done is it to remind us,or to free there parents from all this shit we have given them if so why are they doing that anyway,i dnt no they have there reasons so who am i to say it.

since sis has been back i have acciedntly come across hollyoaks before i have caught up with it yet,and the ohter dya i saw the one where beth dies,oh my gawsh before running out the lounge my shock came as i dint expect this to happen,and there hannahs relaps,that bfof hers bettr stay with her man!!

there was a shw on bout 'am i normal'which was interesting,it shwed peopled with body dismrophia which jst shws the illness as a bitch cz the girl was simply gorgesoua dna yone wuld be jealous as hell of her,then the two eating dir=sorder people one of which is the boy i followed on the shw that was on bout him and other lads in rhodes farm centre on tv nt long ago.both who are coping good nw and working hard,they did one of those scans where hey shw what they think they llook like then are shwed the much thinner real them.i do think this is good idea bt i wreckon you can shw them anything bt until they are ready or willing they will think the fdam mahcine is broke drather than see the real thing so hmm on that one!!it had people with tatoo stuff where they brunt there skin to give themsevles scars and stuck rods in themselves too,it was all each ot there own stuff of course!!

then there reat british menu norht week on iplayer for me,i like this week it bin veyr interest lol,they are both so different i would say the mst different of the contestants so far,one is very heston type chef who trys such things like smoke fill moserellla bombs where he try to blow up the cheese into bubble with his own smoking puffer of a device lolit dint work bt he has time to perfect it for today heat,and he does make some other great stuff i love the look of his pud and he really has brought it to the modern ways,then there the ohter guy who accent is so cool,he is also bringing modern bt in a totatlly different way where it kind i dnt know hw to explain i t really,its like modern but old bt brought together so its modern,you get me..no good cz i do so whtever lol!!got to watch the judging today i will nt miss it again!!

home and away gooood stuff i love the new character,one quite hunky if i may say so much betttr than this than he was in healdandozzie shw and so is the other one from there too!!
sally and cassy going on hols for a while, will this be hw they leave surely they cnt jst leave it like that whre they go for a holthen it comes where they dnt come back,i will nt allow it to be that simply for them thankyou!!
neighbours gooood,affair with school girl,im sorry cnt agrree with it..suzan bless her and her foot in the mouth syndrom lol.

gossip girl,come on good old nitty gritty light headed goodness lol.

60 minute makeover is my daytime t.v of choice too, i do wonder woh pay for it though i will have to look it up cz i keep meaning to,i mean at the end it all looks good,i wrecon close too though the mdf wouldnt be so hot off the t.v,bt at the end they say it coz something like14thousadns eomteims and i dnt think they pay do oyu?!!so its jst paying to have people makever for you and so its like a decorating job only you get to be on tv no?

i come across a website which reviews candy and stuff,and have you seen all the stuff the japenes get made for them from kit kat lol,stuff like starberrys and cream and cappucino,and other thing like orange creme aero,and its amaxing hw all of us have all this sonfectionary whichis so diffeent bt so interesting though,love it!!

all my fam have come together to do mre comment on sis webstie photos it so nice to make fun of them and nt so good when iget it back bt oh so funny all the same.come on we were cute kids it can only evr be jokes..or jelousy hehe!!

goss and some..

the new bond car plunge dinto lake garda,anyone else had a gigle on this one.no oh jst me then,i dnt know its jst such a big thing this car is part of what makes james bond and there car the only car,has been wrecked due to the man that should know hw to use it,nt that it was on purpose and im sory to them bt come on giggle jst a bit!!

scarlett johanssons..a song...a singer oh come on why,will it be a paris hilton or old neighbours actor to singing try,oh dnt break her,she such a good little actress and so many like her it would be such a shame lol!!

oh kerry given birth on camera.,whree will she go nxt,is it some deseparat attempt for mre exposure.she needs help i think or jst some time off camera!!

shit snadra bullock hea don crash by a drive ovr twice the alchol limit,both cars a write off bt luckily she is o.k.wo that awful, ilike sandra bullock glad shes ok couldnt stnad anohter star going on us!!

falty towers has been voted the mst iconic comedy shw.hw great,nw nt many people i know might know of this shw,it might nt bee sonsdered as very cool at all to some,bts its great its fecking great,and all the shws are hilarious in some way,i nw own some of them on dvd which my sister has kicked and im nw worried i may nvr see again(we should look after dvds bettr in our fmaily)and theres also jon clees who is fab as mr long legged shrieking owner of his hotel,and his little waiter who my brother did the one line 'i know nothing' as his trade line for yrs when he was yonug.aww great stuff im very happy for them.
IM GLAD TOO IT BEAT FOOLS AND HORSES IM SORRY ICNT GET ON WITH THAT SAHW LIKE OTHER DO,THEY SCREAM BOUT HW FAB IT IS,NW IM SURE I COULS SIT THROUGH IT BT I WOULDNT SAY OOH GOTTA GO AND WATHC IT NW.
mr clees also came first in the greatest character in his basil role,great!!
and dawn french in vicar of dibley came first too.aww love that too!!

would you look at that..

mre kids have been found to have probems such as disrders from depression to anorexia becase of pressure to grow up too fst being amongts one of the reasons.
hw much of s suprise is thise really.
we put so much on kids,when do they start exams or tests these days?when do they start wearing ake-up or stop playing with dolls?when do they leanr to swear?or to have to fend for thesmelves.cooks and clean for themselves or others i nthere family?its reciculous,they lose so much of there childhoods.its harsh and unfair they have to deal with so many worries that when i wa slittle little nvr crossed my mind all i was into was babries and eating chips lol.nw its counting caloreis and the cool toys!!
and schools when do they start doing tests in school,looks like the age we were only playing with playdough and miraccers in music lessons.and such pressure to do good in these tests to go to good schools make the school number sloooks good,its appalling and i think it should be thought through seriously.NOW!!YOU SEE HW MUCH DIFFERENCE IM GONNA MAKE HEHE?!!

photos!!

i love looking through photos,i could do it for hrs,ones of my mum of us when were younger of holdidays and so many things we have done and mum has done in her life,its great!!
my sister posted some new ones of us when we were kiddies on her page and they look fab!!and we were cute and so were some of the cousins she found too,if a little odd in places with some weird ass haircuts and clothes,what were our parents thinkging or should i say tryinf to do to us lol!!
thanks sis though there fab and im aure made us all smile as we flicked through them!!

tv...again!!

HEROES THIS WEEK GET IN THERE YAY GETTING CLOSER BRING IT ON YAY!!

i missed holby city in the wee hrs of sunday morning,bt hahah i caught upthis morning on iplayer so all is good there,some dishy docs in it i say.

caguth up on casualty too and gosh that gets bettr each week espcially as there is the doc in that whom i drool ovr each week,this usally gets me into trouble though as when i think there gorgesou they seem to leave,hmm coz the rest of the world grabs them cz there so gorgesou perhaps?!!

i watchd the hollyoaks where beth and ryhs got caught out,good gracous those two,it wa amazing though,big fight,big eyes,tears and stupid people seeming to mkae big deal ovr them being sister and brother lol,mm it is an issue people and the law does come into it nvr mind its his bst friends bird.and nw hannah is going back to he red nt good,bt there showing relaps in it so is this a good thing?

i have also missed borthers and sister and im nt sure you can get it on for od so im crying a bit on whether i will get to see it,i know it is repeated bt im nt sure when so i need need to find that out.

er gets bettr too,i mean come on these pepole deleiver a fab fucker of a story each week and for hw many yrs nw?there skill in that people there is there is!!considering you get the shitty ones that cnt pull one good episode together.

was the BAFTAS on tv lst night?i missed it anyway bt might try and cath up with that,there were som good winner like brucie and gavin and stacey which i dnt actually watch cz im nt quite convince on it bt those two men in it i really really love so maybe i should try watching it.

i have to say i have sadly started one of my otoer books james pattersons.i had to leave the life of pi for a bit,nt cz i dnt like it,the writing is getting to me its nt too cleverly written bt it jst sometihng i cnt get on with at this point bt i will go back to it soon as i do love it,i jst needed seomthing different james patterson spoek out to me.

i also missed the film on channel 4 with the will and grace womn in it cnt remembr wot it was called the perfect dateor seomthing,i kind wanted to see it actually as it dint look all bad bt its everywere so im sure ill see it some time.

and i've jst seen an advert that nxt weeks channel 4 movie will be in her shoes with cameron diz and i like this one so i might jst tune in.

what bin appening rounder then?

yesterday was sunday and me granps came to our house for the day.it isnt often this happens,probably far less than it should and i think it all went downhill on the visiting sector since my gran left us a while back.she was always the one that got us together and made us do family stuff and we seemed to have weened a bit since then.bless him though grnapa does like to come when least expecting it though if he didnt i doubt we would see him like we do lol!!there is often a phonecall saying im coming then or i was thining of staying from heretill here.and we would always politelyoffer when it wasnt so arranged whether he would like to stay because he would yawn muchly or it would be getting late and then say oh bt pitty you havent got anything to wear or clean clothes,and he would wander out and back in with a mini suitcase,the man was clever eh.and so it was from then on a running family joke and bet whether we could find a mini suitcase in his boot when he came lol.
a few of the lates ttimes he has come though he hasnt actually stayed with us even though we have offered,im nt sure whether this comes with the age kind of and he jst needs his comforts or whether he has come to hear of our giggle or sometimes im afriad moans of him staying.nt moan i say cz we dnt like him bt jst cz he does talk poor fellow and it can get a bit niggly bt we dnt mind really.and so i do worry a bit cz he went home lst night too.bt the day was o.k i think.we had a lamb roast for lunch whihc was an achievment in itself cz we nevr get to make them for lunch as we are the mst unorganized people on the planet so it gets to having it at tea time.
it was a hge piece of lam.took couple of hrs to cook,bt then again our family are meat lovers.espeically lamb it the the family favourite so really we could have a spit roast of it and it wouldnt have really been a problem.so this with proiper roasties(which i am proud to say is nw a usualy for the sunday roast cz they used to be the from the freezer stuff)and then it was the leeks,comes on you have to have these with lamb and mint sauce,and cauliflower carrots and cabage so all round a god hearty sunday roast,very family fied and very usual for what should be a good day of rest,very traditiol and nice,and a few arguemtns of getting everything together on time which is also a msut so all is good lol.for pudding i made the day before gordan ramsays easy tiramasu,nw this wsnt my idea its my mums pud really bt she was busy so aksed me to do it.we first found it on the cook f-word program he did and it is nw one of the favs for mum.nw i say it wsnt my idea cz ot be honest i really want to make the proper one,this was of gordns im sure tastes great bt it is simple which is only what he calls it anyway so thats fine bt its,lady fingers flavoured mascarpone and coffee with added marsarla in it so yes all the flavours are there bt i would really love to give the proper layered combo thing ago,mum wnt have it yet though so mre persauasion has to come i think!!leaving it for the night though allows the falvours to really infuse so that was good i actually got something prepared with muh time to spare lol!!

heres the deal breaker though,my sister is home for jst a few mre days of her easter break and her bf came home for the weekend(they've been missing eacohter cz he has stayed in uni to keep working so they have been aart for the hols.)and the night before the roast they went to there friedns for a camping in a field session,hilarious one cz of my sisters way,she hates cold dirt and wet so bringing her to a tent in a field isnt gonna be all dandy if things are prepared lol,so they got our the blow up matresses and the duvets and the sleeping bags and shoved them al in the the back of our car to take them to the field!! in the end it didnt turn out all that bad she was cold bt she did it,with the help of a winter coat.ski jacket and hoodie lol!!
bt heres where the lunch problem came in,we didnt think she would be here so only made enough puds for everyone else.so mum whipped down to the gadren bottom where we grow some of our fruits and tugged out what would be our first rubarb,bery exciting this was,so mum put together a crumble and shoved it in the oven whilst they ate.and then we they were all sitting round dibbing in to tad bits of this crumble whilst i cleared up the work top,and there we sligght coughs or lttl egrunts coming from the table and one by one they all came out with 'this tastes weird'or 'it taste mre like instuck together and uncooked pastry'and finally the honest sister said'oh gosh this is awful' and then frm mum as she grabbed it like a portective mother to try it came 'SHIT I FORGOT THE SUGAR' and then laughs from everyone esle lol.nw i am prone tofogeeting the odd herb and stuff and yes a few mre things in the pst bt mum does this quite often these days,and the suagr from a crimble topping jst isnt good and the faces from them all said it all its amazing hw one ingredietn can change such a fav into a shitter of a pud!!mum chucked it angrily and she was quite upset that her first rubarb pulling was f*cked up!!

she is excted toay though as she was phoned by her god-daughter,and has beeen asked to make her daughters chrsitening cake,mum used to make them all for people so she is chuffed with giving this honour again.and very excited whipping up idea here there and everywhere lol.

did everyone here hw mr prince willaim has been using the helicopter for his own stuff,hmm nt good impression these lads can somteims give eh?i cnt see the huge problem in it as something that jst happend bt if we do look deaper and see the man is using an important peice of mahcinaery ofr popping to hs girlfriends and out for a good time then yes it iskind wrong eh?

i am going to be searching tou tube today and reading through mohter(yes i do like it too acutally)readers digest i came across the story but a song that has been thought to be made into a cd soon,and its one we cannot here cz of the pitch of it,and it though only dogs can,and when played it makes no noide to us bt the dogs get excited,it will be funny if it works and if then it gets put to cd cz hw would we know,it could be a great scam for makingu biy blank cds when we're beleiving it fukls of music for dogs lol!!

have we heard bout the important man is he that mp or someone from that line of work that has come out with suffering from bulimia,i feel for the bloke and very proud he has maaged to come out with it and be honest.to be honest im also ahsamed by a few comment people have made.bout whether he is too old to haveit or too ig or nt bleieving him,we live in such a judgemnetal sterioptypical world.you dnt ave to look like anything in particualr for goodness sake and why would he lie.it happens to the nicest people the weirdest people or the youngest oldest of people it takes no wanring of itsprisoners and people should be feeling for him rather than judging surely.its like anorexia people often frown when a person nt sitcking with bones everywehre says they have it,there are people beelive it or nt of all size ith anoerxia its a mental things and the pyscial thing yes can come bt somtesim it goes and people still suffer or jst simply have to stay at a weight to keep alive,dsnt mean they are any less ill than the pople in hositpal on ng tubes for goodness sake,it angers me so much hw people can judge so much yet wnt take anytoime to listen,care or make these shittty dam awfu ldisease bettr for people!!

mums birthday.

i always try to do something special for mum for her birthday,and mst of the time i want to do the things that cst soooo much.
nw she really wants to see some moose in norway,anyone out there know hw this can be done,even someone who knows hw it can be done for nthing cz they simply want to do a good dead even bettr!!off to incvestigate i go...

did i see..

gordan has a new secrets reveiled book.
off i skip to the land of book stores online to find out i think...
i love that chef inspitration or what?

tv of course..

hw long can i go without talking the tv talk...oh nt long,
nw first theres skins,wahtced the lst in the series lst night and i cried,i did i shed one of those tears the jst sits waiting to see whether it wants to fall from the corner of ur eye kind things.it wasso beautiful though and im sad its gone and im sad when it come back the characters wnt be the same,i had gotten friendly with the bugers it tell you.
when it first started especailly from the adverts which are mis-leading to asay the least i was skeptical and then i slid into it in and out frm time to time and mre in itn thise series and have have gotten to love it,you can really see the humour and compassion for the cahracters and the sotries really comes through once you stop slating and give it a chance,and i did thise and yay i loved it!!lst night was jst a fabway to finsh it all though,really great stuff there folks.at the end of series that are popular its always hard to end it with a god noted and to make sure you can end it with a good bang and sum it all up.and this did.they were all togterh for chris funeral and had fireoworks for him,course this was after sid and tony knicked the coffin and had an italina jb style chase with it strapped to the top of there mini lol,yes can you imagine the unfuniness nw imagine it being funny cz im afraid it was,then they had the whole opening the exam results and them all getting in apart from amoer who in the end went off to london with mr incredibly fit gay guy and his bf,the stalker girl was left behind bt i think this was the right way for her character to go to be heonst,and tony and his girl made up and had a lovely goodbye,whilst tony and sid were bootifil and are far to intwined to evr be anything other than soul mates lol!!so tony got him tickets to ny to fin cassie and gave him big kiss on his head follwed by some dam good acting skilled tears. he could seriously go far this lad,though quite frankly he already has hasnt he, hes done mre than some acotrs get to do in there whole try as an aacotr lol!!and jal was great too crying for chris and learning from it all,and i love the way they all said fuck it cz this was totally chris phrase,and i nw wish to steal it please and im sure im nt alone,so nw i will be saying like he did to get ovr his woes and such things or actualy bout anything jst two simple words of 'fuck it'!!

then there desperate housewives which was great as usual when it is nt.this secret from this new family is getting to me nw though and i want to no what it IS DAMMIT!!i must admit i did like gabbi hair when it was al short and cute and curly in lst weeks episode it worked with her cute fairy look,though maybe this is why she has it long nw lol.

HEROES IS BACK NXT WEEK...GET IN THERE PEOPLE...GET...IN...THEEEEEEEEEEEEEERE!!YAY.
course grahamn norton was bacl toniht and of course i did miss it,bt i was watch come dine with me which i am nt sure of hw the lyout is going,mre so cz i like the ohter way as it was long for each person so lst longer,so infact it good stuff,and they seem to get mre random and weird people having these parites,i wonder hw they find them lol and hw they say hmm yes we'll have you please!!what an odd interview that would be.

and i watched great british menu on iplayer,caught up with the welsh runs and will be watching the judging today which is exciting coz im nt with either one of them yet,hmmactually aybe slightly towards angla cz i see what she is trying to do with her food i dnt know whether the stephen guy is quite bring it to the modern way the judges look for bt i have a feeling i could be wrong.bt gosh these people are skilled as hell and i want to be able to do what they do,and they get to travel to all these places in order to source the greatest ingredients which is also one of the greatest things to be able to do in my eyes.and im learning new stuff all the time bout hw stuff is made and where it comes from and stuff so come on where can this prgram possibly go wrong lol.

sally is leaving soon i feel it in the salty sea waters of somer bay!!
and you can see the neighbours storlyines comeing to some exits and excitement too!!
i've been missing usa big bro and im nt sure bt i think it may have ended tongith with the person wiining i though would cz it was the mst unexpected ting to evr happen.bt ill have to look it up.

we nw have the st trinians dvd so i might watch that at some point,i do want to.im pondering all the while on whether i want to see mr brands new movie,i do think it could be quite good though!!and he meant to be very funny in it and i can believe that.
reading through the good food mag pile i have in our bookcase i saw an issue that i obviously didnt pay enough attention to cz i found what could be described as my almost right kitchen lol,it was all springy and bright and wooden with pinkssunshine yellow and flower laura ashley type look and big doors,and mmm yummy stuff.i love the bit they have on people kitchens bt hw they get the money for these things man they mst be some people!!

oooh has the m&s adverts changed,nw when there other ones first came on with all the this isnt jst this its m&s this and all that womens soft voice stuff i kind thought it was unique and quite good,nw it has simply got old and her voice grates and greate on me like something very gratey and nasty,bt nw they have changed it,bt im nt sure whether its here to say or for a limited time,cz its got some elements the same and her voice is there too!!please change it people its nt like you dnt have the money eh?

i always said..

That my bro was a great little chef buttt i also said that my sis loved her food,ha my whole family lvoe there food,bt i have mentioned before i know that my sister is a lover of good grub like the mre posh of noshes lol.
she does cook here sometimes and it always good meals and i know that her and her bf often cook together or for eachother,and his fam are food lovers to so they always get diea off of eachohter.
bt lst night she did a fab one for the fam,off she went for some shopping,(she brought a top which was good for her,shes a bargain hunter yes bt a hunter all the same and will buy if she find lol)and she came back holding a few sainsburys bags packed of good like cho bars and condensed milk and such tings,and in the end she made a dam good(one of those times yo dnt mind the kitchen smelling of tonights fare lol)thia green curry,and to boot she didnt really use a recipe she really looked at the back of the thia paste and made it up to hw many she was cooking for and then for pudding she did something we have nt had in our famiy before.nw she did have her bf on the phone a few times lol bt whatever she did it!!and she made banoffe pie,nw it was a sucker from the start as both my mum and bro dnt like bananas bt judging by the fact the whole roasting size pot was hlaf empty by the end of the night i think it was o.k!!she did the condensed milk in the tin thing too which i always am to scared to try for fear of it exploding all over the kitch if the water isnt boiling all round it in the pan.(though i did hear that you can do it in the microwaver for some short seconds and it will work the same,im sure i heard that off phil vicory off daily cooks infact).back to it then and everyone loved it and sister jst took it all in as if it was nothing,she even has her timing right,gawsh the girl with the good dress sense good mates good job good bf good relationships with all,good school life,could she do anything else in order ot make me jealoius hmmm let think on that one...!!

goodbye our friend..

so today was finally the day we officially had to say godbye to our beleoved passed down through the genration car. our little white frd fiesta failed its mot a few weeks back,it was a miracle it had got through so many yrs of them to be honest and we all new it was coming,bt it was always going to be a vry sad moment and it was,it truly was.
we took it to the scrap,we though of selling it bt clearly we werent going to get much for it and if we sold it any old hw we new it is the right car for those buggers who will take ur car jst to go out and burn it.
at one point my sister wanted to be dragged in it for her wedding(it has been her first car and her sturdy steed since she pst her test soo you know each to there own lol)aand we even though of putting it in the garden and putting plants in it lol,you see the love for this car!!
bt then it was decide it mst go so we sent it for a holiday with lots of other cars.i hpe it know hw good its been to us!!
i did want the nu,ber plate or some seat fabric to be wripped off bt i have a feeling that didnt happen.poo.

this and that....

nw i ought heat magazine today,i buy it quite often,and it usually comes with a long winded debate between me and my dad,on hw much trash they have in them and hw as much as i moan bout what they say and effect others with some mean stuff in there that in the end i am fueling it in all i do.bullshit father is usually hw the debate ends,i am fully aware that what they print is totally wrong sometimes and i cnt imagine hw they make the 'stars' feels sometimes.bt i also know that if i didnt buy them for one they dnt rely on my odd purchase lol and two they would easily find some other way to get to people.
today thought got me particualy angry on one point,it is all bout the stars and hw skinny they have gotten and why.nw firslty i'd like to mention why they hell some of these stars have nt been admitted to hosptial,cz i know of people who have been forced by dragging into ambulances at weights like theres then force fed through a tube,nw we all can say bt we dnt think its clevr and dnt like it bt somewhere along the line we are treating them differently and with mre power than others simply cz of the fact they are nt being sectioned right nw.and no matter what they say they have issues with food,u cnt look that thin and nt have some issues,i do disagree completely with the fact the mags jump on them with eating disorder labels as thy really need to research on what this deadly disease is and it a metnal illness and jst cz these girls are thin dsnt mean they have an ed cz lots of girls suffering out there are nt actually emaciated,bt there is disorded eating and they must have it and have some kind of ed jst nt anorexia or bulimia which there always labled with,cz they are blatanltly weak they mst be walking round feeling shit to be honest and to be this thin i cntimagine what there eating intake is like.
bt today in the mag i came across a pic of miscah barton,nw they have slated this poor babe for yrs nw with eating disorder rumours and hw awful and skinny she looks,and i think she has been at points rather ill looking bt you can also see hw gangly her fram is too and she very long limbed ,bt i do thin kshe got carried on the too thin carriage in la for some time,bt today she was slated for her size on the other end,nw she was un some unflattering legings and to be honest i dnt know whether they have photo shopped it for there story bt they said hw big her legs were,i tinhk it was clearly an awful pic and i cnt see hw they can say she needs to put on before and nw expect the girl to feel secrue if she evr read through what there putting nw,nt that the mags make people starve all the time im nt blaming them bt can you imagine if that was u in there that they printed this bout tody,no matter hw secrue u feel,women are insecure bout there bods at times and noone wants ot be told what they said and so i know it would bubble n there somewhre,its very unfair and they need to get what there tryin to say to people in perspective.cz they moan and slate eitehr way,who is beautiful to them i do nt know.

one mre telly thing!!

vanity lair finshed.good guy won,amusing faces as others didnt,saw what they'd look like in future with lives they live nw.arguemtns ovr eveing dresses,vain and selfish me thinks.nt an experminet i dnt think jst a good spin on the title to get viewers.it was a hooking program though.

theres gotta be some t.v mentions too eh?!!

and mags and books,been cathing up with my food mags,love it!!
books good i do get a sudden panic though as im reading as i dnt know whether i am clever enoughto understand it and enjoy it to its potential,bt then i think this and read on and find im loving it so im nt quite sure as yet.im sure i love it bt do i deserve to read a bok im nt gettingm properly i dnt know.

im really like the daily cooks program thats one,i watched today and phil vickory was on,he has to be one of my favourite tv chefs and i think it has ome to do wit the fact i love his wife fern too,so he gotta be cool lol.anthia tunrer was the guest today and i always thought she was quite snotty bt she was really nice and a laugh too.

home and away and the story of hw sally is going to leave is coming to shw nw.boo hoooooo!!the new guy in it though i think i have mentioend is in the headland drama and also i realised that sally twin is also in it.they've gone up in the world.


ooh ooh ooh the heroes adverts are here.GET f*cking IN THERE MAN!!it means its coming and i cnt wait.and also its weird cz graham norton comes nxt wek too and these were at the same time the lst season,why they go together i dnt know maybe its simply jst hw the timetable has come bout.

ready steady cook is being loved too right nw.

great britsh menu is good and its welsh catchup week for me this time on iplayer,with hte angela chef who i really like,im nt sure hw she will be against the stephen guy,i know he is very simply and home cooked food almst so i think the only downfall on his part will be the judges are looking for good food which his clearly is bt that maybe they do want something a tad posher.bt angelas food looks great and i dint realise all her family wokred in food to with all these restaurants in wales,gawsh i dnt know she even came from wales lol.i watcehd the starter course today and i have to ay i like her bettr.bt we'll see it can all change.

we watched the find me a nancy program lst night.i know who i like and i think the judge love her too,there are a few i think really have the nancy edge,cz she needs to be quite edgy with some despare in her i think and also the motherly kind hearted approach too to look after the kiddies like oliver.and also the kiddies that have been picked for oliver character i know which one i like of those so here to crossed fingers lol.there is one nancy lady who i cnt get to grips with shes such a caboray women and isnt right for the rle in my eyes,and im in no way saing i no crap all of what is needed for the character bt for me she doesnt fit it.the one in the green gets my vote all the way.
we also watched some of jamie at home bless him he still fnatastic lol.
and some of the tiger program,which i regret missing mst of bt i saw the lst one where they have all grown up and all live together or nxt to eacohter which apperently is quite odd for tigers to do so hw nice is that,seeing these creatures though its amazing there so large,so powerful and yet so gracious with it there jst amazing and i cnt believe we hurt them and kill the off,its jst nt fair they deserve to be gracing us with there presence,they so do!!cz i save the tigers every day dnt i...!!
watched waht i think was the lst in the series of one tree hill,haley has her bootiful baby,yay,so does karen,mr scott gives himself up and is hated,he goes to hang himself bt cnt,they have a party,the girls do a dam brilliant dance to a spice grils song,there all so gorgesou,and they all talk and stuff bout where there going and what to do with the lives after graduation,so this mst be leading to the new series that is coming to our e4 soon eh!!?

home and away a sad story is coming up which should be good too.so yay ot that,nt yay to sad bt it looks good.

the baftas are on this weekedn too.i dnt always tune in like i say i will be i think i will catch bits and bobs of it.

caught up on my casualty which was dudee,loving this one always,lots of stuff happening,strange things i dnt quite understand yet bt it might iron out as the stroy unfolds.like does a doc have a realitonshoip with the yonger guy or is he in love with hte girl,very confused right nw.and the gril that tired to end her life who was first in coro lol is back and struggling to cope with nt being able to take on her doctor place,bt she cool so i hpe she gets there and dsnt leave or seomthing.

then theres sundays showing of holby loving this too,i actually watched and episode of mile igh bout the air hoestesses with sex included lol and the ocd suffering smart shy and slightly depressed doc in holby is a dude with a six pack and a lover in mile high lol.hw odd it was to see this buff macho head.cute though,always new it!!
britian got talen it keep seeing on catch up and catch bits of it.
the that prgram with the keith lennon guy is it?i dnt find the prgram funny at all bt he and that voice of his crack me up lol!!dnt you hate that.
watched a bit of lily allens good snaps from her prgram which i hav to say werent all bad.shes very probing though and i cringed sometimes thinking she couldve really got someone in trouble at times if they didnt think before they spoke which wouldnt be there fualt.
brother and ssister was f*cking fantadtic as always and i noticed my dad actually stopped working to watch,when i asked him if he like it he grunted,stubborn git he wnt admit liking something i love.the sotry in this prgram jst gets bettr all the time,aaah i wnt expalin waht happened it needs to be watched to be known properly,calista marriage coming up with the gorgeosu presdient hopeful,the lovely justin with his hurt and injuries both pysicall and mentally and finally taking his meds though fearing being hooked again and his mum who made him take them is nw seeing the effects and hw he could wuite easiyl become the addict he was nt so long ago.the sister struggling wit hdivroce,the brother and his gay realtionships.the other brothe rwho mum and dad has taken him and his new born girl away o there home,and who is clealry going to have an affair with his new offcie worker,hw do they do this in prgrams as soon as tow character meet you jst no if they will have an affair in the future and these two had something,dam it dnt do it man jst dnt,it wil hurt me too lol,dnt these people no hw into there prgram i am in a saaad way!!oh i do know hw addicted i am ad yes it is or may be the saddes thing in the planet bt who cares im nt hurting noone with the saddness so let me be!!and then there the step daughter who nice and i jst cross my fingers she is nice cz theres somehting or there was,bt who wouldnt have issues finifn out all she di bout her real dad and fam in first series.there the uncle who i htink is actually maybe gay or bi too!!the mum trying hard with everything,and the swet way they come togerh in some way at the end of each ep like lst night with choc and ice cream fondue round kitchen table,love it keep it coming!!

and shipwrecked is back,and i am liking it.yes you can all say no i wnt get into it,that stupid talk i leanr every time cz i always do.
they are all yonug and gorgeosu which seems to happen mre in nowadays prgramming of this type,bt there were twist and turn and such harsh ones to be honest,they all arrived one left after one day,few bitching,theh at the first beach party,firs thtyeh ad to split and pick which teams they would be which thye eventaully decided would be the ones they arrive do the island with,then they had to decide on two to leave,one off each team.they all weped of course nad some i think because they simply wanted people to almsot say look hw upset she is lets nt make her go,in the end though they picked straws and stones and two left.the two lovely ones at that,farmer girl and gentlman james,they didnt infact leave and went to a sep island to live with a survivor trained man,who did pigs and crabs lol!!and i wreckon mre will join them maybe voted off eachc week from the oter island im nt quite sure,or will they jst come here,its apparently rough island to live on and they do actually realise that allthough thye dnt have junk food or soem luxeries on toher islands on this third one they dnt have ought and have to survive with htings like sand for soap!!
there were three programs to start it all off though,the on where they go to all the peoples houses and meet them in the homes.then hte comeing to the island,then a seperate one for the newly seperate islanders.
there are a few fitties in there,and arrogant'yes meeting ladies will be hot'shits too who also happen to be fitties!!ther jst insecure u can see the good in them..yes you cn!!

the usual here and theres of a girl like me..

yesterday was sunday and i helped mum with a sunday roast.its strange isnt it hw when the sister is home from uni mum is all up to making bettr meals for her,we all know the sis is very particular,nt fussy,jst loves good and proper food,so wheras when its jst the bro and them eating good meals can sometimes be gone to take outs and quicker tihngs,which i think is soeasy to do for her coz the bro does nt protest bt praises this lol.i hve to admit it does get to me a bit,jst like he flowers she always comes home to in her room,mum alwaus makes a special effort for her which you would expect totally,bt it does get annoying somteims,i think you'dhav to witness some of the things to nt call me a total selfish bitch bout this.
mum was in the cooking mood i think,we had to get two smaller chicken this time though which to be honest in our family isnt a problem and in the edn today the left-ovrs were made into chicken in white sauce which i mentioned before,so the sis was happy coz this happens to be a fav of hers.i did the veg and stired here and there and layed the table whilst mum did the major cooking bits.i did however make the crumble,gt the blackberries out the freezer the night before and noticed we had no apples,this shocked me somewhat i have to admit cz my granpa used to freeze bout fifty bags and give them away to us and our cousins every time he saw us lol,so too nt have any was weird.bt mum bought some fresh today so all was o.k.we do do the crumbles in a rather large pot,a rectangle one so often need lots of topping bt i infact needed a 14-16oz mix,we do have a family that are particlauly fond of the thick topping though almost to the point of having it the same sometimes mre lol to the fruit below so that it has the crispy top yet the under layer of the crumble mi goes slightly soggy and then there yet another under bit that infuses the red fruity bit,you see why the topping needs to be the thickness it is lol!!
i did have to nip out to hte shop though as there was no ice cream and this ia against the crumble eating law to be honest!!

the presenter guy that was found ded the other day i av jst skimmed upon a sotry that he hanged himself or something,then the sotry went so i mst find out mre on that,hw sad,hw truly sad for him,that brill artist with the biggest smile on kids tv lol.

when the fam came home the other day they needed something quick and easy for tea,after many doughtnuts nt to mention mcdonals they werent all that hungry anyway.so mum got a few packets of the nachos packs you can get,we also buy there fajita packets too,bt the first time mum and the brther got them the shock on mums face as she opened it up ready and hungry and out fell the crisp was hilarious,this packets of crsips that could have been the same as one of your dortio packets said served 2 main meal and 4 as a snack,nw in the end with the mince she bought and cooked and mixed in ye sit was ok,bt if you simply served them with the refried beans and salsa hmmm.GET REAL!!she learnt her lesson though and bought mre this times lol.

i've been drawing mre lately and im enkjoying getting into it so much.and today i did something i havent done before,i usally draw people or cartoons or such things and nvr go to scenary or anything bt today i did and i drew this pic of new york sky scraper,bt on one rough was this green grassed roofed cottage which didnt fit in the other building bt it worked,and then i made sun beams shine on this pretty little cottage,it was fun and im glad i braved it and did it,i did some people manga types too though of course!!

loooking..

FOR A RECIPE TO USE THE MASCARPONE IN OUR FRIDGE,WE CNT GET IT LOCALLY SO HAVE TO GO OUT OUR WAY TO GET IT AND NWWEHAVE SOMEIN OUR FRIDGE WHICH I REALY DNT WANT TO JST CHUCK OUT BLESS IT!!HMM I WANT TO MAKE SOMETHING FANTABULOUS WITH IT!!

jst to say..

i am looking at all the chefs sites and there restauratntsand loving it,am looking atthe judge off great british menus places right nw and im lovin it, i nvr new all these people did all this its great to find out mre bout them.

lovely people

anna friel she jst seems like a real down to earht lovely lass,and i cnt wait for her new prgram pushing diasys this weekend,it looks very cute,good and different.

she was on gmtv which i also happened to love and watchign there new comp for someone to come in and help rpesent the shw has showed me hw long they have all been doing thee jobs for,its inpiring man!!

i really want to enter into some food mag comps this month as i always want to bt nvr do..im such a wimp!!

bits and bobs..

loose women have a new panelist that lady from the x-factor who made jaws drop on the shw when it mentioned she used to date brad pitt,sunita i think is her name,i have only seen on with her in it so i cnt comment bt she seemed cool,im worried though why have they brought her in,my tv snesing ears have pronged into action and im scared is she there to replace someone,like carol hhh no,or colllen hhh no!!they cnt can they,they wouldnt do it to me would they.

currently in the news is the issue on smackin.and the story hw to parents gt tunred down from fosering a child cz they siad they did sometimes smack there own child,this automatically stops them from being able to foster a child.nw i dnt kno where i am on this,to be hones ti cnt begin to understand whats its like to need to decipline a child, i dnt think anyone who hasnt had children can really really commment on this,because hweni think of being so out of my mind if a child isnt behaving,nt wanting to smack to punish though bt for dicpline i jst dnt know.ecause the thing is i want to say no non nononon,i dnt beleive in it and i nvr would cz that is what i do say,bt as i sed i dnt know whats it like i jst dnt know,bt what i did find interesting is hw can we do it,somewhere it mentioned what would you do with some who is old and does something stupid like walking into a road like a child might do and then you smack em,hw do we nt do it to the elder person,and this brought into my mind the power issue we do it to the cild cz we can cz we have mre pwoer we're older and biigger and you know stronger than them so we do to them what we wouldnt dream of to be people our age or older,so why is it different.that confused me so much especially coz i want to say smacking hmm you have to see,coz would it be different if it was to dicipline like i hate hate hate the fact that its done out of anger which it mst be,cz its when people at thee end have to shw the child something right then and there,so its lashing out right,in pwoer and anger,thats what i dnt like.and so im very confsued.
one thing i do no though is that i can completely understand the nspca and such people thoughts when they say the people couldnt foster,i know of people who get scared when u raise ur eyebrows nevr mind a simple tap at them becasue of what they have seen and had happen to them in care and or what made them into care in the firs tplace,we cnt imagine what they've ben through so to go to a place whether a tap,smakc or whatever they want to call it is around i think is nt right.and so hw cn you go on to say we would treat them differently, this then spring into my mind hw its almost hightlighting the wrongness that could be in doing it i nthe first place.hmm mind hurt mst stop thinking.

also in the news is bout hw madeline said why did he parents nt come when she cried the night before she dissappeared,nw im nt going to go into hw uncaring they mst be cz if what she sed,it happens and all the people that seem to be moaning bout it nw its almst jst for gossip or jst something to get at them for cz im sure other parent shave had comment like this before,and i dnt agree with from the begning that fact that the kiddies were left in the first place i would hate stepping nxt door nvr mind where they did go away from them,bt neither am i them and they know hw they want to e so i can nt think them wrong for my either paranoia or whatever that would make me stay with them.it also did bring a chill cz i did think before i read that others thought it too,'what made them cry then'i jst thought it sounded fishy thats all like something was up with the maddie and she was trying to say it or seomthing,you see im reading so far into it and i hate doing it cz i simply dnt know nothing.

and a moan of moan,hw prey tell me do you get the us these days,it was my first bus in soo long and i was al ready,downloaded the times cz im silly and get scared and need to plan it all,and so i was at the stop knowing what i was doign adn what time it would come,and sure enough there it was,nw i oftenmoan bout the common politness where we live,bt this is jst weird wrong and crap isnt it,when i am at the stop and the man goes by,nw there was no way i could nt be sen cz he looked right at me and even slowed,so why go on.me oooooh sooo pissed at him,do you nw have to do something different should i need to stick my arm out like i did on the way back,what the..im at the f*cking bus stop ring any bells of youtr job asswhole...few aaaaaa feel ok nw thanks computer lol!!.

mags mags mags bring em on!!

i've got the good food lates to read through oh yes bring it...

the delicious mag which is my first experience and oh yes from nw wnt be my lst to finsih,oh yes bring it...


and jst got me new olive too and its loolking fab too,the british edition too this month and its looking gooood.

and in there a few heat and star mags jst you know for a bit of variation inthe magazine fetish.

mags mags mags bring em on!!

mags mags mags bring em on!!

hhhh mre t.v bliss.

firslt gt to mention skins, i could nt beleive it when i watched this weks epidode which the the second to lst one,and at the end kris died.nw i have missed a few and i gather he has some illness whihcihis borther died of or something,and he came home and gt looked after by all his mates,then on awild night wth kassie he tok so dope got all hight then it all went wrong,it was such an emotional moment though,i was like all clenched inside.and then he bled from his nose or ear or somethingand did,nw i though hhh hes gonna have to go bakc into hospital bt no he jst died there and then in cassies arms,and she ran away to america and it went bit word bt evr so much sense from there lol,it was so sad i cried a little,i love cassies character though,she portrays someone so screwed up so good considering it isnt there usualy porogram so an eating disorder has kind of taken on some new levels in this bt it gets the points across quite o.kish i think.

desperate houswives is f*cking fantastic,gosh one of the greatest prgorams on the planet,and can i js say hw f*ckong gorgeous is eva,in this episode it shws so much,her hair her skin her little personal flickers,and cheeky bits,she so gorgeous and she slim bt she also a migit lol and she jst fits herself perfectly,i really think she is one of the mst gorgesou things i have evr seen.nt in a gay way bt you know what i mean.and its gt a great plot too,thjis secret between the new family is grating on me though,i keep wanting to sneek into a spoiler site bt i jst cnt do it lol i mst resist the spoiler goodness.
home and away im waiting for sally to leave the shw and im wanting it to be something amazing cz it really deserves to be something special a sshes such a major character.
neighbours oh come on where can you go wrong with a little neighbours i've grown up with it and it bettr be there for mre yrs to come.its jst a wonderful happy go lucky program one to make anyone smile with the sotry lines both great,silly and sometimes dam right no way hozayish lol.there the families too that come in and u think oh get out my lovely homely program ur new and i dnt wat you wrecking the family we have.yes im sad and u love it lol.bt no people like olive his mum and duncan,when they firt came i was a bit like get awfff please,bt nw i simply love them,there acting is bettr nw for one bt you know there so lovely and familish and i jst think there cool,oh and olive has some hotness about hom that is unexplainable coz itsnt all on the surface bt there jst something lol.and then there is frazer and camella and her sister i love them nw too and i think rosie and camella are so gorgeous and its such a good relationship with them two too,i hear mst are leaving though and i really dnt want that to happen,i have a new family on there nw and im jst getting warm to them,why rip them from my telly watching heart why why would they do it!!
great british menu im a week behind of course on iplayer,and i have jst watched the central rounds,and i was glad the man that won did so,he had some great ideas and really brought british food into the century we're in,i espeically liked the creme brulle in the actual egg cup,genious. i do have a little soft spot for sat bains though i think hes such a great and inventive chef,bt he got to do it all and go to francelst yr its time for the batton to be pst right!!and there are so many new chefs on this seires i think its great cz it shws they dnt stick to the comercial chefs like people would think from such a high profile prgram and they bring all kinds of talent which im sure will nt hinder them either,hehe and i often have seen the guy that was on masterchef help out in the kitchen this week.is he there every week or jst for one chef.its great he here though and has continued with his cheffiness and gt somewhere,can u imagine working on that program with those chefs..my word.i have noticed though that the lady is only narrating it and isnt in the kitchen with them im sure the other yrs she was in with them trying it and stuff,or does she comes in later hmm nt sure on that one.

its nt tv bt its mybook so its hobbies lol, i love it is going great nothing mre to ay, i fear i might fal l short along the read as its so intilectually written and im bit scred of that bt i mst persit and wish i and wish it will be o.k.

i see cameron diaz has come out with a new film,i saw a clip and shes deff gone for a light hearted quipy one again,it didnt really grab me bt i couldbe pursauded when i see it.
i've started watching the sister hood of the traveling pants,gawsh its fab,why have i gone without seeing it before,i know i'veseen it aong my list of movies i want to see searches bt i am unsure as to why i havent ticked it in there.and it has the girl who is nw in gossip girl in it and i think shes gorgeous,so jealous of that girl.
talking of gossip girl that great so for teenage girl type of prgram i know bt i really do like it lol.

i've missed a few eps of big bro usa which im nt too pleased with myself on so i mst see if ther eon 40d.
and another missed on is casualty lst week,and after i made such a deal of csi coming back i missed that too.i did catch up on a new york ep though and im glad im back in there on loving that version of the csi chain.and there the law and order and the new one we have here i am loving that soooo sooo loving that.
im currently watching a place in the sun home and away the good bits and its gt all the people i watched before so its great to see where they are and stuff lol and remind of all the mony people spend lol.

there was a celebrity special come dine with me,which was hilarious to be honest,its the start of a new series i think so bring that on.

i missed er,nt good bt its repeated allll the time.
brothers and sister gosh i could cry luagh and do it all again with that program,its my favourite seires i think, i cnt actually say that as there are different aspects to all i watch bt its fab and bring ssomething that hasnt been brought to our tv,and ther f*cking hilarious,there timing is ace,and it shws people can go from such a huge shw like ali mcbeal and be jst as fab in something else like calista flockhart has.

the support of families...

i have really seen it this week,since you all knowi came home early from our hol in france aaand gosh it has been harder than i thought it would be.nw i want to explain hw much i love my family bt i want to go on to explain hw bad i feel for evr doubting the amazingness of them all.and to explain what a terrible person i am for wanting myparents to dissappear sometimes.aha i have realised though that i dnt want them to disspappear,there is nothing like silence i tell you,when there in the room or in the house and there quite or in bed and its silent,oh gawsh you have no idea what it really is until there is noone in the house,nw that silence is on a differet lvl an evil,lingering nothingness,hw can it sound so different i have no idea bt its weird and sad, and me dnt like it lol.bt people are here nw so the silence has little breaths that obviously make some difference lol.bt they werent hre in the week and i was alone and i was scared shitless,had a wee little panick there at one point,calmed dwn by crying myself to sleep lol,i think part of the problem there was that i was actually really tired and that hightened everything cz i was almost delerious with my tiredness so didnt no what day it was nvr mind hw to breath through i creaking door!!
bt there have been people there for me,for one my cousin lovely cousin you no the one i go on bout all the time lol,who i realise nw i am going to miss all to much when she leaves for her uni yr abroad.she was there for me though,when i had that tough night she talked with me into the nght and made everything o.k.then her mum called the nxt day to chat and keep me company for a while,so it was nice.
nw the sister is back though lolling on the sofa and eating pasta,i swear when shes home she has toritilini every day,sometimes with smokied slamon,sometimes with tom sauce,sometimes with pesto bt always tortilini lol.
and i nw appreciate the family much mre,hmm i dnt knowactualy i always did,i think i appreciate the fact that when they get to me like i could nvr imagine i dnt wantto leave or want them to,mreof a cant i jst click my fingers and u go for and hr or so then come back and gvie me a big hug kinda thing...what the cnt be done,hhhh hw dare you!!

that bloke who we loved on tv..

cheery chappy mark off smart attack was first arreted for the murder of his girlfriend,bt nw he gone missing.scary stuff.

few other mentions is charlotte church will be back on her series which i do like.

skins some sad news with that program that this is the end for all the current characters and they will start a new season with all nw people,it n good i had gotten to know and love these ones.

i missed on tree hill lst night,shits!!

i finshed my book yay bt noooo in both quantitiies,yay cz i was such a fab read it really was,in the edn its happy of course,she comes to her sense gts a bettr job with peple such as porche,finds herself and nt the fake vaneered person she because cz of tihng that occured in he lst yrs which she lst,she realised she wanted carbs and comfy shoes,and she left her husband who ad done a marriage guidbook including sex guide to help with her lost memories lol,and went on to do a trial seperation booklet lol,she new it was ovr and on the lst page she was doing crimbo shopping and found a shirt she was buyingt the yrs before(part of memory lst after accident)and she finally remebred her lover who isnt jst her lover they were in love,and it finshes with her going with gusto to his homes and them ending in eacohters arms and to be honest by the typing a whole lot mre will happen in the unwritten rest of the book lol.
such a good book though im sad its finshed too!!im glad i went for it and its fun and quirky jst what i wanted and needed.

ooh oooh before i go to the amazing onei have started nw i have to mention whislt in tesco i gt two mre new ones,which you can nvr have enough of.one is drumrooooooollll.the NEW KARIN SLAUGHTER ONES!! YES I SAY AS I PUNCH THE AIR BT DNT REALLY BT TYPE I FOR EFFECT!!and this one i jst saw and it caught my eye and i did the test of whether it would grab me and it ticked all boxes and i actually want to read it often since buying it,it intrigues me coz it nt recomeded by anone i simply came across it on the shelves,and so im currently in a dilema as to whehther i want to scope out and read two at a time,which i hate doing usually cz i like to be engrosed and give all my love and attention to one,i think i'' end up sticking to this bt its a thought i will think through lol.

bt the book i decide through much thinking and picking up this new book and that one i went with the one i think in my brain of brains the one i though i would go for nxt,partly cz it intrigued me again one i hadnt chose and cz it was infact one my wonderful cz had sent me to read,he said he lovedand i can gauranteee the guy knows his fab stuff i nthe world so i trusted him and i think it grabbed me mre to read it nw for simply the reeason iwanted him to no i took is thinking to value so i want to shw him i am reading one he has said he thinks i should.and im glad i did as soon as i got in to 'the life of pi'i was hooked.i started off tired so i only wanted to read a page or soemhting in to get my head into it a bit bt carried on for a small chunk!!it sounds soppy this nxt bit the the writin is so bootfil and greatly described with a bit of humour in there too that i feel like im flaoting along with the sotry,it took lots to put it down.so yes that is that and i cnt wiat to carry on.

also very sad news that trisha goddhard tv agony aunt type lady has gotten seriously ill with cancer.there no others thought than sorrow is there,such an awful disease someone cure it somehow.

nw tihs is also a sad conffession as i say bout a man i admire has dies,the guy who played ben hur which is the sad part cz it happens to be one of my favourite moveis of all times,and many would class me as sad for that bt who cares,i also like sparticus and the arginaught one too lol!!and then there is the fact mr ben hur actor has to have been great as he was in friends with joe lol need i say mre.i htink his name though i dnt want to offend if i am mistaken is charlton heston,great man sad times because of his departure from us.

a silly thing to put in too is who is loving the sugar puff advert,im sorry these two singers are catchy man and i cnt help smiling when it comes on which is a great thing it can only bea great thing!!

and our auntie makes the cheeses from her farm(o.k her milk does,shite o.k her cows milk does)and nw they even have and advert and are obviously going round mre cz we have it in our sleepy town.get in!!

anohter sad and shocking thing to mention is the shannon story,ths one has simply gone from bad to wrose,and you often tihnk hw can it and yet it seems to with every day,she was kidnapped by her spte-dads uncles or he was found hiding in a bed with her anyway,then they arrested the step-dad for child prnography.shit.then his sister and mum was it for aiding the taking of the girl and nw the mum ro aiding too was it and theres mention of them doing it for money or even tat they copies an epidosde of shaless that was on nt long ago,that poor girl shes been in care since they found her,she mst be so confsued and mixed up i jst wish it will come out with a bettr situaion for her and that is all done so she can have a good life.

coming from that is i have quite enjoyed a few of the new shameless eps.

so i went and hw much gafore went with it?...!!

...lots would be the answer.nw lets get some background on this nevr ending worlwind of a holiday slash stress fest lol.
we all have heard me talk bout our families place in wales,yes wales chalet,beach bootfil.and every yr we have a permanent weeks spot in it,and nw we often have it for long weekends in between too.trust me u step into that world on that beach u would want to too!!this yr though i decide like the time before nw to stay at home,to spend some time on my own some space, from the rest of the family no,bt simply to roam round at home for a bit,sometimes we all jst need to clear our heads u no.so i said this,and of course mum and dad ave been trying to get me to come,we have had a few disputes though we had the major ones lst time so this time wasnt so ad lol!!and then on the morning of them going i woke,this was probably a good thing and bad,cz i told them nt to wake me as i new i would only miss it.bt in the night and through the pst day i had been having momment of saying im going and then crawling back thinking it was simply my need to be in that special place.bt at 2am the night before i packed my bags and decide i would go,then calming down a bit i decided it was a tired panicking stuper and said no i actually dnt want o.bt in the end the nxt day as they were goin i woke and u wanted to go,bt i lay in my bed thingking no calm down and its too late there going,and so thye did,nw would it have been easier for me nt to have woken or would i have later woken and really bin in the shit,cz they phoned when they wre down the road at the shpo to say come on lst chance comes with us,and after a few tears of my undesisivness dad caqme on the line and said 'were putting down the phone and coming to get you.PACK NOW'and so that is hw it went i packed i walked out the door and we traveled 4 and a bit hrs to get to our place on the beach.oh what a sight to be hold too,my my i had forgotten waht a wanderful place it was,you can tell this people by the fact that the weather forecast looked mre like a sinister nightmare than anyhting else and we were as excited as evr.and so i unpacked my bags in my room(we all have our own room which we always use)gran is situated at the other end of the chalet away from theother rooms,nt to get rid of her jst because this was always the way mre ofa gues wing offthe lounge up a few steps.(and she does pee in a bucket and it sounds like shes filling a well)haha too much info!!
throughout the stay it was on and off raining and every time the sun came out mjum had her book fgripped and ran outside on the varanda tripping slightly as she was wripping her trousers up at the same time lol.that night we went tothe local spa shop,all were too tired to do the weekly shop that night.i couldnt of course check my blogs or up to date this site as they dnt have phones there or internet(in a way i hate it cz come on you know why that would be bt it truly ius a place of peace and rexpite from the stresses of the world so it is kept that.)we gotone of the usually bought deli chickens and some conrflour,sweetcorn,and bread,of course a few nibble somehow slipped in there too!!hw i will nvr know!!and then i said i'd make tea and so i did,there are many meals we mst all have in our heads that we have at certain times,like in ceertain places,likes we always pack the pasta,tom auce and tuna for camping and weener sausages and jst u no the meals we associate wit certian places that we always cook tere,if nt we do and one of them is this meal,its one we always think hmm frst night,tired, long journey bt need something fingr licking good in the belly,and this or slodge is it,its chicken in white sauce, no joke bout the name cz thats what is it,cooked chicken put into a white saue and sweetcron in it,served easily with rice and seasoned,you think its too simple to be good dnt bet your nelly on it,its a favourite and loved by all.

later that night we watched a bit of t.v gave up on staying awake and everyeon went to bed.traveling is a tiring things lol,of course all were somewhat happier when the mcdonalds filled there bellys,oh and of course when the journey was barely too minutes in gran got out her always made bacon sarnies which were shared with lovely noises lol.and a few loo stops too of course,many crisps and sweets i think were pulled from the coool bag too!!
i unpacked the food bags too,this is my job,because we are literally on the cliff side to the beach the hill to get to the challet is quite a goodies so dad and sam have becmome the fetchers and they unload the car whilst me and mum grab it off them at the door,and im the food women because i keep it clean and i am the only one that will sifen stuff off so the teenager cnt eat all the doritos in one lol!!
on sunday we decide we mst do our big shop so off we went to tesco.its always nicer somehow to shop here i dnt know myabe its jst the fact the places are soo mch mre peaceful in the quite place and everyone seems all the mr happy to help and friendly,i swear whenever we tell people where we are they go'ooooh ...... thats the lvieles places isnt it'
ooh i interupt firstly we did nt go straight to shop,me and mum always have some little adeventures together likegoing into the countryside no knowing where we were jst knowing we needed to see green and found our little dream cottages and decide to go on further lol,and today it was the tunr of going to the tourist office to ask where the better cycle routes were for people like us(lazy buggers bt wanting to nt be those people)as this yr we bought our bikes on the back of the car for the very first times.whichis a gamble inetself the roads where we are are dangerous to ay the least,and thats jst for cars,you often go round the corner and slam on the brakes because the lanes or so indy and country like a slim you have to take it in turns to reverse back to make way.the lovley lady gave us many free tit bits of advice and a great leaflet in a plastic wallet,o.k crap for the envirmoemtn bt great for messy people like us,and she directed to a little town ovr the bridge.as we got in the car and mum said lets go have a look i though ovr the brige and when i uttered bridge to mum with the puzzle look on my face she looked atme with a cheeky smile'oh yes she said te bridge up there into a new world'a bridge i kept thinkig where is this things i have nvr hard of it,and as we cralwed up the hill(nw in a snow storm might i say)we came ot the top and there it was the toll boothtotake us onto the bridge,hwich we both were crapping all the way ovr coz the snow was quite literally stopping us see anything.trust it to come right then eh?and then we were out and into the place we were told bout and poh hw pretty it was,mum had been here in the pst bt she said brdge in the high pitched tone as i did cz it was somewhere we nvr went,nt out of nt liking the place bt cz we nvr feel the need to travel outside our magical beech bubble lol.and we went down and down and down and down and down this hill for a while(passing our new homes by the way which i will b looking up on the interenet in a sec lol)mum loves the look of the new wales looking builds and would love to live in them,way out of our price league yes bt shut it we can look and imangine right..yes good answer!! and then we got to our destination the marina.where there were these cute little marina front homes where you can imagine all the boaties live there lol,and there were some pretty boats in to dock too,including the ferry to island which we would have been slight too tmetped i think to dodge ovr if we had had our passports lol.and then we found the cycle path it looked pretty cool ad we had seen someone going on it unfer us as we cross the foggy bridge so we new where it went!!
and then we crawled back upo the hill and off to tesco,nw it isnt jst us there is deff a different and bettr selection of foods in wales,there are mre cakes mre bakery bits and drinks and all the stuff has a biggr range and its nt jst welsh produce that make sit,like wesore cadbury and kipling stuff we had nvr heard of.ooooooooooh mum elated purchase was the treacles spone(tate and lycle i might put there)ie cream,there were loads though like apple crumble from mrs beeton and all sorts of ice creams and other stuff we would nvr get at home,bt its the same as all things in life we seem ot have lesser selction whre we live of lots of neeeded stuff.we shopped and had fun looking at all the stuff we couldnt get at home,and then went to the checkout and walked out trying to scrap our jaws off the floor,oh yes wales you cheeky git you offer so much,webuy it we spend lots.shit!!common sense is needed nt me and mums goggle eyes,bt home we went and sturggled like buggery to take the stuff down the hill wihtout going ass up and mum wasstraught inthe ice cream giving gran a spoon to try tyr tyr tyr tyr!!which she did and the noises from them both said it all to be quite honest with yuou lol.and the men were down at the beach and as soon as the gate went the ice crema was hidden away lol.
then after much umming and arrrring they all went on a boke ride,oh nt all granny as young as she is hehe!!couldnt quite go with thm and i was tired and still shell shocked from the shop lol,and so i staye dhome and prepared tea,they came back with moans and groans,oh yes you twits wales i quite known for being a hilly places.arses!!and so i laid out steak and kidney pies with roasts and veg(all pre-made)bt dnt you tut ifyou didnt cook it right it would be burn shit and awful tasting so theres still fun cooking and prep involved.they decide against the crumble as they shoveled in two pies lol!!and then we settled dow nfor a game of yatzee which i though i lst appalingly at bt i didnt.and gran who had nvr played and looked often at the dice wih he old lady paranoia scared of everyhing so was worreid the dice mgiht explode on her,she won i think.
bt hw am i wriing this you ask,you dn oh who cares i want to tell,in the end i missed home too much and had things i needed to look after here so my wonderful pops who i moan at far too much for him ot be this nice to me,drove all the way home which was brill in istelf coz him and mjum usualy take turns and i arrived home to the sister who is preparing for her intervview.and he went back early today.bless him!!so nw im missing them bt its only when i think of it like oh hw many mre hrs lef in the day what will i do does it bring the butterflies being sick in my stomach feeling lol!!
so they will all be enjoying the bakery nw.the bakery oh to put a bit on this wonderful place in here,it has been there since my dad was young as he went from a bab like we did too,and it was then run by the guy that nw does its dad,who is slightly floaty nw and wuite a bit deaf lol so his son runs it,and people flcok queeing from out the door lol,seriously you have nvr tried anything like this no no no no no im nt being a oh mum cooks bettr than anyone kind of thing no quit eliterally these are the niest made and tasting things evr,from breads to bakes to cakes to pastries it has everything and the rolls are the icing on the three tired cake and are loved and so much so we have to sometimes have a special bag brought out the back tha the man coz he knws us lovingly saves from the other customers,its very family styled though and both blokes are lvoely,you dnt server yourself they stand a the counter and get you all you need and whislt you wait you can have a look at the rack of leaflets of things to do plastered around the places.jst lovely.

i did miss csi though and breaking into tesco and great british menu so i mst cath up with that somehw.

you no when..

you feel like you've been so busy all day and when you look back on what you've done you really havent done much of anything lol.today i have been to the shops and thats it bt itfeels lots mre lol.maybe allthe convos i have been having in my head have been keeping memre busy than i think.i have hadlots on my mind today for some reasons.lots to think bout you ask?nt really...i have been thinking bout my sister,bout the summer,bout the news jst lots and bits and bobs,and i have also beenreminding myself all day to watch certian programs today especially some on iplayer before they run out tongiht,and as much of a stupid thing that it will sound bt i think reminding myselfovr and ovr again bout these programs have worn me out and maybe lots of the deflation to my current state hehe dare i say is after a day of planning my evening,it all went tits up and i umm missed it all.my mum has been cleaning out lots of stuff so i have been moving round with her and doing the odd bit here and there.and how it happene di dnt know bt i missed them.i actually ran up to my laptop to click iplayer on before great british menu ran out,i had like 2 mins to load it,and then mum needed me downstairs,and beeing the goof that i am i thought ha i've loaded it all will be grand,hmmm did i say this did i say it or want it.cz it nvr happened i simply came back up and it said sorry somehting went wrong,oh yes it certianly did something went very wrong cz i have missed yet aonther episode andi feel likei have let my foodie prgram down coz i have missed far too many of them so far.

i also feel bad today because ihave let my friend down.she has been off for the easter break and she was going backtoday and i couldnt see her befroe she went,and i have been putting it off because of colds and busy with stuff,(nt purposlfly putting it off)and nw she will be back in uni and i know she would nvr say it bt she mst be miffed with me i jst know it.dam!!

im curretnly catching up with lots of things on the net.like corrie,emmerdale and hollyoaks,and i ave to say they are all doing oretty good and gripping things at the moment i love them all!!

my books going so so so so so gooood,she is nw thinking bout life and hw it really wasnt rosie before and i feel shemay be falling for her lover who she dint no excisted.lol hw bizarredoes that sound lol.im coming to the end of the book though so some decsions shall have to be made on the nxt one ooooeee i so unsure!!

oooh on tv nw is the best of 'a place in the sun home or away'hehe great stuff. people always say when thse programs on,'yes bt these people alwyas look at nice houses and they dnt usually shw the human being in the real world homes.' yes bt i completely disagree with there moans,cz would we really want to sit and watch someone who is buying a small house or a tatty thing.no i tell you we wouldnt we want to see things we could nvr usually look inside the door of,pretty things extravigant things,i dnt want to see insdie homes like mine cz i have my lovely house,i want to see bigger different things,with the pool and cabins and all the stuff thrown in it makes it fun and it makes the ooooo and aaaaas coming from everyone lots mre cheery lol!!

i had a suddent thought the other day...the lindt bunnies and santa that come out at those celebrations are loved and grabbed off the shelves,and they obviously sell lots of them.bt do they sell that same chocolate for the rest of the yr in a bar or something esle,cz surely they are losing out here.no?and the same with things like the galaxy eggs,people have told me they love the combination of the carmelly insdie,and the bar isnt the same,so they would be better to mkae them into somehitng esle surely?such a stupid things to write bout i know bt i am writing bout the little things and the other stuff and this was on my mind.

shipwrecked is back soon.oooh tad excited cz i always say no i dnt think i will get into it and i do lol!!
big brother usa its got to be staged it jst has to be,bt it gooood oh so goood.
into a little bit of the joe too lol.
and law and order tonight,quite sad i missed the new on ovr here though.
happy to be told on the advert that i nvr missed csi this week and it was off and will be back on tuesday,though i cnt find the csi new york to cath up on that one!!

mum is loving her veg patch and i thought it should be mentioned here,cz i want it to be written hw proud of her,of all her gardening stuff she does it really really is great!!

im in thinking mood and it hurts..

and its come bout with the story of the man who used to be a women and is nw pregnant because he kept his women organs of being able to produce children in is womb going,(you like my scientific explanationthere)i am hurtingin my head cz im nt sure hwithink of it,im usually so in with this kindof debate,why its a debaetepuzzles me too cz it shouldnt be it should be there lives we should nt argue with it,bt it is.
im puzzled and confusded firstlyas i said because i always know which side im on or my views,fromthe very start of seein an issuei know own thoughts of the matter and will argue to boot!!and so with this im in hurtie heady mode lol!!
i coimpletey know that he is a man,people are saying he has his womb hes always a women,bt no he has wantedto change ex and has become the man i think we should accept this one because that who he wants to be nw!!
the one issue is should he have a child,i dnt puzzle myself on the should they have a baby i think yes they should why nt,a mum and a dad why shouldnt they,bt i have the niggle the awful niggle of a judger in my head...t i think its mre cz im scared for them now making it public and therefore the childs safety, i am scared of other niggling judgers and then the mre harsh niggling judgers and what they will do.
and i think my niggles come spurely from something so unkown and a change like this happening,jst something so new to our world is happening i think it wil take time to sink in...im jst tellingmyself that for nw until my niggle iron themselves out to come to the surface so i know what im actually thinking on the topic,i might come back to this later lol!!
bt i am in no way on the hunt on these people,they are human with needs and wants and a love for eachtoher and a family so be it and good for them!!